Greeting for an Ending to the Beginning

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2016 To 2017

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Another year would soon be ended

To welcome a new year of new journeys,

Another number will be added

To open challenges of new journeys.

Another year may ended to open a new

To welcome new openings of opportunities,

Another counting will soon be renew

Continues flowing new opportunities.

The end of twenty-sixteen soon ends

And the twenty-seventeen comes openly,

Where challenges may be even tough trends

But keep moving on forward openly.

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*Have a Happy New Year to everyone and Welcome Twenty-Seventeen (2017)*

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Jr.

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Merry Christmas!

...

Have a joyous life,

Thanking all the blessings receives,

For the birth of the Christ,

A celebration that celebrates every year,

A day where gifts presents,

Where a family gets together,

To celebrate in simple,

Or in Grande,

Let's have a wonderful Christmas,

Merry Christmas to everyone!

...

Jr.

...

A Hard One

There are things we couldn't know

Things that hard to explain,

Couldn't see the real things how

Even to think are harder to complain.

Though help may able to ask

But it's hard to speak it up,

A difficult word to be a task

A task would be hard to wind-up.

Harder than to speak and to show

Still in the midst of knowing,

Having a hard time to see beyond shadow

Until the edged come flowing.

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Note:

A poem comes from Thin Line.

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Jr.

He Knows...

...

In life, we can never tell for how long we may live.

For how long we could be happy or sad and even be mad or hate.

We could never know the journey of our lives would be enough to us to find our destination.

We could never know how many challenges in our lives that's ahead of us.

All we know that the God was the one who knows everything.

He knows what would we be soon He gave us our lives.

For how long our journey we could be going.

For how many challenges that He will be given to us.

God knows everything!

Though, we, His children, has been given us our own mind to think and to make our own decisions to ourselves.

To choose what we want to do to our own lives.

It is because He wants us to live free!

Free to live free to decide, free for everything we want in life.

That is the one He gives to us, an important gift to cherish for a life time!

A freedom to have our own life to live in to the fullest of it...

...

Jr.

Questions

??? - ???

Am I suffering?
Maybe or maybe not...
Am I hiding in pain?
Maybe or maybe yes!

Are my laughs were real?
Maybe or maybe not...
Are my tears were true?
Maybe or maybe yes!

Am I an artist, an actress?
Am I a pretender?
Or maybe I am hiding in a mask?
Maybe or it could be a yes.

Hiding from nowhere...
Suffers inside while facing with a smile...
Too much questions but can answer
But keep it hidden behind far.

Hiding the questions of pains
Suffers alone in the dark,
Keeps smiling to show someone a peace of mind
Even though it doesn't mean I am fine.

??? - ???

Jr.

??? - ???

Love Quotes...

~~~ ~~~

"They say love is blind...
         So the ugly truth hides beyond...
 That may able to hurt if you can't accept...
        But they say when love is true and real...
 A love that is endless for eternity...
   The ugly truth would be accepted..."

~~~ ~~~

"I don't know you from the beginning...
  I just met you once...
 I just see you once...
  But my heart quickly beat on you...
 And my soul goes crazy looking for you...
       And I fall for you deeply unknown..."

~~~ ~~~

"Deepening love doesn't mean give all of you...
                  But give your trust and loyalty to that person...
 Be friends and treat each other equally...
     Accept the person's perfections and imperfections...
 Fight for your love until the end...
         That strengthens the bond of love..."

