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I want to love
I want to be with someone,
Yet I cannot love
I cannot be with someone.
I am so sad
I feel so lost,
I cannot stop not to feel sad
Where do I go if I am so lost?
I want to love freely
Let myself to love someone else,
I don't want to feel so sad
I don't want to feel so lost,
I want to find someone freely
Just let me love someone else.
...
Jr.
I hate you!
How many times did I tell you those words?
I don't know and I did not count.
It takes a long time and still I speak those words.
I hate you!
It hurts so badly I don't know what to do.
I am in pain so much I suffer long.
It so hard and I still don't know what to do.
I hate you!
I hate you so much I suffer.
I don't want to feel it anymore.
Now, I hate myself as I see myself suffer.
Jr.
"Having a successful marriage requires trust, understanding, patients and falling in love each days with respect for each other."
~~~ ~~~ ~~~
"Learn to respect, cherish, be understanding and listen to prolong a successful marriage.
~ A secret of an eternal love. ~"
~~~ ~~~ ~~~
Jr.
How far can you go through this deepest darkness from within?
Are you ready to go beyond the unseen... the unknown?
Be part of a world that will keep you in danger within,
A world no one can explore or see... a place of unknown.
Fear, sorrow, pain might be encounter through deepest darkness
No one knows how far it will take you in deep mystery,
And yet you continue to go on and search through darkness
Try to unfold and to solve its entire deep mystery.
... ... ...
Jr.
Oh, my dear mind, what keeps you in trouble?
That takes away all your peace of mind, - Oh,
My dear mind, I don't want you to struggle
Whatever troubles you just let it go.
Oh, dear mind, stop thinking of your worries
Don't let it troubles you along the way,
It is like a pest that gives you disease
That will shade your life in sorrow and grey.
Jr.
Shadows
Hide from the dark.
Without a spark.
They live through deep.
Where darkness seep.
Shadows
Live with void.
Darkness cannot avoid.
Loneliness may see.
No one can plea.
Shadows
Mystery revolves around.
Consume you until you drown.
Fear will seep through.
That can never breakthrough.
Jr.
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Mystery
It revolves on us,
History
A past we can never discuss.
Why?
A question I always ask,
Reply...
Never been your task.
Remember
I don't want to,
Surrender
I need to do.
Questions
No more and just move on,
Directions
Away from you and move on.
Mysteries
No more about that word,
Histories
Let past be past to move forward.
...
Jr.
Minsan ko nang sinabi,
... sa sarili ko
... na limot na kita
... na nag-move forward na ako.
Ngunit ngayon iba na ang sinasabi,
... may mali ako
... nagnanais akong makita ka
... naka-move forward na nga ba ako?
Ewan pero isa lang ang alam ko,
... hindi na ako nasasaktan
... ngunit may nais lang akong tapusin
... gusto kong liwanagin ang nakaraan.
Nais kong ikaw mismo,
... malinaw na isipan
... upang hindi na kita isipin
... at tuluyan na kitang iwan sa nakaraan.
Jr.
#1
"Today is the beginning of your new journey together.
May your love grow and bloom as one.
And cherish each moments of your life being together.
Best wishes."
#2
"Marriage is the highest state of friendship.
Where new chapters will be written together.
From his/her weakest self and his/her worst self will be open.
As one, you can conquer it together."
#3
"We begins as a stranger.
Never knew we will be friends.
Never knew we became lovers.
Never knew we will fight.
Yet in the end we forgive each other and now...
We are together.
Never knew you and I will be each other's half.
Never knew we will begin a new chapter of our lives us one.
You are my eternal love.
My only one."
# ~~~ #
Jr.
"Memories...
How special you are?
When all your memories...
Will perish once the end come.
If the next life,
Before you transcend--
For a new beginning...
For a new life,
The forgetfulness will be given.
For you to start anew
Without the memories of your past...
Without the burden of your past...
Even the happiest moments,
Will erase everything from before...
Create a new life--
Begin a new life--
A new,
Memories...
Jr.
... ... ...
Through dreams
I see your silhouette.
Hidden in the shadows...
Never fade yet...
You never get closer.
From your shadows,
I became contented-- yet...
Sad, Hurt-- as you keep your distance.
Through dreams-- you let me forget.
Fear, Lost-- through the darkest of my dreams.
... ... ...
Jr.
Here we are again
--Dancing... in the same tune.
Without knowing,
--Our steps will change soon.
Each steps...
Each touch-- your caress.
Will soon be perish--
In the end--
Our dance will end its process.
Jr.
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"What is the use of fixing a broken heart?
When the wound fix,
It will only live a mark.
That forever will be your remembrance...
...Of a broken heart."
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"What will you do to fix a broken soul?
If your conscious still unclear--
Your mind keeps bugging--
That continues to rip your soul.
