Sadness Pain

 

Sadness,

Once again says, 'Hello'.

Slowly crawling and dipping in,

Now, it becomes my fellow.

Pain,

Begin to creep.

Embrace my inner deep,

No time to leap.

I cry as they begin to come,

Fold me into madness.

I'm about to lose my calm,

Now, I feel like a mess.

Back into the dark,

No escape once again.

I can no longer remark,

No more voice to scream.

I am losing from this pain,

Hurt from unknown sadness.

I have nothing to gain,

As my heart descend into deep.

Jr.

How to Begin With?

 ...

How to begin with?

I know nothing to answer,

Whenever I am down; crawling, hurting, suffering

It was always you who always find me,

Even if I hide my feelings, it will always reach out for you.

How to begin with?

When my 'goodbye' finally find its 'traitor',

Written or unwritten... you always present yourself

Whenever I'm on the edge of falling,

It will always you saving me out of my darkest times.

How to end with?

If the beginning always end up to begin with you?

...

Jr.

'Goodbye'

 

My emotions suddenly run dry

As the day goes by and by,

My feelings for you go bye.

No longer burden with thy memories

Even if I was wounded without remedies,

Everything just stops as it slowly dies.

You are no longer my longing

Not even my belonging,

Yet I don't know where I am going.

Those feelings I have for you

Blocks my entire view,

Now I see some light in due.

Though now I am too tired

My feelings just too dried,

I can no longer go on with pride.

The light that I see no longer need

Thy memories is what I breed,

The only thing I myself can deed.

The only path that I know

The only place that I grow,

My only way I always end up to flow.

Now without any feelings

I freely recall all our dealings,

Slowly I write it down as my keepings.

I am lost because of you

Yet it is you inspired me with clue,

Our story is what I always brew.

And now this is my farewell

The thing I always wanted to spell,

'Goodbye' - as I will continue well.

Jr.

Despair

 

For how long will I survive?

From the depths of my despair,

How long will I revive?

Or will I be able be repair?

I don't know the answers

And I am completely drowning,

I don't even know any prayers

That can save me from my ending.

I try to swim up as I can

Still I continue to go down,

Deep into the deepest ocean

I am lost and drown.

I begin to lose my life

Gradually I begin to fade,

The suffocation cuts deep like a knife

Until I only see darkness in shade.

Jr.

Two Riddles

 1st – 

'It is storage not a place. Keep everything safe yet can be lost or be erase. Can be accurate or inaccurate that holds the key without a key of the past, present and future. What is it that you want to hold yet cannot hold?'

2nd – 

'The developer and the destroyer, a part of our lives which we live and progress, to gradually remember and gradually forgotten as it existed. What is it?'

Jr.

To Our Beloved

 

You came so little,

Yet you became a big part of us.

With your every little steps,

You brought us the largest footprints to our hearts.

You became our little child,

Give us joy, laughter and became a great part of our family.

You cherish us and love us,

And we do care, cherish and love you more than ourselves.

Yet the time with you is not enough,

As your time is not the same as us.

The little time you have,

Given us the bigger part of our lives.

Now we do hope we given enough everything you need,

Our care and love for the times you were here.

And soon enough,

Even from beyond we will meet again.

To our beloved fur children,

We still miss you all and love you even more.

Jr.

S I X T Y

 

Spectacular memories you fulfill

Incredible dreams that you came true

Xanthan through the years for your families and friends

Timeless as ever, still looks young and beautiful

You are fabulous and redefine it all your own

To my Mother's Best Friend