Life Is...

Life is a maze

that puzzles life...

Life is to breathe

that keep us alive...

Life is to live

that continues to fight...

Life is a journey

that seeks adventure...

Life is to enjoy

that we gladly rejoice...

Life is to fulfill

that we do harder...

Life is a path

that we chooses...

Life is to cherish
that worth fighting for...

Life is to thank

that few people appreciates...

jr...

From: Me To: God

:)

You. . . Who always lift up my life.

You. . . Who always there to protect and guide me.

Who's the one who always moves my self out of something stupid.

Who guards me all through out my journey.

You. . . Who always stay at my side. . .

Whenever. . . Wherever. . .

Thank you!

A simple word to say though. . .

A simple word that comes from my heart.

And a simple word that is too strong.

Thank you! A lot!

:)

jr.

Keep Dreaming (Failure and Challenges)

... Sometimes failure is hard to accept.

... Sometimes it hurts so deeply that wound.

... But if you think of it clearly and hardly.

... You have been given a huge challenges.

... A challenge that He knows that you may pass.

... A challenge that makes you more tougher.

... And you would see the hope that after the failure you face.

... You may face a good and nice future of fortune afterwards.

... And soon your entire dreams will do come true.

... Failure is a prove.

... Just Keep Dreaming high.

... And do all your best!

... Jr.

Mind Floats

Mind floating in a thin air

That feels so heavy than lighter,

Senses starts to go high up

Until nonstop flowing ideas goes top.

Going and going till it won't stop

Searching ideas until it's flop,

Reaching without a choice to go

Believing till it last to do.

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jr

Him

Why his always there all through out?
Even if his already been with someone else,

And I already been with someone else

Still his always there for me all through out!

I feel as if I'm too fragile to handle

That he just always wants to be near,

Be careful with me like a crystal to handle

Always and forever be with him so near.

I don't know for how long he shows

For how long he stays in my dreams,

Be always to come near and to shows

Stays for as much long as he wants in dreams.

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jr

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Meeting My Soft Self (My Heart and Soul)

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sometimes she still asking...
why me of all people?
a million or maybe a billion!
there are lots of them!
still she and only her?!
why me when someone can be?
she asked.
those who are good much!
who has few of sins!
because she feels that she is full of sins!
still HE captures her and chooses her!
even she's in the depths of darkness!
still HE reaches her hand to hold...
HE just holds it so tightly!
as if HE won't allow her...
to fall deeply and deeply!
that makes her wander why?!
so she keeps asking and asking...
and for her surprise!
HE continues to answer her.
HE keeps answering all her questions.
yes! she hardly understand it now!
then all things comes out so easily!
she, herself, her.
finally wonder and known...
that she had a soft spot...
a soul that full of love...
a love that fills her heart...
that she couldn't see...
that she couldn't feel...
but HE...!
HE can see it so clearly.
and HE allows her to feel it and reach it.
allows her to open her own heart in a brighter side.
an eye that could see so clearly.
a heart that could feel so nicely.
her soft part as human being.
that HE knows from the beginning she lives.


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jr

Travels Alone

Adventure in too many different places,

Travels in long time and spaces.

Too many different people may able to greet,

Even some different creatures may able to meet.

Turns in different kinds of roads,

Spinning all over the places with full loads.

Different days that may turn to see,

Opposite sides that travels to flee.

And yet feeling so alone and sad,

An empty soul so none and mad.

Times clicking too slow and loud,

Hours running too heavy like a dark cloud.

That make tears slowly to flow out,

A fluid that falls so hard to stop like a nut.

Until sorrow makes it numb through the heart,

And sudden rush of ache that sets self apart.

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B R O K E N

- linded into too much love.

- etray a heart that rips love.

- upture one self that hard to complete.

- ift into pieces that can't complete.

- verthrow in to deepest sorrow.

- utgrow hatred that creates sorrow.

- nocks out into too much pain.

