She Confess

She's in relationship

She's in friendship,

In a man she's not sure

In a man she care.

He easily get mad

Easily get irritated,

He is a funny guy

A joker and a fine guy.

He is her boyfriend

He is her boy friend,

He loves her as a woman

He loves her as she am.

They both important for her

They both care and love her,

Though she feels and knew it

Still she's really not sure of it.

He cares only to her

He cares everyone around her,

He loves her and nothing else

He loves all and not only one.

All in him was different

All in him she want,

All in him she hates

All in him she likes.

She's in trouble in her heart

She's in trouble to be hurt,

How she loves him as him?

How she hurts when she loose him?

He wants her as she feels

He loves her as she knows,

But she wants to be free

But she wants to hold him free.

She wants to escape on him

She wants to be with him,

Wishing to be apart of him

Wishing to be forever with him.

She's not in love in him anymore

She's in love with him so much more,

He loves her because she's with him

He loves her because she's special for him.

Oh, how she wish he let her go

Oh, how she wish he get her too,

She's in pain on him too much

She's in love with him too much.

He wants her only to be kept

He wants her only to be meant,

But she can not kept by him

But she wants to be meant only for him.

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G O D

G - UIDER

O - BSERVANT

D - EFENDER

He is our GUIDER since we were a child until in our death, He would be still there on us to guide us in all the paths that we choose to go through.

He is our OBSERVANT who always there at our sides, just observing us to what ever we done to our lives and He would always be there to watch us all.

He is our DEFENDER who would always there to defend us all, also ready to protect us all in any moments of our lives.

He is our GOD the guider, observant and our defender who would always be there at our sides as always...

Without Him

My heart reaping out

My soul reaping out

My self reaping out.

I felt so pain inside

I felt so hurt inside

I felt so empty inside.

My smile was too fake

My mind was too ache

My heart was too brake.

In the depths of my soul

In the depths of my fool

In the depths of my fall.

I'm so blind seeing the truth

I'm so mute telling the truth

I'm so numb feeling the truth.

Pain all over my self

Sorrow felt all over my self

Nothing else left to my self.

Harder than I thought

Difficult than I fought

Straggle than I caught.

Still not sinking

Still not believing

Still not accepting.

I'm not be able to see him

I'm not be able to be with him

I'm not be able to dream him.

It was the last time I'm with him

It was the last moment I see him

It was the last memory I'm with him.

I try run through him

I try calling him

I try reaching him.

Still he didn't came near

Still looking at me with fear

Still watching me with cheer.

Fear for living me alone

Fear for letting me gone

Fear for seeing me one.

Though his cheering me with a smile

Though his giving me courage to smile

Though his loving me from afar with a smile.

All he wants for me is to be happy

All he wants for me is to be lucky

All he wants for me is to be lovely.

It would be the last for us to be hold

It would be the last dream to be fold

It would be our last day to be told.

Maybe I'm still in pains

Maybe I'm still in sorrows

Maybe I'm still in emptiness.

Still I have to move on

Still I have to save my self I'm on

Still I knew he wants me to move on.

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