Unbearable Pain

 

The pain is unbearable

I don't know how long

I can handle the pain.

It is unexplainable

It will stay prolong

Until this life will drain.

I cannot stand it

The more I want to escape

Run far away from pain.

But I am not fit

My body is out of shape

It is a pain of chain.

No longer withstand

The feelings I have

The pain is untouchable.

I am holding the last thread to stand

As I cope in this pain in halve

And heal it slowly as I believe I am capable.

... '~' ...

Jr.

Ocean Shore

 

Like a cinematic scene

I see myself sitting at the shore,

Let the little waves touch the tip of my toes.

The atmosphere is so serene

The peace and quietness takes away my sore,

I feel light to nothingness that grows.

As I sat alone at the shore

Knees curl up to my chest,

As my arms embraces my knees.

I silently focus my mind in one core

I asked myself if I am blest,

Feel the magnificent ocean breeze.

In silence I listen and let it consume me

Enjoy the moment I never experience,

Relax as much as I want to.

The time I finally feel free

Nothing to do or to think for an instance,

I have my entire freedom to break through.

Now I can say I am happy

To finally get away from everything,

Away from the suffering I am in.

That makes me feel unhappy

Yet the scenery makes me swing,

Away from the suffering I'm in pin.

Now I can surely enjoy this time

Let the sun to set down,

Quietly watch as the dusk end.

Finally I am contented in this lifetime

Even for a short moment I let myself be drown,

In peace and in silence before this moment descend.

...

Jr.

He: The Second One

 

Another day from a dream

He came unexpected though,

One thing I am so sure...

He is the second and not the first.

He came with the same enthusiasm

A very different kind of a man,

Yet my heart jumps whenever I met him

I don't know why I do feel this way,

Still... I am happy to see him.

With his joyous attitude,

Energetic characteristics and a positive mind

He really is the opposite side of my Mr. M.

I don't know why I met him,

On that night, on that dream... unexpected,

Unpredictable he came unknowingly

He cheers me up and makes me smile.

I don't know but he really makes me comfortable.

To the extent I am happy and contented meeting him

I smile as I finally open my eyes,

As the dream ended,

The happiness he was given me

The thrills he was given me,

It imprint into my soul

And deep into my heart,

I can no longer forget

No longer differentiate him to my Mr. M..

Because both of them given me

A mysterious romantic aura,

Auras that help me to escape

From my pain and from my suffering,

I don't know how he came into my dream

Or what it is that cause him to show up,

Still I am so happy to meet him

And gave me a wonderful memories,

That I will cherish every time I remember him.

Jr.

Calendar

 

A calendar,

A tool that reminds us we move forward.

As the months goes on,

Every day we create memories.

Memories to cherish,

Give a great meaning to live.

As we live,

We also lost a leaf of time.

A time we thought long,

Yet it isn't not enough long.

As our love ones begins to fall,

We lost half of our lives with them.

However tomorrow will never stop,

Future will present as it moves.

It is up to us to give new meanings,

To begin with as we cope for our lost.

Slowly we begin to move like a calendar,

Time may past as the years goes on.

We create new ideas,

We progress for a better self.

And like a calendar,

As it begins it also ends.

We know nothing how it will end,

But we know how we live.

Live in joy and in pain,

As we cherish each and every moment we have.

Things might has an end,

Like a calendar it will always have a start.

Jr.

Miracles of Meeting 'You'

 

Unexpected with Your divine light,

You came once again.

Visit me through vision, an expected sight.

I know I am awake,

Yet here I am again.

For a slip moment, as my eyes closes.

For that second moment,

I saw you once again.

Walking into a path I don't know where You will go.

You walk with grace,

You talk with grace,

So divine, once again You came to visit me.

I know I am not worthy to meet You,

Not even worthy to see You and yet,

You came and I saw You clearly.

I don't know how or why me?

I always I ask myself why me?

I am a sinner.

My eyes judge,

My voice swears.

My ears listen to hearsay.

My actions harm.

However, You were always there.

Reaching. Listening. Showing.

You are divine in every way.

And I am just a mere human You always care and love.

Now, I end up not to ask myself,

No more questions, no more doubts.

You came and show me something important,

With Your divine guide, I will comply.

In Your hands that guides me through,

I will follow the path You go down.

Without questions, without doubts,

Into Your divine grace, I shall proceed.

In Your name, I shall praise,

In Your guide, I shall be grateful.

Thank you for everything as always,

I shall now see what You want from me.

In Your grace, please guide me,

Show me the way: The meaning of these 'miracles of meeting You'.

Amen.

Jr.

Same Place with Something New

 ...

Same place

Same directions,

With a different pace

And different actions.

Yet the place never change

No matter how long I visit,

It just continue to range

I can no longer stop to revisit.

I venture once again

To see something new,

To explore more to gain

Same place with new view.

