Dynamite in The Sky

 

 Night might be dark

You may lost through,

Live without a mark

But you keep going through.

 

 Because you believe

There will be a guide,

That shines above to live

A light to give guide.

 

For you the sky shines bright

Like diamond in the sky,

It explodes to give light

Like a dynamite in the sky.

 

 Jr.

Inspired:

#BTS - #Dynamite

 

 

 

Tears

 

Tears may express pain,

Yet tears are not just simple.

There are tears that are hidden,

More painful than what we see.

 It comes from the heart.

 

Jr.

 

Info:

 

Tanka form

- five lines

- first and third lines with five syllables

- second, fourth and fifth lines with seven syllables

 

 

D. E. A. T. H.

 

 

A Dead end starts

Into Everlasting darkness,

That Attracts nothing but sadness.

And Torment of an endless tears...

You Halt yet you cannot,

Because D.E.A.T.H. can never be halt.

Jr.

Stay Gold

 

Time is limited

Precious... so do not waste it,

Live in best, stay gold.

Jr.

~~~ ~~~ ~~~

Inspired by:

BTS - Stay Gold

Deep Wound

Wound never live you

It will heal, but never fade

It just goes deeper.

...

Jr.

Promise and Trust

An act of promise

Is like an act of trust,

Promises might break

As trust can be break.

It's like a sweetest act of promise

And a dangerous game for trust,

That is meant to be lies

And trust might fall in lies.

A dangerous word of promise

That act as one in trust,

And gives you a high hopes

But always give you loss hopes.

Jr.

Okay?

Life goes on

Continue to move on.

Though life hurts

You hold back all it hurts.

Hide behind those smiles

Pretend behind those smiles.

Silently cry in pain

Live in pain.

That slices you through deep

Cut you through deep.

Still you keep telling 'I'm okay'

Though the truth 'I'm not okay'.

Jr.

Life

Life

Is like water,

It continues to drown

Without water in present.

Dive

Into deep underwater,

That keeps you down

Continue to suffocate with intent.

A mystery of life

That continues to slaughter,

Yet never let you drag down

Keep you alive so unpleasant.

Life

Is like water,

It continues you to drown

Never let you live in pleasant.

Jr.

I Am Fear

I am Fear

A name that can burn,

A name that you do not want to learn.

I am here

Not to let you be happy,

Not to let you be lively.

Let me stay by your side

Let us be insane,

And let us live with all these pain.

Jr.

I Miss You

I miss you

The worst feeling I ever have,

I miss you

The last thing I need to crave.

I want you

The last thing I wanted to feel,

I want you

The last word I would peel.

I hate you

Is the first word I wanted to say,

I hate you

So much I just wanted to relay.

I still miss you

Even though I hate you,

I still miss you

And I wanted to see you.

I want you back

Helplessly wanted you to return,

I want you back

Anxiously waiting for your turn.

I beg you

To come back to my arms,

I beg you

To let me be in your charms.

However, you

Never came back,

However, you

Paint my world in black.

Now I miss you

So bad I wanted to cry,

Now I miss you

So mad it is hard to say goodbye.

All I want is to be with you

To feel you once again,

All I want is to be with you

Even though it would be hard to gain.

I miss you

I simply miss you,

I miss you

Is all I could say to you.

...

Jr.

Doubt

Here lies the name I don't want to say,

Even to hear I don't want too

Although it introduce itself in me.

Meet me and know me better, it says,

Though I don't want too

It makes my life in grief.

Doubt is my name, it says,

Now I doubt to find my peace

I doubt, I could never find my happiness.

Doubt gives me more insecurities,

It drives me crazy

Now how can I escape you?

Each time I wake up,

Doubt never live my side

It always welcomes me with a cold hug.

Frustration starts to fill,

As if it introduce me to another friend

I doubt, doubt will never live me.

I don't want to be doubt's friend,

I want to meet my confidence

To live doubt behind.

Build up my courage,

To stand up between my doubts

To free myself in doubts.

However in the end of it all,

Doubt became a part of my life

And I doubt it will be a pain in my life.

Jr.

"Who Are You?"

What keeps you in my mind?

That makes me blind.

You keep popping into my head,

And I don't know what is ahead.

You were like a bubble,

Pops out in ramble.

Takes out my curiosity,

However you were out of my vicinity.

How may I able to meet you?