~~~ ~~~

"Why do love always asking questions?
        As if something is not yet clear...
 Seeking for something to prove more...
              Still not enough that ruins relationship...
 Until things goes bad and wrong...
        So don't ask too many questions...
 Just learn to trust and express how much you love that person...
        And let love goes on smoothly..."

~~~ ~~~

"Jr."

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Words from Him

"I'll never give you these challenges if you won't surpass it. Because I know you could surpass it no matter what you thought. No matter what you do, you may able to stand it and win from it. The reason why I gave you this to make show how tough you are facing each trials, that you've already been winning and still winning until now. And I'll always be here waiting, watching and guiding you all through out of each challenge in your life. I am you God."

Jr.

Emotions Driven Far Beyond.

          (Emotions)

          Nothing can compare how much deep these feelings envelop within me.

         Creating something that is only written within my mind and only can be seen within it.

          Some things that could not be define by simply saying by words.

          Feelings that deepen in times and had been toughen the surface of emotions.

          Emotions that are starting building up high enough to reach an imaginable pace.

          Though an emotions that was never really occur neither to come out nor to burst out.

          Hidden within in the deepest self not even my soul could reach within.

          Driven too far beyond the world of nothingness where darkness resides.

          A world that myself only knows where my entire emotions driven far beyond.

          (Beyond)

         Jr.

Meets like Spike

Meeting at first sight

Makes me wonder

Makes my mind think,

Second meeting opens light

Fill my heart with tender

A letter forms without ink.

I suddenly want to know

Everything about you entirely

Everything you want and like,

The one who stops the snow

That warms my heart so admirably

Meeting you is like an unexpected spike.

<3 <3 <3

Jr.

<3 <3 <3

Damage from Inside

Multiple stitches drawn deadly

Thousand bruises scars rapidly,

Blood surfacing in front

Ruin totally upfront,

Cover in plain light

Hide deep beyond sight.

.-. .-. .-.

Jr.

.-. .-. .-.

Three Words...

--- --- ---

Hidden behind smile
Rapture deep inside,
Suffers long mile
Aching each side.

Bleeding enough badly
Keeps moving forward,
Facing everything toughly
Walking through onward.


--- --- ---

Jr.

--- --- ---

A Battle

What is right?

What is wrong?

Those who see bright?

Those who suffer long?
Where nothing to light?

Where pain had to prolong?

---c---

Jr.

---c---

M.E.E.T.

M - oments to

E - njoy and

E - ngage in

T - ime for eternity.

To MEET that starts to forever.

- - -

Jr.

- - -

Fame

---c---

With all fame

There is a shame

Hidden in flame

Preventing to blame

Thus truth would be lame.

---c---

Jr.

---c---

Sin...

...

Devour with madness

Cover with sadness,

Shower in pain

Capture in vain.

...

Conquer with lies

Ruin with cries,

Clash by words

Slain by sounds.

...

Crash like a waste

Stick like a paste,

Throw into deep shame

Desert into deep flame.

...

Jr.

...

T.I.M.E.

* * *

T - ogether for

I - nfinity of

M - emories to

E - ngrave forever.

A T.I.M.E. would last to eternity.

* * *

Jr.

* * *

Who Are You?

???

Who are you following me?
Who are you that watch me?
Whenever I go that far you were always there.
Wherever I go you would always be there.

Who are you that keep showing?
Why do you always keep showing?
Whatever I do you always stays right at my side.
No matter how far it is you always be at my side.

Why do you always stay?
What is it that makes you stay?
Always lives you behind to keep you away.
Always making you left alone by running away.

Am I worth it of your time?
Am I precious more than your time?
Wasting each time I have to run away from you.
Trash each moment just to hide away from you.

Hurt you with intent so bluntly deep.
Wound your heart so brutally deep.
But you still come right next to me.
And you always stay watching over me.

???

Jr.

???

Heart and Soul

Whoever wants to seek in Me...

Whoever wants to ask for Me...

Don't just look around to search.

Don't just question around to reach.

Seek through your heart.

Ask through your soul.

Where in your hearts could find Me.

Where in your souls could speak to Me.

... ... ...

Jr.

... >_< ...

The Worst of the Humankind

...

Ears use to hear,

       But most of the time ears uses as being deaf.

Eyes use to see,

        But most of the time eyes uses as being blind.

Senses use to feel,

            But most of the time senses uses as being numb.

Mind use to think,

       But most of the time mind uses as being idiot.

Heart use to love,

         But most of the time heart uses as being stupid.

Body use to work,

        But most of the time body uses as being toy.

That makes the humans most of the time as being deaf, blind, numb, idiot, stupid and toy.

