Thinking of him made my heart and mind get into trouble.
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Though I decided to do it on my own, I know I'm just hurting and torturing my own self.
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What am I suppose to do, to break the spell that I created...?
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The only me, my self...?
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I am in love to a man who doesn't even knew what I truly feels for him.
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Now, I asks my self...
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Do I have the guts to totally forget him?
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Or even to erase him into my system?
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Or maybe, he was already gone and erase into my life and into my system?!
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I am just so blind and deceive to accept the whole truth!
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Yes! I am!
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I am so much blind and deceive to believe and to expect that he would know...!
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That made my mind, heart and soul goes crazy madly in love with him!
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So much to extend that I badly wanted to see him behind that hood!
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Or maybe, I am so lost!
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Lost to extend that I'm losing in my real world.
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To extend that I hated my self from holding back from the memories of him!
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I still didn't learn...
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I still didn't wake up!
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I still crazy on him!
Jr Rs