...That breaks your soul continuously."
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Jr.
"Words, hugs and comfort are not enough to wipe your tears and pains that easily but you can hold on onto your good memories together that will stay with you forever."
*09/20/2022
- Sad days may come to embrace you but always remember joy will always be there to give you a warm embrace of happiness.
Jr.
and this is
my heart...
beating
even though hurt.
yet
my heart stands...
to never ever
fall from the same land--
I fall in deeply
and never ever hold your hand.
-- Jr.
Past…
My heart races so fast whenever I see him. I don’t even know what to do or what to think; I am just losing my entire mind when I’m facing him. I lose all my calm; I just don’t know what to do.
Present…
My heart beats normally when I finally see him. I do know now what to do in front of him. Not even losing my mind or my calm. I just simply and normally face him knowing what I shall do.
Past…
I always settled myself to with him, so eager to see him. Near to him. Focus my entire attention only to him. I am crazy to be with him as always.
Present…
I always end up not meeting him, crazily not wanted him elsewhere. I focus only to myself and only myself. Not even thinking of him whenever he is not around. I am happy on my own.
Past…
I am so sad, so lazy and so mad if I don’t see him. I just wanted to run the clock so that our time will be finally got close. Just to be with him no matter what. I just want this gray color gone out of my sight.
Present…
I am so full life, happy and contented without him by my side. My days never been so dull, it is more of a rainbow with an end of true happiness and freedom for me. I am simply enjoying alone without him.
Past…
The way he talks, the way he smile, the way he takes care of me or rather every single little thing he did for me make my heart floats with so much happiness and contentment. Makes me so excited whenever we meet, I even wanted our time to be extend for more.
Present…
The way he talks, the way he smile, the way he takes care of me or rather every single little thing he did for me feels like I am suffocating. I don’t know but I don’t want any of his attention anymore. I just simply want him to be an acquaintance and nothing more.
Past…
Freedom, what is it mean to me? I just too focus that I really don’t know if I am free or maybe I am not…? I know how busy he was but he always makes time even though it took me a lot of waiting. He just simply run towards me and always said with a smile, ‘I am here.’ That makes my heart races but I know deep within me there is something wrong. Something is missing that I ignore.
Present…
Freedom, at past I don’t know what it is mean. But right now, I already know even from the past I already know. There is something wrong but I am just blinded with this so called ‘love’ that I am already losing my own self. I am lost, yes and it was before. Now I am not and I can say ‘I’m free at last!’.
Jr.
DREAMS...
A world of impossible, of an adventure, an endless journey to beyond, and a world you can create something impossible to possible, where illusions takes part.
ILLUSSIONS…
A world created by mind, an escape from everything that gives pain, sorrow and madness, a world that only you can clearly see and you were the lone creator of this created world.
CREATE…
A world you wander to build, pictures you wanted to feel and hold, whatever comes into your mind create it freely and let your mind think of the best place you wanted to rest.
THINK…
A world you wishes to go and to where you wanted, a place where you can call your own, the only world that will let you freely change everything that you wanted.
CHANGE…
A world where everything is going to the direction of positivity and lightness, no more pain, sorrow and anger, a world you can only imagine that will never ever change.
IMAGINE…
A world that only you can see, only you can live and only you may able to step in, a place you will never get into the real life, a world that only lives in your memories.
MEMORIES…
A world where everything lies, where everything restored as one, a place where the entire books of collections may see, a world that only you can give an image that will give you satisfaction.
IMAGES…
A world where the images emerges out from your memories that you only imagine and you are the only one that can change as what your mind think to create from the illusions you only see only in your dreams.
An image from the memories of dreams and illusions that created by your wide thinking and imaginations, a never changing mind of a dreamer.
Jr.
Believe
Never fail to believe in yourself
Do not listen to what others may say,
Because you know what you can do
Just believe on what you can do,
Just be yourself
Let your passion stay.
Believe
Be focus and stay strong
Use it as your tough determination,
Because you will see the result
Just believe to give a good result
Go on and be strong
Your belief is your best motivation.
Jr.
"I want to forget.
...As much as I want.
I want to heal.
...As much as I can.
I want to move on.
...As much as I'll be free forever.
I want to go forward.
...As much as I go far away from you.
Though your memories still lingers.
...Never to fade, never to blur.
It grows old together with me.
Imprint my whole self with the memories of you."
...
Jr.
Sometimes we can never deny
More of our times are all having fun.
Those times we cannot go by
Waste some precious time to have fun.
Yet wasting time is not wasted at all
We just simply take time to enjoy life.
To take a break for a hard life before our downfall
Have the time to have some fun throughout our life.
Jr.
Unexpected with Your divine light, You came once again. Visit me through vision, an expected sight. I know I am awake, Yet here I am again...