- nowing nothing but pain.

- xhaust in to too much fighting.

- scaping in kindness for fighting.

- eglect the entire feelings into hatred.

- umb to feel nothing causes by hatred.

B R O K E N

- a simplest word to explain.

B R O K E N

- in a situation that is hard to explain.

Fiction or Reality

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Fiction can make dreams do come true

Can undo or redo things that right or wrong

But fictions never sees the truth

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In reality, dreams are just a dreams

Can not undo or redo things that right or wrong

That the reality sees the truth

That give us relief...

Yet, give us suffer...

?

jr.

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A World of Mine

On my own world,

I see lots of places

Can travel all out.

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On my own world,

I see many new faces

Can meet all out.

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On my own world,

I can feel so free

Can travel any time.

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On my own world,

I can make so glee

Can enjoy all time.

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On my own world,

I won't think too much

Can rest all night.

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On my own world,

I won't bother any much

Can play all night.

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j.r.

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Crazy on Him

Thinking of him made my heart and mind get into trouble.

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Though I decided to do it on my own, I know I'm just hurting and torturing my own self.

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What am I suppose to do, to break the spell that I created...?

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The only me, my self...?

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I am in love to a man who doesn't even knew what I truly feels for him.

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Now, I asks my self...

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Do I have the guts to totally forget him?

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Or even to erase him into my system?

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Or maybe, he was already gone and erase into my life and into my system?!

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I am just so blind and deceive to accept the whole truth!

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Yes! I am!

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I am so much blind and deceive to believe and to expect that he would know...!

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That made my mind, heart and soul goes crazy madly in love with him!

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So much to extend that I badly wanted to see him behind that hood!

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Or maybe, I am so lost!

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Lost to extend that I'm losing in my real world.

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To extend that I hated my self from holding back from the memories of him!

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I still didn't learn...

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I still didn't wake up!

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I still crazy on him!

Jr Rs

Kulang Pa Rin

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Mahirap ang ganito,
... Lagi nalang nakakulong...
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Kahit na nga sa literal na kahulugan,
... Malaya at nagagawa ang lahat...
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Ngunit sadyang kulang pa rin,
... Kahit anong gawin o isipin...
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Kahit ang sabihin o ipahayag,
... Nananatili pa ring may kulang...
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Hindi pa rin sapat ang lahat,
... Hanggang sa mawala na lang...
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Unti-unti mang tingnan,
... Mabilis namang tunay...
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Hanggang sa mamalayan na lang,
... Wala na palang mararating...
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Ni masisimulan ay hindi pa nagawa,
... Hanggang ang hangganan ay malayang nakikita...
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Nasasaksihan ng mga mata,
... At tuluyan nang maglalahong parang bula...
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Maglalahong parang kailanman hindi nagkaroon,
... At kailanman walang alaalang nabuo at natira...
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J R
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Falling Deeply

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Falling deeply apart

Taking wrong roads

Running through nothing,

Escaping like dart

Throwing all loads

Living for nothing.

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Trying to cope

Finding to fit

Stealing more peace,

Feeling no hope

Hurting from hit

Loosing for peace.

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Driving to insane

Thinking no more

Keeping to look,

Searching for lane

Hoping till bore

Aching to look.

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Giving up easily

Tiring to fight

Making nothing else,

Kneeling like silly

Falling that fright

Doing nothing else.

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jr.

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Vanishing Bloody

Vanishing all things around

Loosing all right minds

Trying to cope up,

Still hardly to bound

Still nothing to binds

Hoping to lose up!

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Could not see light

Hating that hurts madly

Gasping air to breathe,

Still not enough right

Feeling so hurt sadly

That difficult to breathe!

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Hate and hate all

Hurt till hurt through

Aching deeply and bloody,

Losing hope that fall

Hate hurt till rough

Going going till bloody!

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j,r.

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A Chaos of Death

She is in into the midst of chaos

Struggle to find an exit to out

Even to think clear is hardly to do.