I know how to begin

To where I go and explore,

Though danger may come in

I still want to know what to store.

See something new in this place

Something to add up my list,

Even if danger may face

I will risk everything to persist.

Jr.

Nowhere to Go

 

Lost... I am lost once again

From this unknown pain,

I have nothing to gain.

I want to escape and run

Yet I am totally ban,

I have nowhere to go and run.

I want to stop everything

This madness is keep grilling,

I am cook to nothing.

I am so lost I don't know what to do

I have nowhere to go not even a clue,

I am just simply lost, nothing I can do.

Jr.

How long will you understand yourself?

 

How long will you understand yourself?

When your time is just beginning?

When your time is ongoing?

When your time is up to ending?

Or was it when you are already gone?

Mystery; A powerful explanation for yourself,

Nothing has a concrete answer to any of those questions.

Nothing has concrete feelings to understand those notions.

Nothing has a concrete mind to clear those interrogations.

Not even death can explain everything that holds mystery.

Now, how long will you truly understand yourself?

Yesterday cannot be answer anything.

Now is not possible for a thing.

Tomorrow is unpredictable for everything.

No definite day, time and year to understand one self.

To understand one self is a mystery,

No beginning,

No ending,

No middling.

Not even our love ones know you that much.

The end with too many questions,

Questions cannot be answer.

Questions hold on like cancer.

Questions keep on moving like a good dancer.

That end with; How long will you understand yourself?

Jr.

Sadness Pain

 

Sadness,

Once again says, 'Hello'.

Slowly crawling and dipping in,

Now, it becomes my fellow.

Pain,

Begin to creep.

Embrace my inner deep,

No time to leap.

I cry as they begin to come,

Fold me into madness.

I'm about to lose my calm,

Now, I feel like a mess.

Back into the dark,

No escape once again.

I can no longer remark,

No more voice to scream.

I am losing from this pain,

Hurt from unknown sadness.

I have nothing to gain,

As my heart descend into deep.

Jr.

How to Begin With?

 ...

How to begin with?

I know nothing to answer,

Whenever I am down; crawling, hurting, suffering

It was always you who always find me,

Even if I hide my feelings, it will always reach out for you.

How to begin with?

When my 'goodbye' finally find its 'traitor',

Written or unwritten... you always present yourself

Whenever I'm on the edge of falling,

It will always you saving me out of my darkest times.

How to end with?

If the beginning always end up to begin with you?

...

Jr.

'Goodbye'

 

My emotions suddenly run dry

As the day goes by and by,

My feelings for you go bye.

No longer burden with thy memories

Even if I was wounded without remedies,

Everything just stops as it slowly dies.

You are no longer my longing

Not even my belonging,

Yet I don't know where I am going.

Those feelings I have for you

Blocks my entire view,

Now I see some light in due.

Though now I am too tired

My feelings just too dried,

I can no longer go on with pride.

The light that I see no longer need

Thy memories is what I breed,

The only thing I myself can deed.

The only path that I know

The only place that I grow,

My only way I always end up to flow.

Now without any feelings

I freely recall all our dealings,

Slowly I write it down as my keepings.

I am lost because of you

Yet it is you inspired me with clue,

Our story is what I always brew.

And now this is my farewell

The thing I always wanted to spell,

'Goodbye' - as I will continue well.

Jr.

Despair

 

For how long will I survive?

From the depths of my despair,

How long will I revive?

Or will I be able be repair?

I don't know the answers

And I am completely drowning,

I don't even know any prayers

That can save me from my ending.

I try to swim up as I can

Still I continue to go down,

Deep into the deepest ocean

I am lost and drown.

I begin to lose my life

Gradually I begin to fade,

The suffocation cuts deep like a knife

Until I only see darkness in shade.

Jr.

Two Riddles

 1st – 

'It is storage not a place. Keep everything safe yet can be lost or be erase. Can be accurate or inaccurate that holds the key without a key of the past, present and future. What is it that you want to hold yet cannot hold?'

2nd – 

'The developer and the destroyer, a part of our lives which we live and progress, to gradually remember and gradually forgotten as it existed. What is it?'

Jr.

To Our Beloved

 

You came so little,

Yet you became a big part of us.

With your every little steps,

You brought us the largest footprints to our hearts.

You became our little child,

Give us joy, laughter and became a great part of our family.

You cherish us and love us,

And we do care, cherish and love you more than ourselves.

Yet the time with you is not enough,

As your time is not the same as us.

The little time you have,

Given us the bigger part of our lives.

Now we do hope we given enough everything you need,

Our care and love for the times you were here.

And soon enough,

Even from beyond we will meet again.

To our beloved fur children,

We still miss you all and love you even more.

Jr.

S I X T Y

 

Spectacular memories you fulfill

Incredible dreams that you came true

Xanthan through the years for your families and friends

Timeless as ever, still looks young and beautiful

You are fabulous and redefine it all your own

To my Mother's Best Friend

Hear Me. See Me.

