I Move Forward Without a Lie

When I finally learn I move forward

When I finally go on with my life,

You suddenly came onward.

 

When the time I don’t need you

When I already not thinking of you,

Without notice you came in cue.

 

Are you testing me?

Trying to check my feelings?

You just came without guarantee.

 

Yet I am there and you were there

I don’t know why you are there,

But I just pass by and simply stare.

 

I look at you without pain

Now I can tell we are back,

Not as an ‘us’ but simply we remain.

 

From being strangers to strangers

We simply became acquaintance,

We left nothing not even remainders.

 

We simply pass by as we look at each other

In silence we understand each other clearly,

The you and I have ended no need to further.

 

This my goodbye

I thank you for everything,

I move forward without a lie.

 

Jr.

 

 

 

A Story to Tell: Move Forward

 

I don’t know but I finally realize something so important.

If I was before I might fall into so much pain and hurt.

But as time pass by and years counting on and on things changes.

I really thought I can never step forward from the past that hunts me.

If I was before my every step will feel so heavy and tough.

But as my life goes on things finally changes.

Regret changes as well and without knowing I’m beginning to forget.

Memories starting to fade away and moments begin to get deep.

No more riddle I’m beginning to forget about him.

The man that I learned to trust from the very beginning he introduced himself.

The man I learn to care and mostly the man that I learn to love.

Without knowing it the memories he gave me that I thought will never forget.

Not knowing those entire memories will soon fade out.

If I was before any single moment I will recall of our past or sees him.

I will fall into deeply pain and sorrow.

I cry my heart out and it will hurt my heart so much it is hardly to bear.

Yet this time of my life I can surely say I am free.

Free from his memories that imprison me for a long time.

I am not saying I move on it is more of I finally out of the darkness.

Darkness he made for me even though he colors it into a rainbow.

A rainbow that fades away as he left me even if he said he wanted to stay.

Stay but away from me living me no choice but to question his actions.

And even if he wanted to stay away he keeps coming back when I needed him most.

Make me feel happy but in the end will only wreck me in too much pain and sorrow.

If I was before all these stories I tell will fall me apart.

Though now things are differ.

I don’t feel pain or angry about remembering it all.

Now I feel calm and free.

Just simply it is a story to tell for me.

Now I finally realize I can move forward not just a simple move on.

Because no matter what I do he is still a part of my life that will never change.

A part of me that became a story to tell as the years goes on.

 

Jr.