       That made the world fall down into pieces of nothing but worst of the humankind.

...

Jr.

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Paths

= = = = =

In life you would experience too many paths

Facing you through your front

Where choices opens so widely

Where ideas scattered everywhere

Choices that would be harder to achieve

Ideas that would be harder to do

So being on the midst of choices and ideas

Being tough is need to continue moving

Because facing each of the different paths

Opens a lot of goal that wanting to be reach

Wanting to fulfill and passes

Even if you struggle at first

Struggle so hard and badly

In rough and in suffer

Still you will soon find the right path for you

A path you deserve from the very beginning.

= = = = =

Jr.

 = = = = =

Would Not be Together Forever

...

The distance that we have

Is far from what we see

Further than what we think

Harder than what we seek...

The location is harder to save

Far beyond what we flee

Longer enough to sink

That makes it too weak.

The harder it goes through

The harder to struggle

The more it makes tougher

That losing strength on the way...

The harder to fight that cough

The more it entangle

That makes it rougher

Harder to escape and to fly.

That makes us part

Far from each other

Not able to hold or touch

Not able to be together...

That makes our heart apart

Even though we hold each other

Even though we reach

We would not be together forever.

...

Jr.

...

Never Ending Wanting

...

     Waiting for someone so near,

            Is the hardest thing to do...

     Looking for that person so badly,

             Is a challenge that needs to pass...

     Finding a way to be together,

            Is the most impossible to be true...

     Hoping that you come to my world,

           Is something that is only a wishful thinking...

     Living with your memories,

         Is the toughest thing to do...

    Breathing without you on my side,

              Is like forcing myself to live...

     Dreaming of you all through,

               Is the only thing I could see you...

     Being on a different paths,

          Is something I want to change...

     Feeling my own heart beat,

            Is only beating for you...

     Thinking a way to be with you,

             Is the only chance I could live...

     Making a way to cross our ways,

           Is the only way to be with you...

     A never ending journey to be with you,

        Is only the beginning of my wanting.

...

     ... Jr.

...

I Wait Until You Come

"I'm lonely and alone here for so long...
       And all I have to do is wish and wait,
 For someone who will save me from this place.
        But still no one comes and no one tries to search...
 Not even tried to invade this place.
        But I never lose hope!
 That one day...
          You would come and saves me.
 And you will take me out of here.
         From this empty place,
 A place I've been prison.
     So in the end...
 I decided to wait with full of hope into my heart.
    No matter how long would it be,
 I will wait patiently and I will not surrender!
    Forever I will wait until you come!
 I will fight until the end!
    Until I see you save me."

"Jr."

Me (God)

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Seek me... in heart and soul.

Learn me... in inside deep.

Explore me... in heart and mind.

Don't make me mine...

Instead make me yours...

Don't just be with me...

Instead just stay with me...

Don't speak with your mouth...

Instead speak with your heart...

-

Jr.

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Deadly Sins

...

An eye that can see but can never ever see...

An ear that can hear but can never ever hear...

A hand that can hold but can never ever hold...

A foot that can walk but can never ever walk...

A mouth that can speak but can never ever speak...

...

Honesty that could show but never been shown.

Words that could speak but never been spoken.

Emotions that could feel but never have been felt.

Trust that could give but never been given.

Truth that could reveal but never been revealed.

...

With an eye that can show honesty,

With an ear that could speak what it hear,

With a hand that can hold to feel,

With a foot that could give trust to step up,

With a mouth that can reveals truth,

Becomes nothing more than a display that shows that world where lust, gluttony, greed, sloth, wrath, envy and pride lives on.

... ...

Jr.

... ... ...

The One...

Someone to talk

Someone to walk,

Someone who protects

Someone who corrects,

Someone that stay

Someone that sway,

The one and only be with forever.

Someone to love

Someone to live,

Someone who cares

Someone who adores,

Someone that can understand

Someone that can withstand,

The one and only accepts who you are.

Jr.

Humans

-Thy Soul-

"A white and clear silk lightly falls on the ground like a white single feather floating down to nowhere. Swaying without a clear direction until it reaches and touches the bottom. Where it would settle still until dust and dirt covers it that pollutes its pureness and ruins the beauty it has."

-After Death-

