Confession

I kneel before you to confess my love

I honestly want you to know the truth,

It was you made me believe love can move

And it was you I want to share my warmth.

To learn that love is such a mystery

That unfolds many possibilities,

To create more memories of merry

Can change oneself with such abilities.

And it was you change my way of belief

I finally learn to love honestly,

To care and to hold someone with relief

It is only you I love so surely.

Now I want you to know my true feelings

I give you my heart and all my beings.

--- --- ---

Jr.

Smile

It started with your simple smile

Now we had memories in a mile.

(" ~ ")

Jr.

Choose

If I get a chance to choose time

I will choose our time that we prime,

The moments we share

Memories we flare,

Though I lost you for a lifetime.

. . . . .

Jr.

Is it Best Than Three Words?

Father than I expected you came to my life.
Arrive in the right time when I needed someone most.
Rescue me as I'm about to fall and let me be with you.
Eccentric we became so close not knowing I slowly fall into you.
While the truth from the start we didn't know each other.
Earnestly want to know what this emotion means though.
Lest our chance to finally reveal our feelings.
Lure out the truth that lies upon this emotion.

Benign you slowly set me free.
Even if I knew you feel the same way.
Still you keep your distance that pains me.
To the exact point when I was ready to confess.
Though the moment you notice you push me away and go.
Hear nothing but a silent goodbye which is more drastic.
Avoided me rather than telling me what's on your heart.
Never look back, now I'm asking is it best than those three words?

I know you knew the eight letters I want to hear.
Lives me puzzle out for your true reason why you left.
Openly I waited till you speak the three words that I need.
Voiceless you push me away rather than words to speak.
Eventually you left me alone without an explanation.
Yearn I follow but you push me further living me with this pain.
Overthrow me as if I'm nothing left without any explanation.
Unaware of the pain you would give as a gift of farewell.

Jr.

Lost to Figure

I am lost to useless,

Now I am restless and tired,

So hopeless now I'm in pain,

Nothing to figure.

...

Jr.

My Love

Oh my night the medium of our meetings
It's you that I wait till this darkness end,
And I want to hold you so much intend
Out thy worries cause I come with greetings.
Oh my dear love now is the time to hold
The night we can be together again,
A chance that the heaven gave us to gain
In this limitless time we shall be bold.
My love on this given time together
Let us create more memories to live,
A moment we could cherish forever
And tonight my love is what you receive.
I will love you till the end of our time
And once again let our hearts beat in rhyme.

Jr.

Busy Brats

If I choose a pet I choose cats.

That could catch up with those busy rats.

With their sharpest claws.

They catch without flaws.

Protects our home from those busy brats.

--- ... --- ... ---

Jr.

Swizzles-End

Silver, gold and bronze you have it then what am I?

White isn't my color I'm more of black that fall.

In between I try to reach but you walk out and go.

Zip to open the wound which already heal in a long rev.

Zone me out of place where you left me aside.

Loss of shade will I stay in black from where I lay?

Enlist me out of your life now what do I do?

Stir me back to this pain then why you let me fall to you?

??? ??? ???

Jr.

Through These Walls

I can hear you're silent

Through these thick walls

I can sense you're silent.

I stand in here listening

In these four corners

I keep myself listening.

As I stay on hold

I can sense my urge

As we continue I on hold.

But you keep into silent

Makes me want to come

To breaks that silent.

Through these thick walls

I know you can sense me

Still we can't reach these walls.

Blocks our chance to meet

Where only silent embraces

The only medium separate us to meet.

Jr.

Words in Silent

So much to express

Words hidden deep,

Wanted to impress

Still couldn't leap.

Words couldn't press

Hide not to seek,

Put it into depress

Hardly to leak.

Whip through pain

Still no words to spill,

Sting that slain

But keeps quiet still.

Hid

Say 'thank you',

Isn't it easy?

Say 'its fine',

Even the truth hid.

Say 'I want you',

Isn't it easy?

Say 'live me',

Even the truth hid.

Say 'I like you',

Isn't it easy?

Say 'I hate you',

Even the truth hid.

Say 'I'm sorry',

Isn't is easy,

Say 'f@ck up',

Even the truth hid.

Say 'easy',

Isn't the truth?

Say 'hard',

Even truth hid deep.

Jr.

Just... Empty

"There's only empty.

Filled in into space of nothingness.

Just nothing to think, nothing to create,

Nothing at all.

That cause a huge chaos.

