Letting Him Go

Last time I saw him

He was beside me,

I'm sitting beside him.

Waiting for something to start

Keeping my self not to speak,

And hoping that it will start.

I look at him and felt something

My heart ache and feel the pain,

I hold my heart and stop thinking.

I knew I understand why

All I want is to be with him,

But I knew I have to stay away.

Live him alone, far from him

Even it's hard for me, I have too,

And keep my self away from him.

It's hard to decide

It's hard to take,

But I need to decide.

Do it quickly and quietly

Done it as fast as I can,

Even it is hard to let him go so quickly.

I still have too live him

Sacrifice as what I called it,

Because I sacrifice not to be with him.

Though his with me and so near with me

His not with me in any chances,

His never been mine that fears me.

That's the reason why I left him

Be alone and be far away from him,

Letting him go is the hardest thing I have done in him.

My Guy in My Dreams

(a short story from a dream)

Night came again and finally get ready to sleep,

Breeze slowly turning cold, the sky slowly showing stars,

After the stars came out the moon finally lighten up the dark,

And slowly eyes would close and soon... Your sleeping so well...

As the night goes by, time still running,

Though, you did not care at all... Even bothered with it...

Because the night is what your waiting for...

As you sleep, dreams may come and soon he would come again...

Being with dreams is the one you've always waiting and wanting...

All your life, you've always want only be with one person...

Even if it was not a real thing, still you've wanted to be with him...

Cause being with him feels so free, so peaceful, so solemn...

His your savior in times of trouble, in times of pain and hurt,

In times of sickness, in times of happiness and sadness...

He wants to be with you as always... Wanting that you've got lots of time to be together...

Share more laughters, adventures, happiness, sadness and pains....

But like the other things in life,

There's always an ending,

No one can stop, no one can destroy...

Because, his only living in your dreams....

His so true in your dreams but never in your real life,

You'll be with him when you sleep but never when you wake up...

His always be with you in times... Waiting you till you dream again...

You knew and he knew what's going on... And you've always heard him whispering....

Whispering a touching words of such true feelings towards you...

"I care for you so much but I couldn't show it fully in to you..."

"I adore you so much but I couldn't do anything for you to feel it too..."

"I like you in and out, your smile, your kindness, your thoughtfulness, and even your weaknesses... everything in you I love so much..."

"Though we were too far from each other, all I can do is always be with you in your dreams..."

"To care you, to protect you, to guide you and be you shinning knight forever..."

"That's what I really feel for you because, I Love You that much and I couldn't explain how and why..."

"All I know is that, what I really felt towards you is the real thing in our lives..."

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