Same Place with Something New

 ...

Same place

Same directions,

With a different pace

And different actions.

Yet the place never change

No matter how long I visit,

It just continue to range

I can no longer stop to revisit.

I venture once again

To see something new,

To explore more to gain

Same place with new view.

I know how to begin

To where I go and explore,

Though danger may come in

I still want to know what to store.

See something new in this place

Something to add up my list,

Even if danger may face

I will risk everything to persist.

Jr.

Nowhere to Go

 

Lost... I am lost once again

From this unknown pain,

I have nothing to gain.

I want to escape and run

Yet I am totally ban,

I have nowhere to go and run.

I want to stop everything

This madness is keep grilling,

I am cook to nothing.

I am so lost I don't know what to do

I have nowhere to go not even a clue,

I am just simply lost, nothing I can do.

Jr.

How long will you understand yourself?

 

How long will you understand yourself?

When your time is just beginning?

When your time is ongoing?

When your time is up to ending?

Or was it when you are already gone?

Mystery; A powerful explanation for yourself,

Nothing has a concrete answer to any of those questions.

Nothing has concrete feelings to understand those notions.

Nothing has a concrete mind to clear those interrogations.

Not even death can explain everything that holds mystery.

Now, how long will you truly understand yourself?

Yesterday cannot be answer anything.

Now is not possible for a thing.

Tomorrow is unpredictable for everything.

No definite day, time and year to understand one self.

To understand one self is a mystery,

No beginning,

No ending,

No middling.

Not even our love ones know you that much.

The end with too many questions,

Questions cannot be answer.

Questions hold on like cancer.

Questions keep on moving like a good dancer.

That end with; How long will you understand yourself?

Jr.

Sadness Pain

 

Sadness,

Once again says, 'Hello'.

Slowly crawling and dipping in,

Now, it becomes my fellow.

Pain,

Begin to creep.

Embrace my inner deep,

No time to leap.

I cry as they begin to come,

Fold me into madness.

I'm about to lose my calm,

Now, I feel like a mess.

Back into the dark,

No escape once again.

I can no longer remark,

No more voice to scream.

I am losing from this pain,

Hurt from unknown sadness.

I have nothing to gain,

As my heart descend into deep.

Jr.

How to Begin With?

 ...

How to begin with?

I know nothing to answer,

Whenever I am down; crawling, hurting, suffering

It was always you who always find me,

Even if I hide my feelings, it will always reach out for you.

How to begin with?

When my 'goodbye' finally find its 'traitor',

Written or unwritten... you always present yourself

Whenever I'm on the edge of falling,

It will always you saving me out of my darkest times.

How to end with?

If the beginning always end up to begin with you?

...

Jr.

'Goodbye'

 

My emotions suddenly run dry

As the day goes by and by,

My feelings for you go bye.

No longer burden with thy memories

Even if I was wounded without remedies,

Everything just stops as it slowly dies.

You are no longer my longing

Not even my belonging,

Yet I don't know where I am going.

Those feelings I have for you

Blocks my entire view,

Now I see some light in due.

Though now I am too tired

My feelings just too dried,

I can no longer go on with pride.

The light that I see no longer need

Thy memories is what I breed,

The only thing I myself can deed.

The only path that I know

The only place that I grow,

My only way I always end up to flow.

Now without any feelings

I freely recall all our dealings,

Slowly I write it down as my keepings.

I am lost because of you

Yet it is you inspired me with clue,

Our story is what I always brew.

And now this is my farewell

The thing I always wanted to spell,

'Goodbye' - as I will continue well.

Jr.

Despair

 

For how long will I survive?

From the depths of my despair,

How long will I revive?

Or will I be able be repair?

I don't know the answers

And I am completely drowning,

I don't even know any prayers

That can save me from my ending.

I try to swim up as I can

Still I continue to go down,

Deep into the deepest ocean

I am lost and drown.

I begin to lose my life

Gradually I begin to fade,

The suffocation cuts deep like a knife

Until I only see darkness in shade.

Jr.