 

I can clearly hear you,

Yet, I am deaf on my own,

I can clearly see you,

Yet, I am blind on my own.

Deaf on my own voice,

I only listen to one sound,

Blind on my own eyes,

I only look onto myself.

The sound of my own,

Put me in danger as I listen,

As I put myself only to see,

I do not see the danger that surround.

Yet, you are still there calling,

Never stop to whisper that save me,

And you keep me in light,

Never leave me into the darkness.

Jr.

Sa Likod ng mga Mata

 

May mga nakikita na hindi nakikita ng mga mata lamang,

Mga pangyayaring hindi madaling ipaliwanag na lamang.

 

Dahil hindi lahat ng dapat na makita ginagamitan ng mga mata,

Dahil sa likod ng mga nakatagong kaganapan walang silbi ang mga mata.

 

Mga pangyayaring hindi maipaliliwanag ng salita lamang,

Mga tagpong mahirap hanapan ng mga madaling kasagutan lamang.

 

Dahil sa likod ng mga hindi nakikita,

May mga lihim na nakatago na hindi nakikita.

 

Mga lihim na iilan lamang ang nakakakita,

Ngunit hindi lahat kayang ipaliwanag ng nakakakita.

 

Hindi sapat na makita mo lamang ang mga nakakubling kaganapan,

Dahil sa bawat tagpong iyong makikita ito’y nababalot ng misteryosong kaganapan.

 

Mga misteryong mahirap bigyan ng kahulugan,

Misteryong nagaganap ng tahimik at may lihim na kahulugan.

 

At sa bawat misteryo may dalawang kulay ang makikita,

Dalawang simpleng kulay na maglalarawan sa makikita.

 

Isang puti at isang dilim na may makaibang kahulugan,

Nakatutuwa at nakakatakot na mga kahulugan.

 

Ngunit isa man sa dalawang kulay na masisilayan,

Ang bigyan ito ng kahulugan sa realidad ay hindi agad masisilayan.

 

Dahil anuman ang nais nitong ipakahulugan upang matanggal ang misteryo,

Ay isang pag-suot sa butas ng karayom na mga mata’y nakapikit sa hinaharap na misteryo.

 

… May mga nakikita man ang ating mga mata sa mundo ng realidad,

Sa kadilimang nababalot ng nakasarang mata may misteryong hindi maipaliliwanag ng realidad.

... ... ...

Jr.

December Night

 

Here I am alone and sadness graphs me again,

In silence, I listen to the tune of pain.

As the hours of darkness shade my surrounding,

I conceal myself away from everything.

Unwanted... I was defeated by this grief,

Deaf in the tone of belief.

Heart begins to fall apart; I cannot break free,

As the cold begins to embrace me.

I thought I have nothing to gain,

Then, I seem to hear those songs again.

Joy knock at my doorstep, giving me a tone of hope,

Warm my soul; Giving me a chance to cope.

Finally, you're home and once again, I hear you sing,

In this cold winter night, you give me spring.

Now we're dancing in the music of Maytime in this December night.

Jr.

Greetings: Christmas and New Year

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"The birth of the Christ is the symbol of family gathering and welcoming new members. Let us all rejoice, celebrate and thank our Father God and Mother Mary for Jesus birth that unites everyone in the world."

~Have a wonderful and Merry Christmas.~

-12.25.2023-

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"All the hardship and the difficulties you and your family experience and encountered in the past year helps you to understand and made you learn how to stand strong and be tough throughout the given challenges this year.

And finally, it helps you to finally succeed the future you want. For another chance to cheer up and be stronger and tougher for this New Year."

~Have a blissful New Year and Welcome 2024. God bless to all.~

~~~ ~~~ ~~~

Daan

 

Anong meron sa daang aking tinatahak?

Sa daang malinaw ko namang nakikita,

Ngunit unti-unting naglalaho sa bawat hakbang.

Ano ang aking nakita at nasaksihan?

Sa daang wala na atang katapusan,

Na dahan-dahang naglalaho sa bawat hakbang.

Anong simbolo ang nais ipahiwatig ng mga daan?

Sa bawat hakbang na aking tinatahak,

May mga misteryong bumabalot sa bawat daan.

Anong bumabalot sa daang unti-unting naglalaho?

Daang mahiwaga na maraming ipinapakita,

Mga iba't ibang misteryong naglalarawan sa bawat daan.

Anuman ang nais ipahiwatig ng daang aking tinatahak

Sa paglipas ng mga oras; diwa'y magkakamalay,

Unti-unting naglalaho; nabubura sa kamalayan.

Anuman ang nasaksihan o nakita sa daang iyon

Naglahong lahat sa pagmulat ng mga mata,

Nawala na parang bula; tuluyan nang nabura sa kamalayan.

= = =

Jr.