"The east and west horizontally tied up tightly while the north and the south pointing straight at the ground. Soon lays at the sharp edge waiting down below ready to shower the space at the bottom. And soon the sharp edge rises up above showing a white shinning light all over that will cover the ground of crimson light where the hollow awakes within. Which opens a new portal of journey that is waits for so long."

-Unseen Faith-

"The wind starts to whistle sharply that struggle the flow of sound uncontrollably. It's like a tiny little piece of needles that is hard to see that breaks the thin line into ashes. Mix in the air like a dust that pains the white walls and the black round front that makes things into zero visibility."

-Jr.-

For How Long?

...? ...? ...?

For how long would they wait?

To meet and cross their paths,

To finally ended up their sufferings,

To finally finish up what they started,

To start a new that lightens up their future.

...? ...? ...?

...?

For how long their roads would go forward?

Forward to meet and see each other often,

Forward to finally go together in one road,

Forward from present to future together,

Forward a road of their beginnings.

...?

???

Jr.

???

L. O. S. T.

... ... ...

Life is not just expectation or hope

It is also provides to move and to cope,

To observe more that could add knowledge

To learn and to achieve more than its edge,

A life not holding just to expect or to hope for

But a life that shows an open door.

- Life

... ... ...

Observe to learn would not be enough

It is also needs to join and to work tough,

To experience it and to live alive

To get used to it and be on a jive,

To observe is not just to learn to see

But to learn to go on with it in flee.

- Observe

... ... ...

Spirit is not just a soul of a human

It is also a will to fight like a man,

To live longer enough with contentment

To reach the goals and dreams with fulfillment,

A spirit not just a part of a human soul

But a spirit of fierce without foul.

- Spirit

... ... ...

Trade is not just a simple exchange of goods

It is also trading knowledge with good foods,

To feed enough knowledge of each lands

To enrich a mind with a strong bands,

To trade not just a simple exchange

But it is a greater chance to change.

- Trade

... ... ...

Jr.

... ... ...

Quotes: Love Feelings

...

"Fall for me and I'll make sure you won't regret falling in love with me."

...

...

"If that guy promises you  the stars and the moon... then I won't make any promises! I would just hand it all to you without any words or promises!"

...

...

"My heart beats only belong to you and if I lose you... my heart would suddenly stop beating."

...

...

"You. Me. Love. Then... You and me in love forever!"

...

...

"Puppy love. First love. It doesn't mean that automatically it is an endless love. Because the most important thing is when I found the right one that I knew it would be my endless love even just for a sight and meeting at first."

...

...

"Slippers and shoes are like a love. You won't be able to wear one if the other half missing its other half. And for that, you are my other half."

...

Jr.

...

You...

You're like a wave

Coming so calmly,

Waving at the shore

Smoothly and lightly,

Soon it becomes storm

That could tear so purely.

You're like a wind

Passing around the earth,

Circling and folding all over

Giving fresh air in birth,

Though it may change

Cause a harmful air in forth.

You're like a fire

Ignites brightly at the dark,

Lighten up a heart

Burning on its mark,

That could lift up danger

Cause to start a negative spark.

You're like an ice

Cold as a crystal block,

Hard to break apart

Frozen for a longer clock,

Ends nothing but cold heart

Hurt one soul in the dock.

... ... ...

A Journey

A journey to a world where there is no man could see.

A journey that is never been a walking distance.

A journey that is never been step by a mortal.

A journey that is hard to find in reality.

Long before things begin this journey is never been seen.

Long before things start to move it is never been occur.

Long before things meet its path it is never been known.

Long before things got in into mind it is never expected.

A journey never intended to be a real journey.

A journey never expected to go through far.

A journey that has no paths to chose.

A journey without a beginning and never had an ending.

...

Jr.

,,,

Beyond No Bound!

What lies beyond the unseen?

To whom thou going to ask?

Thus things might be seen?

That reveals the real behind its mask.

How far that beyond to see?

Will it be unravel the truth?

Opens each path to freely flee?

That binds the unseen youth.

Where thy beyond meets its end?

In which revelation may foretell,

Speaking the words that intend

That clears the words of misspell.

Thy unseen would never be reveal?

Where unexpected circling around,

Hiding things beyond to be seal

Forever live not to be bound.

.

J.r.

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Shattered Paths

_ _ _ _ _

Sometimes you think it is the right path

The path that you have been dreaming to walk

A path where your dreams do come true