Explodes everything in one emptiness."

~~~ ~~~ ~~~

Jr.

Sleep

This is not rain,

It is a pain.

Slowly create a void,

A pain can not avoid.

That wants to escape,

Live without a shape.

To forget is in need,

To sleep is way in deed.

Far from everyone,

To stay alone.

Slumber through deep,

Never be awake in sleep.

Jr.

Let Pain Drown

Hide in deep

Ruin in slow,

Stay in low

Continue to reap.

Push in depths

Fall into crash,

Left into clash

Lose all faiths.

Spirit falls down

Bleed into deep,

But never seep

Continue to groan.

A pain known

Hid perfectly deep,

Never ever leap

Let pain drown.

('_')

Jr.

How?

How do you do this?

Pretend as if nothing happens.

How can you make it?

Smile as if there's no pain.

How come you move forward?

Walk as if nothing's going on.

How can you hide that long?

Talk as if you are not wrecking.

How long could you make?

Laugh as if you didn't cry.

How much you can keep?

Move as if you were not hurting.

...

Jr.

Storm of Sadness

There is this storm

Strong and powerful,

Wrecks everything out form

Fall of sorrowful.

A surge of a rainfall

Falls into the sky,

Drown at fall

Slowly kills in sly.

Rage in speed

Eats light above,

Continues to bleed

Flood to shove.

Each moment of time

It’s getting tougher,

Every drop is on prime

Harder till rougher.

Drown into madness

Dumb folds in high,

Slowly pulls to sadness

Can’t have a sigh.

A silent scream

Cry for help in deep,

A hope but just a dream

Prison without a seep.

As the storm come rushing

Continues to wreck,

Water comes crushing

Death is on deck.

Jr.

Ruin in Deep

Scream without a voice

Cry without a tear

Hurt without a pain.

Sadness behind the smile

Tears behind the joy

Suffer behind the truth.

Drown into fake

Ignore the sorrow

Die deep within.

Jr.

An Untold

Lay in the cold night

Let an eye to fall,

Through dark comes in light

Shadows dance at the ball.

Walks through a path

Step in through a cold land,

Counts without a math

Just step through a bland.

Slight light comes through

Gateway start to open,

Does not know what is true

Road does not even.

Far beyond to see

Place hard to reach,

Wants to walk in free

To reach beyond teach.

What was from the beyond?

Place where everything moves slow,

Hides something that can't bond

Now it is time to show.

Slowly walks to enter

Mystery starts to unfold,

Comes in for a better

Experience a life of untold.

^^^ ^^^ ^^^

Jr.

Broken Deep

Scream

      Without a voice,

Cry

      Without a tear,

Hurt

      Without a pain,

Bleed

      Without a wound,

Ruin

      Without an end,

Fall

      Without an edge,

Drown

      Without a water,

Lost

      Without a path,

Alive

      Without an emotion,

Now

      It's all numb,

Nothing to feel

      Just simply broken deep.

JR.

Another

Another day has come

Crossing to another path,

Live far from home.

Another distance to conquer

Living into different drift,

Explore new venture to encounter.

Another far from expected

Journey to a new one,

Place that has not detected.

Jr.

Tears

Tears meant in two

One for happiness,

Two for sadness

But what is who?

Is tears enough

To show feelings,

To express longings

Isn't it too tough?

Tears is like blood

Freely flows out,

Hidden deep in shout

Drown in unseen flood.

Jr.

Still Lock Up

Escape or not escape?

Is there a chance to scrape?

Is this a real freedom?

Or it is just boredom?

Free or not free?

It feels not yet to flee.

It feels like a cage

Imprison in a rage,

Calling out for help

But became a silent yelp,

No voice could hear

And no one could hold dear.

--- --- ---

Jr.

Runaway

It isn't just about you

Yes I see you smile,

Enjoy each moments you smile

Still I want to live you.

Want to be back into something

Away from you forever,

Never to hold you forever

Exchange you into something.

How I wish I never met you

But you came suddenly,

Makes me glad so suddenly

And it is all because of you.

Now it is hard to decide

If I left you behind,

What else would I left behind

Is it the happiness I decide?

What outcome I'll be facing

If I left you so suddenly,

Just runaway without you so suddenly

Not even thinking of what future I'll be facing.

' ' '

Jr.

Without a Start... Without an End...

As our paths prolong

Chances of meeting take long,

As the time pass by

Our hearts forgets to cry,

As our lives separate

Being together is a desperate.

Times run fast

Ours won't last,

As our distance widen

Chances won't be given,

Far from expected

We already had been defeated.

We just trying to start

But we became apart,

Creates a gap

That has no lap,

A start without an end

An end never intend.

Jr.

Abandoned

Am I abandoned?

Left behind?

Lost of nowhere...

Would I be pardon?

I hope they'll be kind.

Saves me and bring me elsewhere.

Jr.

Pages

Another turn

Chapters to unfold,

Flip return

Pages are told.

New stories

Written in slow,

New glories

Come in low.

Something new

Pages to turn,

Comes few

Slow to burn.

Pages come

Turning into chapter,

New home

Enjoy for better.

Jr.

The Lady

The lady who walks unnoticed

Never knew she already walks into the dark.

A place where fear and horror surrounds

Lurks like a guide deep within.

She just walks endlessly into this empty space

Walk into a path of cold and loneliness.

As she went deep

Veins start to freeze.

Body start to numb

Mind start to blank.

That awakes her from this unseen nightmare

That makes her start to feel.

Wanting to escape from this place

Run back into the light.

But darkness already holds on to her

Fold her tightly without an escape.

Jr.

Blood Burst

