How long will you understand yourself?
When your time is just beginning?
When your time is ongoing?
When your time is up to ending?
Or was it when you are already gone?
Mystery; A powerful explanation for yourself,
Nothing has a concrete answer to any of those questions.
Nothing has concrete feelings to understand those notions.
Nothing has a concrete mind to clear those interrogations.
Not even death can explain everything that holds mystery.
Now, how long will you truly understand yourself?
Yesterday cannot be answer anything.
Now is not possible for a thing.
Tomorrow is unpredictable for everything.
No definite day, time and year to understand one self.
To understand one self is a mystery,
No beginning,
No ending,
No middling.
Not even our love ones know you that much.
The end with too many questions,
Questions cannot be answer.
Questions hold on like cancer.
Questions keep on moving like a good dancer.
That end with; How long will you understand yourself?
Jr.
...
How to begin with?
I know nothing to answer,
Whenever I am down; crawling, hurting, suffering
It was always you who always find me,
Even if I hide my feelings, it will always reach out for you.
How to begin with?
When my 'goodbye' finally find its 'traitor',
Written or unwritten... you always present yourself
Whenever I'm on the edge of falling,
It will always you saving me out of my darkest times.
How to end with?
If the beginning always end up to begin with you?
...
Jr.
My emotions suddenly run dry
As the day goes by and by,
My feelings for you go bye.
No longer burden with thy memories
Even if I was wounded without remedies,
Everything just stops as it slowly dies.
You are no longer my longing
Not even my belonging,
Yet I don't know where I am going.
Those feelings I have for you
Blocks my entire view,
Now I see some light in due.
Though now I am too tired
My feelings just too dried,
I can no longer go on with pride.
The light that I see no longer need
Thy memories is what I breed,
The only thing I myself can deed.
The only path that I know
The only place that I grow,
My only way I always end up to flow.
Now without any feelings
I freely recall all our dealings,
Slowly I write it down as my keepings.
I am lost because of you
Yet it is you inspired me with clue,
Our story is what I always brew.
And now this is my farewell
The thing I always wanted to spell,
'Goodbye' - as I will continue well.
Jr.
For how long will I survive?
From the depths of my despair,
How long will I revive?
Or will I be able be repair?
I don't know the answers
And I am completely drowning,
I don't even know any prayers
That can save me from my ending.
I try to swim up as I can
Still I continue to go down,
Deep into the deepest ocean
I am lost and drown.
I begin to lose my life
Gradually I begin to fade,
The suffocation cuts deep like a knife
Until I only see darkness in shade.
Jr.
1st –
'It is storage not a place. Keep everything safe yet can be lost or be erase. Can be accurate or inaccurate that holds the key without a key of the past, present and future. What is it that you want to hold yet cannot hold?'
2nd –
'The developer and the destroyer, a part of our lives which we live and progress, to gradually remember and gradually forgotten as it existed. What is it?'
Jr.
Lost... I am lost once again From this unknown pain, I have nothing to gain. I want to escape and run Yet I am totally ban, I have nowhere...