If you hide yourself from the dark bayou.

Show up for a moment,

Live without a comment.

You were like an illusion,

Without any solution.

Who are you?

Is what I ask of you.

Though you never answer,

You just give me a disaster.

You always come and go,

Never let me to know.

Always there whenever I need,

Save me in speed.

You are something unexpected,

Never expected.

Make me to think of you,

Even though I never know you.

Jr.

Mary (Holy One)

For a moment,

I was enchanted in Your beauty and grace.

I didn't know what to do,

What to say and think.

I just froze seeing You in front of my eyes.

Standing,

Glowing with shining light that never hurt my eyes.

I am so dazzle,

I couldn't believe I am seeing You.

I myself wonder why You showed up.

Of all people,

I am one of the worst.

Darkness resides on me,

I am not pure and clean as what You are.

However you came into my sight.

Glowing with light,

You came to me.

You approach me with Your sweet smile,

With Your loving and caring gesture.

I never knew if I am the right one.

Why me?

I asked myself many times.

Still,

No answers can be found.

That I fear.

A fear that breaks me,

And I keep myself not listening.

Cover my ears as You speak,

Yet my eyes keep looking at You.

Mesmerize on you.

I am no body,

But You came in.

Showed up into my front,

And speaks to me.

Not through my ears but through my heart.

I might not be the right one,

The good and the bad reside in me.

Though I pray,

For my heart isn't corrupted.

By the darkness resides in me.

I might be asking,

With questions I will not answer.

Although,

Please my heart.

Listen for what She wanted to say.

Guide me,

I pray deeply.

For whatever happens,

It may not be happen.

With Her guide and love, please pray,

As what She wanted to convey to every one of us.

 

 Jr.

 

Shadows of Death

Through the thick shadows

Darkness prevails,

Can only be seen by dark meadows.

An unknown event unveils

Creatures from the dark,

Starts to prevails.

Unknown invasion start to mark

Without warning,

It comes deeply dark.

Invade in one strike earning

The shadows start to grow,

Comes out without warning.

Without protection it glow

Quickly invade,

Continues to grow.

Count without fade

Darkness wins out of the shadow,

Death comes to invade.

Jr.

 

P.R.A.Y.

Dear God,

Give us P-eace in our hearts and minds,

Let us R-est for awhile and hear us oh, Lord.

Give us A-im to be free out of this crisis,

Let this Y-ear be safe and sound for all of us oh, Lord.

We all P.R.A.Y. in Your grace oh, Lord.

In the name of the Father, to the Son and to the Holy Spirit.

Amen.

Words of God

"I challenge you."

He speaks.

But we never ask Him, "what is it?"

We always end up, 'taken for granted'.

Not knowing we slowly facing his greatest challenge.

A challenge that we might fall apart.

A challenge that we are not prepared.

A challenge that we didn't notice at all.

Now, we do ask Him,

"Why do we need to face it?"

"What is happening?"

Questions by questions,

Not knowing He already been given us time to be prepare.

To face each trials.

To be prepare enough to fight and stand strong.

To be one.

 Now we are looking for His help.

Praying to be ready, to be prepare.

Not knowing He already given us much time.

A time to be ready, to be prepare.

A time to face His greatest challenge.

A time to see that He never neglect us.

His words never left us.

He never let us fall apart.

 Never left our side and fight along with us.

Now we seek for His guidance,

For his salvation, for these crisis we have,

And we all know, He knows it all.

He will never left us,

Even though we left him at times of peace,

Now we seek Him, pray deeply.

"I challenge you."

He speaks once more.

This time we do answer.

 This time, we call for him,

Notice His greatest challenge,

Facing it with positivity and with strong belief.

That soon, this crisis that we have,

Will soon be over, will end.

With the Words of God.

We entrust You, we believe in You,

God even on this day, You never left us.

You never neglect us.

Help us oh Lord,

Cause we all know, we can stand up and fight,

We can win this challenge.

In Your words, we will stand forever.

 In God's grace.

We will all be unite as one.

 

My Jewel

For the years I've been living

I didn't intend to search,

Never intend of choosing

You just came into my reach.

You're like a jewel that hard to find

That I want to keep by my side,

