... Never Return

 This is unexpected

I remember you,

Thinking of you

This is unexpected.

Yet I remember

Our old days,

Each passing days

I clearly remember.

To my surprise

Not our beginnings,

It's beyond beginnings

End with surprise.

Our last moments

Being together alone,

Being forever alone

No more moments.

The day ends

As you leave,

Just quietly leave

Alone till end.

Questions and more

But never answer,

Leave without answer

I remember more.

Pain and sorrow

You just left,

Nothing just left

Alone in sorrow.

You never return

With no explanation,

Even simple explanation

You never return.

Jr.

Darker

Morning came

Yet I see darkness,

Evening came

Darkness becomes darker.

Sunrise brightly shines

Yet I see no light,

Sunset cover the shines

Yet darkness shade darker.

Another day for new life

Yet I feel nothing,

Another night for another life

And I feel nothing, it keeps darker.

Days are present

I feel the void in greater,

Nights for new present

The void keeps darker and darker.

 

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 Jr.

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Sakit

 

Sakit…

Ang sakit pala kapag nakita mo na,

Iyong solid na totoong-totoo na.

 

Umiyak…

Gusto kong umiyak pero walang luha,

Kahit anong piga ko wala pa ring luha.

 

Sakit…

Sa sobrang sakit nanginginig ang buong kalamnan ko,

Sa sobrang sakit wala akong madama sa sarili ko.

 

Lungkot…

Hindi ko alam kung lungkot nga ba ito,

Basta hindi ko maintindihan kung anuman ito.

 

Sakit…

Handa naman ako pero bakit parang sampal ang katotohanan?

Handa na nga ba ako o ngayon lang nang makita ko ang katotohanan?

 

Nakakalito…

Dahil alam kong nasasaktan ako pero,

Walang luha at puro na lang pero…?

 

Sakit…

Bakit ganon? Ano ba itong nadarama ko?

Sakit nga ba? Ganon lang ba itong nadarama ko?

 

Katotohanan…

Hindi siya naging akin, hindi kailanman nagtapat,

Ngunit nasaktan ako sa katotohanan, sa hindi ko pagtatapat.

 

Katotohanan…

Sa ibang piling na siya masaya ngayon,

Dapat ko nang iwan ang nakaraan at tanggapin ang ngayon.

 

Sakit…

Sa hindi ko pag-amin ng tunay kong nadarama,

Ngunit may pagsisisi man, huli na ako upang ipaalam ang aking nadarama.

 

Jr.

 

 

I am Drowning

 How long should I hold my breath?

Even though water isn't present,

I continue to drown in deep

I try to swim up still I continue to submerge,

Going deep isn't my plan

Yet I keep on sinking it's hard to escape.

I cannot breathe.

I cannot shout.

Help can only be heard through my mind,

In my eyes, help is written

I am drowning from these unknown feelings.

How can I describe these feelings?

I feel so light,

I feel so empty,

I feel so lost.

And it keeps embracing me,

Drown me through this unknown loneliness.

I suffocate as I continue to sink

I keep on fighting, still I am losing,

Help, I wanted to scream

But my voice already left me a long time ago,

Words only stay in my mind.

I feel so alone in this deep unknown

Fill me with pain and sorrow.

I cannot go up, I keep on sinking

I keep going down through deep.

 

Emotions losing and only loneliness stays,

I don't know what to do

I am losing through this loneliness,

I am drowning.

 

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Jr.