~~~ ~~~ ~~~

Another crimson sky comes out

Flooding into the dawn of light

Slowly giving grieve unknowingly

Still no one could ever read.

The scent of a fresh blood

Slowly scattering around the clock

Flowing unexpectedly along the sight

Unpredictable to judge for how long.

A thirst suddenly felt around

Searching for another round

Craving for another blood burst

But no one can predict when.

~~~ ~~~ ~~~

Jr.

Mysteries in Beyond

What you hear,

Is not what you really hear.

What you see,

Is not what you really see.

What you do,

Is not what you truly do.

It might be explain,

But would that be enough?

It might be learn,

But would that be enough?

It might be search,

But would that be enough?

There are things that you don't know,

Things that can't be explain.

There is knowledge that you don't know,

Knowledge that can't be learn.

There are places that you don't know,

Places that can't be search.

Whatever you hear,

It won't explain the unexplainable.

Whatever you see,

It won't learn the unknowledgeable.

Whatever you do,

It won't search the unsearchable.

That creates mysteries,

Seal the voices from beyond.

That folds mysteries,

Cover the truth from beyond.

That bursts mysteries,

Blow the mysteries in beyond.

.:.:.:.

Jr.

Where is My Peace?

Thought are everywhere in my head

Pain, suffering, hate, anger but it also had...

Loneliness, tears, aching and tiredness that wants to give up already.

Then suddenly another thoughts comes in

Another emotions raining and I can feel it,

Excitement, happiness, romance and love comes crushing.

Thought it still accompanies with sadness and anger

That added with jealousy and madness...

But it is an emotion that couldn't figure out.

Nothing to be exact

That couldn't find peace of mind,

That made me feel hollow deep within even it is full of emotions.

Makes me feel empty and lost

Everything seems so out of my hands

Slip out everything from my mind but still emotions in burst.

Mind starts to live in chaos

A silent chaos that couldn't give a peace,

It explodes like bomb but into silent one.

The things that I wanted and I like

Slowly losing its path,

Never ever be found in the midst of chaotic emotions.

That shut down my peace

Creates nothing but a chaotic silent,

A place without a peace to find elsewhere!

Jr.

I See My Face

Is this a nightmare or just a dream?

I see myself in the midst of a gleam,

Is this a nightmare or simply a dream?

I see myself standing out of a team.

I thought it is me

But I just thought it a wee,

It isn't the real me

I know it isn't that kind of eerie.

She wears a white dress

Stand in the midst of a mess,

She wears a saddest dress

With a face of sadness.

She's in white light

But never at the right,

She's at the line light

Though covers with darkest bright.

Her eyes filled with sadness

A soul of madness,

Her smiles filled with sadness

With a spirit of loneliness.

Who are you standing there?

Facing me in this elsewhere,

Who are you looking there?

Just looking at me in this nowhere.

What are you trying to say?

With a voice of silent lay,

What really did you just say?

With a voice that couldn't ray.

I don't know why you had my face

Though I never had your grace,

I don't know why I see my face

Cover with despair and sadness like a lace.

? . ? . ?

Jr.

It was You Who Said Farewell

When you stay,

You stay.

When you live,

You live.

Enough to show,

Not enough to stay.

Enough to care,

Not enough to hold.

You came,

You live.

You guard,

You live.

Whenever I'm sad,

You were there.

Whenever I'm despair,

You were there.

Though when I want to talk,

You stay behind.

Though when I want to hold,

You live afar.

When I want to see you,

You never ever came.

When I miss to see you,

You never show up.

It was you I care,

But it was you that stay away.

It was you I fall,

But it was you left me behind.

You tell me you care for me,

But you distance yourself.

You tell me you love me,

But it was you who said farewell.

Jr.

Eternal... Curse

Is the word eternal means a happy ending?

If this eternal love means never ever die?
Then would that be simple in mending?

If the eternal love will never fall into a lie.

An eternal love that falls into a curse

With a cycle of joy and pain,

A curse that falls out of course

With a journey that pass by the rain.

Eternally in love that would never ever change

A love that has fulfill with a curse,

An eternal burden of range

A love had come at worse.

Eternally lives in sorrow

With a never ever ending beginning,

Eternally lives in shadow

With curse that would never find an ending.