Because you are one of a kind

I want to keep you in one stride.

Though I don't want you to be broken

You are complete with your jaded pace,

A jewel that needs with care not to be fallen

Now how can I hold you without breaking your grace?

Jr.

My Sun and My Moon

"You are my sun that shines my day.

My moon that guides my night.

I is my beginning and You is my ending.

You are my sun and my moon.

My sunshine and light at my night.

The only one that I love that keeps me alive."

Jr.

All Alone Again

Sometimes you just came unexpected,

That makes my world go round.

Looking right through my eyes,

I fall all over for you without intend.

You made my life as if it is complete,

But in the end you are the one to ruin it.

That sometimes of your unexpected,

My world put into chaos of sorrow.

With your eyes that slowly fading,

I follow even into the deepest row.

Make me want to stop you from going,

Still you will live me all alone again.

Jr.

>>>

Pain and Tears

A smile can hide pain

A laughter can hide tears,

While the rain can hide tears

But it can never wash the pain.

Tears may come and go

As long as you cry it out,

Though pain will never go

That rotten you in and out.

Jr.

"I'm (br)OK(en)."

(T_T)

Through The Dark

I saw this portal as I walk through this path

Where all I could see is only darkness,

And as I walk through cold suddenly embraces me

That is already scattered all over the place,

But I keep on walking through.

With my bare feet I walk into it

An empty road can only be seen,

Fear might unfold me still my curiosity wins

Going through the path of nowhere,

Silence screams through my ears.

Nothing can compare how deep it is

But one thing for sure,

I'm drowning through this darkness

Where I found myself reaching into something,

Or I could say someone that awaits me.

There were three shadows waiting

Cover with dark hoods and coat,

Faces weren't to be found

But only deep darkness picture through,

Pull me through deeper of nothingness.

I try to stop and pull myself back

But as I fight harder darkness gets stronger,

It swallows me through deep

That I struggle so hard to be free,

Scream so hard without a sound.

I felt myself start to numb

Cold and scared as I pull into a fiery pit,

Flesh starts to burn without a fire

Blood starts to flow out of me,

And all I could do is to cry as I keep screaming into silent.

My breath begins to get tight

Slowly I feel weak but keep fighting,

Then I learn to pray for a light

A savior that can pull me back,

I pray and pray as I keep going deep.

Please send me someone

I'm begging as I pull in through deep,

But it seem no one can hear me

Because I keep on going,

Not through the light but through the dark.

Jr.

Back Again

Whether I run away

I keep on coming back,

Even I change my way

I'm still going on the same track.

No matter what I do

I cannot escape,

No matter where I go

I always lost in shape.

And in the end

I'm back from the start,

A start I never intend

That keeps me falling apart.

Jr.

Free from the Dark

I was in the deep

That I don't want to keep,

But it swallows me.

I try to scream

Out of this dream,

Or it is a nightmare?

I pray to be save

Out of this grave,

Cry for help.

Then you suddenly came

Save me out of the flame,

Pull me back into the light.

You came at the right time

Save me out of this rime,

Even though you're left behind.

Once again you free me

Out at the darkness of me,

Help me to be safe once again.

Even though you sacrifice yourself

You let it just to save myself,

Out from the darkness I'm in.

Jr.

Memories of Death

They are all gone,

But keep on living forever.

They maybe still lurking,

Though cannot be seen.

Without a form,

They keep in our memories.

A heart without beating,

But keep alive without breathing.

Death maybe the end,

But memories continue to live till the end.

Jr.

,,, ,,, ,,,

Drown into Silent Tears

There are tears that hard to stop

Even though you want it to stop,

It is hard to do.

It continues to flow

Too strong to go in the flow,

That wrecks you on and on.

It keeps you broken

Even though you're not really broken,

Still you drown into silent tears.

Jr.

" _ "

The Storm

Sometimes,

In life you will experience a downfall,

Like a storm, it comes in wave

Too strong to hold on,

Too tough to stand up and fight.

All you can do is to hide

Try to protect yourself,

Away from harm