Even the air she breath is losing up

Difficult to find an air to breath in

That makes her feel suffocated all through.

Catching up some air to breathe till she can

And still keeping to fight to live long

But still she could not live any longer.

The chaos begins to worst than ever

Until no one can escape from their fate

A fate of death that everyone will face.

The same fate that she had that will end all

Even if she was fighting for her life

Still not enough to escape from death.

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jr

Losing...

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Losing my head,

Losing my mind.

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Losing my self,

Losing my belief.

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Losing my spirit,

Losing my light.

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Losing my flame,

Losing my fame.

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Losing my heart,

Losing my part.

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Losing my hope,

Losing my cope.

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jr

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Oh, My! Oh, My!

Oh, my soul... my soul...

How could I ever give you peace?
How could I ever give you calmness?
How could I ever give you happiness?
How could I ever give you ease?

Oh, my heart... my heart...

Why you're always in pain?
Why you're always in sorrow?
Why you're always in flow?
Why you're always in drain?

Oh my... oh my...

What a person you are?
What a body you have been?
What a human you have seen?
What a soul you bare?

...Oh, my heart! Oh, my soul! ...
... Always hiding deep within depths! ...
... Oh, my heart! Oh, my soul! ...
... Always hiding deep within paths! ...

... j. r. ...

Having Doubt (Despite His just there as always.)

Why I kept dreaming of Him?

Why I'm still feeling Him?
While my whole self is in the dark.

He still there letting me know His there

He still always at my back knowing His there,

Just there to guide and protect me.

When the truth I'm not really worth for it!

When I know to my self I'm a bad person that proves it!

Because I let my self live in the darkness still His there.

His always there for me and for my soul

His always there ready to save and protects me and my soul,

Even if my soul is already deep within the dark.

I couldn't explain these feelings I feel

I wouldn't know what else to think and feel,

Am I really worth seeing Him? As I ask.

I'm afraid! Too much afraid

I'm lost! That I hardly to find my self that I"m afraid,

Even though He's there and know all my fears.

It may be ridiculous to be afraid

It may be kind of weird to feel afraid,

But it is what I feel even though His there each of my life.

Each time I thought of Him... He ease my pain

Each time He showed up Him self to me... I feel no pain,

Why His like that? I asked... because His kind and wise one? I asked.

So kind that I don't know if I worth it?!

So kind that warms my heart though I feel I'm not worth it...!

But deep within my heart and soul... He's been living there somewhere.

Yes! I'm doubting my self!

Yes! I'm still regretting Him to my self!

But deep within, I love that I could feel Him beside me always.

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I thy God, creator of all...

Thanking for all the guidance and protection you've been given us....

Amen.

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Jr. Rs.

Making Her...

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Making her smile,

Makes me feel so happy.

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Making her mad,

Makes her more beautiful into my eyes.

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Making her feel secure,

Makes me feel so proud protecting her.

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Making her jealous,

Makes me feel so sorry.

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Making her surprises,

Makes me feel so glad and thankful she likes it.

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Making her sad,

Makes my heart hurt that pains.

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Making her alone,

Makes me feel so sad that parts.

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Making her cry,

Makes my self and my heart break into pieces.

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Making her smile and loves her from afar,

Is the best thing I could do...

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His in Her Dreams

Who you really are?

Why I couldn't see you clearly?

Even if you're so near?

So easy to reach that so dearly?

Still I haven't see you longer to stare.

Though deep down my heart,

I knew who you really are,

I am only scared to fear,

If I finally learn who you are,

So I let you be in my dreams that part.

When I'm in my real world...

You were there at my dreams...

Trying those two be collide...

Be memories that last till it gleams...

Making each other be mold.

There would be lots of questions.

Lots of mind tricks to unfold.

That so stiff that needs a guide.

Be careful that needs to be hold.

And choose where to land in right options.

...JR...