Where is My Peace?

Thought are everywhere in my head

Pain, suffering, hate, anger but it also had...

Loneliness, tears, aching and tiredness that wants to give up already.

Then suddenly another thoughts comes in

Another emotions raining and I can feel it,

Excitement, happiness, romance and love comes crushing.

Thought it still accompanies with sadness and anger

That added with jealousy and madness...

But it is an emotion that couldn't figure out.

Nothing to be exact

That couldn't find peace of mind,

That made me feel hollow deep within even it is full of emotions.

Makes me feel empty and lost

Everything seems so out of my hands

Slip out everything from my mind but still emotions in burst.

Mind starts to live in chaos

A silent chaos that couldn't give a peace,

It explodes like bomb but into silent one.

The things that I wanted and I like

Slowly losing its path,

Never ever be found in the midst of chaotic emotions.

That shut down my peace

Creates nothing but a chaotic silent,

A place without a peace to find elsewhere!

Jr.

I See My Face

Is this a nightmare or just a dream?

I see myself in the midst of a gleam,

Is this a nightmare or simply a dream?

I see myself standing out of a team.

I thought it is me

But I just thought it a wee,

It isn't the real me

I know it isn't that kind of eerie.

She wears a white dress

Stand in the midst of a mess,

She wears a saddest dress

With a face of sadness.

She's in white light

But never at the right,

She's at the line light

Though covers with darkest bright.

Her eyes filled with sadness

A soul of madness,

Her smiles filled with sadness

With a spirit of loneliness.

Who are you standing there?

Facing me in this elsewhere,

Who are you looking there?

Just looking at me in this nowhere.

What are you trying to say?

With a voice of silent lay,

What really did you just say?

With a voice that couldn't ray.

I don't know why you had my face

Though I never had your grace,

I don't know why I see my face

Cover with despair and sadness like a lace.

? . ? . ?

Jr.

It was You Who Said Farewell

When you stay,

You stay.

When you live,

You live.

Enough to show,

Not enough to stay.

Enough to care,

Not enough to hold.

You came,

You live.

You guard,

You live.

Whenever I'm sad,

You were there.

Whenever I'm despair,

You were there.

Though when I want to talk,

You stay behind.

Though when I want to hold,

You live afar.

When I want to see you,

You never ever came.

When I miss to see you,

You never show up.

It was you I care,

But it was you that stay away.

It was you I fall,

But it was you left me behind.

You tell me you care for me,

But you distance yourself.

You tell me you love me,

But it was you who said farewell.

Jr.

Eternal... Curse

Is the word eternal means a happy ending?

If this eternal love means never ever die?
Then would that be simple in mending?

If the eternal love will never fall into a lie.

An eternal love that falls into a curse

With a cycle of joy and pain,

A curse that falls out of course

With a journey that pass by the rain.

Eternally in love that would never ever change

A love that has fulfill with a curse,

An eternal burden of range

A love had come at worse.

Eternally lives in sorrow

With a never ever ending beginning,

Eternally lives in shadow

With curse that would never find an ending.

This love that has been forbidden

A love that promises to be eternal,

A love that is hard to be hidden

Love that end in curse in the final.

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Jr.