Away from the destruction,

But how far will you hide?

Because sometimes,

Not everything that comes your way

You should hide,

You need to face it

Stand up and learn to fight.

Because,

In every storm

There's always a light,

That gives you hope and courage

That supports you out of the storm.

Jr.

Sweat to Live

You're moist even though water isn't present.

You soak in it but still you keep breathing.

Almost drown and tired.

Still continues to move to live.

.

Jr.

.

F.E.A.R.

Failure always occurs.

Ease hardly to find.

Account to more dejection.

Race through to deep of sadness.

This is how F.E.A.R. comes run into my mind.

Jr.

Dear Me

Dear Me,

Hello,

I just wanted to greet you with a big HELLO,

And with a big SMILE even though,

You were in the midst of chaos,

Still always remember peace will come,

And everything would be fine in the end.

Love,

I just wanted you to know that I LOVE you,

No matter what happens stay POSITIVE,

Even though you're going down,

Feels so damn cursed,

Still I am here for you no matter what happens.

Goodbye,

I just wanted you to know GOODBYE,

Not to yourself but to all your PROBLEMS,

Let it be and PRAY that everything will resolve,

I just let you know that you are not alone,

I'm just here to support you no matter what.

Me,

I just wanted you to know about ME,

That stands up in every CHALLENGE you face,

That knows everything in you,

And I know you can surpass it all,

Just be you and be confident everything will going to be alright.

To my dearest,

Me

: ... ... ... :

Jr.

After Class

She:   It's been so long since I saw you.

          And even if it was so long,

          The effect is still the same,

          I am still falling for you all over again.

He:    My day is not so good.

         That I eventually decided to walkout when,

         I suddenly notice you,

         And once again all my anger was gone.

She:   I notice you and I knew,

           You were in a bad mood.

           You even passed me by,

           With anger in your voice but you still notice me.

He:     I knew you notice me,

           But this is the first time that...

           You keep staring at me.

           You even look straight into my eyes.

She:   Yes!

           I look at you,

           An eye to eye contact,

           And I knew you were surprise seeing me like this.

He:    I turned around and sit back not too far from you.

          I suddenly feel at ease.

          Anger just passed me by,

         And all I can see and feel is only you.

She:   I suddenly feel awkward.

           Though I keep looking at you,

          Even though my heart beats like crazy,

           I still keep on staring at you.

He:    I read you and I know you were feel awkward.

          That made me smile at you,

          And you blush with that simple smile,

          That I enjoy seeing in you but you keep smiling at me.

She:   You smile at me!

           My heart beats much faster than the normal.

           Now I'm sweating not in fear but...

           In a romantic way that made me blush!

He:     Now I'm thinking,

           I want to be by your side.

           As in right now but suddenly our professor came in.

           That stops me from coming for you.

She:   You were about to stand,

           But stops when our professor came in,

           I feel sad because I wanted you to be by my side.

           I want to be near you as what you wanted.

He:     I sigh.

           Deeply before I spell into my mouth,

           The words I wanted to say to you.

           "I'm happy to see you again." I said.

She:    You speak to me.

            And I understand it.

            I'm happy too,

            And that is what exactly the words I wanted to convey.

He:     You finally smile back at me.

           And I can read you,

           You exactly feel the same way.

           And now I wanted to say I...

She:    I...

           I just smile.

           I want to say something but the class starts.

           I sigh and just nods towards him before I focus in our class.

He:     You just nodded and smiled and that's it?

           You just focus to our class.

           But I can't and believe me!

           This time I'll be by your side after this class.

...:    The end to begin with...

Jr.

Heartbreak

"It can cut you so deeply. It can hurt you so much. It can crush you so badly. It can ruin you so madly. That kills you. But keep you breathing and alive after dying."