But as soon as you crosses that path

It started to shattered into tiny little pieces

That opens a lot of paths to cross

Too many paths that hard to choose

Paths that you never know what is right

Until the paths that you thought right

Easily gone at your sight

That no matter how hard you choose

There were too many right paths to be chosen

That would also be a wrong path

Suddenly you would not to choose

You would just go on the flow

Until you would mark each path you cross to

Until you find the path you have been dreaming of.

_ _ _ _ _

. Jr .

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Believing...

. . . . .

Believing in what you see.

Believing in what you know.

Believing in what you have.

Believing in what you learn.

Believing in what you experience.

Believing in what you think.

Believing in what you feel.

Believing in what you do.

Believing in what you can.

Believing in what you are.

Believing in what you treasure.

Believing in what you dream.

Believing in what you achieve.

Believing in what you picture.

Believing in what you taste.

Believing in what you smell.

Believing in what you reach.

Believing in what you care.

Believing in what you love.

Believing in what you wish.

Believing in what you desire.

Believing in what you believe.

Is the meaning of your existent in this world!

Is the meaning of you to fight!

Is the meaning of you to continue!

Is the meaning of you to move on!

Is the meaning of yourself that you can do anything!

Is the meaning of you to walk forward!

Is the meaning of you to keep believing and have a strong faith!

And is the meaning of you to keep positive all through!

. . . . .

"J" . . . "r" . . .

. . . . .

Shattered

Bursting so loud,
            But no one could hear.

Exploding so badly,
              But no one could watch.

Struggles so hard,
              But no one could know.

Hurting so deeply,
          But no one could notice.

... ... ...
          ... ... ...

Aching till shouting,
          But no one hears!

Losing till erase,
         But no one watches!

Breaking till dust,
             But no one knows!

Burning till ashes,
           But no one notices!

... ... ...
          ... ... ...

J.
  R.

... ... ...
          ... ... ...

Learning!

... ... ...

I learn to love...

At the same time I learn to get hurt.

I learn to trust...

At the same time I learn to betray.

I learn to believe...

At the same time I learn to doubt.

I learn to dream...

At the same time I learn to awake.

... ... ...

Yet I learned to get hurt,

I also learn to heal.

Yet I learned to be betray,

I also learn to forgive.

Yet I learned to doubt,

I also learn to appreciate.

Yet I learned to be awake,

I also learn to move.

... ... ...

To heal,

Is to love once again!

To forgive,

Is to trust once again!

To appreciate,

Is to believe once again!

To move,

Is to dream on once again!

... ... ...

J. R.

... ... ...

Thy Soul

...

There is a hollow living in inside deep

Where emptiness starts to invade in whole

Emptiness to nothing that raptures a soul

Running thyself and thy mind into nothing

Until losing in a pitch dark of a deepest sorrow

Living thy soul without a mark to go back

Let thy soul suffer in vein and be worst as doom

That breaks thy soul into pieces like a dust

Causing thy soul live into eternal burden

Where thy soul lost and lives behind into darkness of emptiness.

... ...

J.R.

... ... ...

Doom!

Losing thyself

In into too much burden,

Dipping thyself in depths of sorrow

Losing thyself in each pain

Letting thyself die into the depths of despair,

Darken thy soul in into darkest chaos

Slowly losing thy breath

Until it is too much lost of air to breathe!

Driven thyself into craziness

That aches into too much to handle,

Letting thyself suffer much harder

Processing thyself in a darkest hours

Falling much deeper into the depths of destruction!

Moving too fast to fall

Trying to break out but could not stop!

Until feeling numb

Until thyself lost in right tracks,

Driven into nothing of nothingness

Losing thy soul till forever!

...

Jr.

...

The Unseen

First...

A huge spinning wheel from above comes crushing down the field that ruins the entire surroundings of the whole place.

Second...

A huge wave of dusty ashes would cover the entire surface that erases the face.

Third...

A huge weight of heavy fluids would flow on the ground that drowns the things alive.

Last...

A huge vessels would flow that would color in crimson all over the ground that sprinkles the whole land.

...

Jr.

...

So Hard

For time to time

Each passing days

Passing moments,

For each memories

Things getting far

Getting tougher,

Harder to harder

Then things get impossible!

Nothing to dig

Nothing to hold

Nothing to spend...

. . .

Jr.

. . .

T O R M E N T

( ... )

T - ears that drown by sadness

( ... )

O - blivion in total darkness

( ... )

R - obust feelings of agony

( ... )

M - orose by burden

( ... )

E - ntangle by madness

( ... )

N - umb by the whip of grief

( ... )

T - orture in deep silence.

( ... )

JR

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