This love that has been forbidden

A love that promises to be eternal,

A love that is hard to be hidden

Love that end in curse in the final.

/// - ///

Jr.

Travels along the Dreams

Not knowing how does it done

Still travels in vast horizon,

Journey into beyond undone

Opens adventure beyond vision.

Going without a path

Seek along the unseen,

A land without a wrath

Peace and harmony only be seen.

Lives with a mark

Moments cannot be share,

Still wanders along the ark

Journey far beyond without a fare.

Jr.

To Chill

A place so wide

A place of tide,

Wonders around

Walks on the ground,

Luxuries in sight

Can be seen a rain of light.

Endlessly walks in cold

Just wonder to unfold,

Chill in a mall

With plenty of stall,

Search place to feel relax

Until found the right climax.

Jr.

A Deep Storm

A rain without a drop

A wind without an air

A thunder without a sound,

Pour nonstop at top

Blows uncontrollably unfair

Strike strong without a bound.

An unseen pain

A cursing fate

An unexpected scene,

Cause to drain

Fall out of rate

Drop mind to insane.

Lost in the storm

Ruin slow but surely

Drown into deep,

Reach without a form

Without an escape purely

Kill without a weep.

'T_T'

Jr.

Drown Heart

I know I already move on

Almost getting over you,

That is what I thought so.

But with one single word from you

I am lost into you,

My heart beats when you talk.

That puts me into chaos

Just thinking of it is so wrong,

But I couldn't just ignore it at all.

I still love you more that what I know

That hurts me so much deeply,

With your single word alone.

I lost my sane

And found myself expecting for more,

That even my heart expected too much.

That sucks me into a deep ocean

Now I finally realize,

I still expect much more of you.

So much it suffocates me

Lose my breath,

That drowns my heart completely.

Jr.

Notice Me

She: I saw him coming,

Hoping he looks at me,

But never came true.

He: I saw her sitting,

But I try not to look at her,

Even though I notice her.

She: I stare at him,

Longer enough to feel sad,

Longing for his attention.

He: I want to look back,

Because I know she’s looking,

But I keep it to myself tightly.

She: I sigh heavily,

I couldn’t just let him not to notice me,

I am too eager to meet him in his eyes.

He: I refrain myself,

But she’s too noticeable not only to mine,

She had that charm that she doesn’t know.

She: I quit waiting and stand,

Living my chair empty,

Walk out in the front to let him see me.

He: I was surprised seeing her stand,

Walks with a charm that magnetize,

That everyone eyes stares at her.

She: I know he finally notice me,

I am happy enough as I conquer the front sit,

Not even knowing what I have done.

He: I stand and go straight at her,

Trying to glare at those eyes staring,

Warning them as my jealousy kicks in.

She: I was surprised when he came,

Imprisoned me at my chair with his firm arms,

And almost our face touches.

He: I prisoned her between my arms,

Not letting her out of her chair,

And close my face into her in inch away.

She: I know I am blushing,

My face burns hot as our breath touches,

But I love this closeness that we had.

He: I intently look into her eyes,

Down to her cherry lips,

I want to kiss her right there and then.

She: I want him to close our gap,

Let our lips get close,

But I knew we cannot.

He: I smile as her face turns red,

It blushes more as I give her a smile,

For that I wanted to give her a kiss.

She: I love you,

I speak gently,

That he smiles once again.

He: I heard her,

But instead I told her not to stand,

Because I am jealous.

She: My heart pound so fast,

As he said that his jealous,

But I ask him why?

He: Because of your charm, I answered,

A charm you didn’t know,

That attracts the eyes of those guys around.

She: I try to look around,

And finally I notice it,

Yet, I said it is only you I wanted to notice me.

He: I blush and couldn’t hide it,

And told, I already notice you from the start,

But I refrain myself.

She: What? Why? I asked,

Because ignoring me I feel so lonely,

I tell him honestly.

He: I’m sorry, I honestly said to her,

Because if I notice you right away,

I’ll imprison you as what I’m doing right now.

She: My heart fall into him more,

I couldn’t say a word,

It was only our hearts speaks.

He: I love you,

More than you ever know,

And I’m sorry if I ignore you earlier.

She: His words our enough,

My heart finally settled,

And I give him a wholeheartedly smile.

He: I wanted to kiss her,

But then I let our forehead touch,

And laughs with her happily.

=

Jr.