Jr.

("_")

Swallows Through the Dark

Through this thick and cloudy place

A lady walks in through the dark path,

Not knowing what she will face

Not knowing what will be the aftermath.

She continues to step in into the dark

Where danger draws from within,

As she goes on fears start to mark

She begins to doubt in between.

She begins to stop and look

Finds a guide throughout,

Still she's been totally hook

No guide can help her out.

Her vein starts to freeze

Her body starts to numb,

Still she feels the cold breeze

That makes her feel so dumb.

As everything in her sight

Begins to fade through the dark,

She begins not to see the light

Slowly she swallows through the dark.

--- --- ---

--- --- ---

Jr.

Starlight

Twinkle, twinkle little star,

How come you light up at the dark?

Sparks through the night sky,

How come can you lift me up?

Through this cold-cold night,

I see not a light.

Without a light,

I lost through this inky world.

Sorrow folds through,

I lost my tracks back to light.

In this senseless world,

I try to walk out even if I crawl.

Through this oblivion,

I suffer to find a light.

Almost crawling out to find,

Still this inky world takes part.

Twinkle, twinkle little star,

How come you light up unexpectedly?

Little do I know from your tiniest spark,

I see you from this oblivion.

Hope starts to climb up,

Gently I reach up into you.

From your tiniest light,

I gain enough courage to be free.

To fly high up through the light,

Finally flee out of this inky world.

Twinkle, twinkle little star,

You're my little diamond that shines bright.

My only hope from this inky world,

My only savior, my little starlight.

\\\

Journey

Dear past, present and future,

To my seven years old

My life begins with ease,

Play and just go tease

This is my life as a child.

When I turned thirteen

My life begins to grow,

A new design starts to flow

I slowly blossom into teen.

As I turned at my thirties

Struggle is for real,

Challenges are like steal

Now I think of my forties.

As I picture my forties

I see my future begin again,

All my achievements already gain

Dreams come true for my fifties.

At this moment of time

My fifties are in bloom,

Struggles changes to boom

I already achieve my prime.

And soon at my sixties

My life begins to symbol,

A future I picture as my idol

A life that I know I will cherish.

As my clock clicks in

Soon I'll face my final verdict,

A life that has it's restrict

That I know I enjoy each scene.

To the life that I own

I thank you for a beginning,

With a wonderful meaning

For a life that you'd shown.

As my life continue to learn

From present to my future,

Thank you for all those lecture

Thank you for this life that I earn.

Jr.

What Am I?

What kind of this feeling I have?
It's like a bomb,
Continues to explode.

What kind of emotion is this?
It's like a clicking clock,
Counting nonstop which hard to hold.

What kind of mind I do have?
It's like plain but dreamy,
Without an action.

What kind of self am I?
It's like moving but no path,
Going forward without a plan.

Then what kind of person am I?
It's like a full outside,
But continues to empty in inside.

What am I?
A hardworking person,
But the truth I'm just a total failure.

...

Jr.

Your Smile

It was your smile that I wanted to see

A smile that shines so brightly and alive,

That made me smile honestly and so free

Wanted to see your smile as I arrive.

Slowly I want you to stay that I strive,

To be with you all the time forever

Spend each moments with you together.

:-)

Jr.

One Question

Can I ask one question

Do you love me or not?

Because I am in love,

Wanting to tie the knot

Hope that you love me too.

<3 <3 <3

Jr.

Without an Escape

I'm drowning

In an ocean never comes,

Now I'm falling

Into my deepest dooms,

Without an escape

I'm in prison.

Slowly I suffocate

But keeps breathing,

I lost to meditate

My mind keeps breaking,

Without an escape

I'm seal into deep.

It feels heavy

Without anything on me,

An empty carry

That hard to be,

Without an escape

I lost my freedom.

Without an escape

I struggle to flee,

Without an escape

Darkness is what I see,

To live without an escape

It is my eternal agony.

Jr.

My Hope

You are my sun that shines bright.

Gives warm through my sufferings.

Guide me with great lights of hope.

Out from this darkness.

Jr.