Without Him

My heart reaping out

My soul reaping out

My self reaping out.

I felt so pain inside

I felt so hurt inside

I felt so empty inside.

My smile was too fake

My mind was too ache

My heart was too brake.

In the depths of my soul

In the depths of my fool

In the depths of my fall.

I'm so blind seeing the truth

I'm so mute telling the truth

I'm so numb feeling the truth.

Pain all over my self

Sorrow felt all over my self

Nothing else left to my self.

Harder than I thought

Difficult than I fought

Straggle than I caught.

Still not sinking

Still not believing

Still not accepting.

I'm not be able to see him

I'm not be able to be with him

I'm not be able to dream him.

It was the last time I'm with him

It was the last moment I see him

It was the last memory I'm with him.

I try run through him

I try calling him

I try reaching him.

Still he didn't came near

Still looking at me with fear

Still watching me with cheer.

Fear for living me alone

Fear for letting me gone

Fear for seeing me one.

Though his cheering me with a smile

Though his giving me courage to smile

Though his loving me from afar with a smile.

All he wants for me is to be happy

All he wants for me is to be lucky

All he wants for me is to be lovely.

It would be the last for us to be hold

It would be the last dream to be fold

It would be our last day to be told.

Maybe I'm still in pains

Maybe I'm still in sorrows

Maybe I'm still in emptiness.

Still I have to move on

Still I have to save my self I'm on

Still I knew he wants me to move on.

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