Having Doubt (Despite His just there as always.)

Why I kept dreaming of Him?

Why I'm still feeling Him?
While my whole self is in the dark.

He still there letting me know His there

He still always at my back knowing His there,

Just there to guide and protect me.

When the truth I'm not really worth for it!

When I know to my self I'm a bad person that proves it!

Because I let my self live in the darkness still His there.

His always there for me and for my soul

His always there ready to save and protects me and my soul,

Even if my soul is already deep within the dark.

I couldn't explain these feelings I feel

I wouldn't know what else to think and feel,

Am I really worth seeing Him? As I ask.

I'm afraid! Too much afraid

I'm lost! That I hardly to find my self that I"m afraid,

Even though He's there and know all my fears.

It may be ridiculous to be afraid

It may be kind of weird to feel afraid,

But it is what I feel even though His there each of my life.

Each time I thought of Him... He ease my pain

Each time He showed up Him self to me... I feel no pain,

Why His like that? I asked... because His kind and wise one? I asked.

So kind that I don't know if I worth it?!

So kind that warms my heart though I feel I'm not worth it...!

But deep within my heart and soul... He's been living there somewhere.

Yes! I'm doubting my self!

Yes! I'm still regretting Him to my self!

But deep within, I love that I could feel Him beside me always.

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I thy God, creator of all...

Thanking for all the guidance and protection you've been given us....

Amen.

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Jr. Rs.