Noong Haiskul

Sisimulan ko noong araw na nag-enrol ako

Ang daming tao tanong ko magiging kaklase ko ba ang lahat ng ito?

Halatang-halata sa mukha ang pagkasabik

Na makapag-aral at makipag-kaibigang muli.

Pagpasok ko sa unang araw

Ang kilos hindi pa ganap na dalaga

Mag-salita, umupo, mag-lakad at manamit ay tila ba’t ang bata pa

Ngunit alam kong nasa punto pa ako ng aking pagdadala

Kaya alam kong ayos lang kung di pa ako ganap na dalaga

At hindi iyon minamadali dahil alam kong darating din ako roon.

Sa aking pagpasok sa unang araw ko

Nalungkot dahil nasa huling pangkat ako napunta

Puro maaarte at tamad daw ang aking makikita at makikilala

Ngunit tila nag-kakamali yata sila ng akala

Dahil matitino at mas-mababait ang aking mga nakasama.

Sadyang mang-husga lamang ang mga tao

Kahit hindi pa man nila nakikilala ang isang tao may sarili na silang hukom

Masasama at hindi maganda ang mga pag-uugali

Ngunit sadyang mali sila ng kanilang akala.

Sa paglipas ng mga araw mas nakilala ko ang aking mga kaklase

May mga sadyang sikat sa kalalakihan

May mga sadyang may itinatagong katalinuhan

May mga sadyang palakaibigan lang

Mayroon ring mahiyain at sadyang walang imik kung hindi mo kakausapin

Ngunit masasabi kong mas masaya ang naging kalagayan namin

Dahil sadya atang napunta sa huling pangkat ang mga makukulit

Maiingay man ay sadyang mababait iba sa akala ng marami.

Hanggang sa magkaroon ako ng hinahangan

Na hinahangaan rin ng ilan sa mga kaibigan ko

Na halos sinusundan pa namin na para kaming stalker

Nakakatawa man ngunit sadyang dumating din kami sa ganoong sitwasyon.

Ngayong naalala ko ang lahat noong haiskul

Sadyang marami rin pala akong nakilalang iba’t ibang klaseng tao

Na mas nagpatatag ng aking hinaharap sa ngayon

Na kahit sa likod ng mali nilang pag-aakala

Sadyang ang huling pangkat pa namin ang may magandang hinaharap sa ngayon.

Marami mang nanghusga

Nanglait at nangmata noon

Sila itong tumitingala

Humahanga at nagmamalaki samin sa ngayon

At ang tanging masasabi ko lang

Salamat sa mga alaala ng kahapon.

JR and QJS

Still Growing

I ask you to kill me.

But you heal me.

I wanted to die.

But you said it's a lie.

I badly wanted to feel pain.

But you push me in the rain.

I said, live me alone!

But you sing me with a tone.

I ask you, why?

But you just answered me, oh my!

Now I ask what you are doing.

You just answered me, my love is still growing.

Jr.

Begging Like a Fool

Don't just stand there!

Just don't pretend you've never care!

Never ever go so far and left me behind!

Please don't ever go away!

Just please stay like the way you do!

Stay at my side!

Stay at my life!

Stay at my heart!

Till forever and ever till eternity!
So don't live me now!

Don't lose me and keeps me holding!

Don't just stand there and stare!

Because all I want is keep me by your side!

But no matter what I do!

No matter how desperately I beg!

In the end,

I will end all alone!

Letting me go without stopping me!

Letting me live and be back to my real world!

You just watch me until I faded away!

Pretends that you've never see me!

Pretends you've never hear me!

Pretends you've never ever care for me!

That you've never heard and see me begging!

Begging over and over again!

Just to make you chase over me!

Jr.

Go Forward

===>

Once I tried to create

My eyes start to fall,

Once I tried to move

My body starts to heavy,

Once I tried to think

My mind starts to blank,

Once I tried to write

My hands start to ache,

Once I tried to read

My sight starts to fade,

Once I tried to fight

My soul starts to surrender,

Once I tried to fight

My soul starts to surrender,

Once I tried to continue

I myself start to stop.

So once I try not to do things

That's the time myself go forward.

===>

--> Jr.

How Rude?!

How rude of you to let me fall for you?!

To let me drown from the memories we shared!

Let me go wild from each moment you stay at my side!

Letting me fall much deeper into you!

How rude of you to let me go after all those times?!

Living me all alone!

Live without any strong reasons why you need to go!

Letting me move on and walk without you!

How rude of you to let me hurt so badly?!

Making me ask you what I did wrong?!

Hurting my heart so deeply without any reasons?!

Letting me drown on my own miseries all because of you!

How rude of you just to speak goodbye so easily?!

Without a clear explanation!

Nothing so explainable reason you said!

Letting me hanging around!

How rude of you show to me how much you love me?!

When the truth you will live me behind!

Living me broken and crazy in love with you!

Letting me live in despair and miseries!

How rude of you punish me like this?!

Unable to fall for someone who does exist!

Stopping me to find someone to love!

Letting me think and love you more!

How rude of you to let me go?!

Now that I needed you most!

Mostly now I get lost because of you!

Let my heart and soul fall deeply into the dark.

Jr.

Quotes for You

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"I don't care if you are ugly or you do have so many scars inside and out. Because what matter most you have a soft and pure soul and heart that makes you so precious and perfect for me."

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"As I born into this world, my only duty is to find my other half. My other half that would complete me and my goal to be at your side till forever, you are my only reason why I born in this world."

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"There is no you and me if you were not here. There is no me if I won't find you. So as long as I live, I will seek only you. My precious you to me..."

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; Jr. ;

Be With You...

Remarkably you take me by surprise

Unexpectedly you win my heart so easily,

Without doing anything I fall for you

Unknowingly I just wanted to be with you,

Your image never left my mind

Your scent never left my breathing,

Your voice never forget my hearing

Even your eyes keep hunting me,

Now all I want is to hold you

Embraces you so tightly,

To feel your warm body

To feel the beat of your heart closely,

Letting you to feel my heart too

Letting you drown for the love I gave you,

And be with you till forever and eternally.

<3 <3 <3

Jr.

xoxo

I Am...

... Live because I am thee

Speak no to me

Thou never knew I am here.

... Live as thee please

Hear nothing of me

Thou never knew I can hear.

... Live and don't look back

Thou to see is to believe

But I am always being here, I am Evil.

... Jr.

"Once Upon a Time to Happily Ever After"

~~~ ~~~ ~~~

There is a once upon a time

Enchanted with full of mystery and suspense

Founded with trust, love and hope

Where a love at first sight mysteriously happens

Where you meet a good fairy god mother and a wicked witch!

A place where you can ask a mirror

Where you can find an apple with poison

And by only one true love kiss can saves you.

A place where you're ready to give up your voice

Just to have feet to walk on land

To meet the man who took your heart.

A place where you meet your three god fairies

Where you found a needle that makes you sleep

And be awake from a one true love kiss.

A place where you see a haunted castle

Where a beast living from the inside

And Rose petals that guides as a limit to find true love.

A place where it seems you're dreaming

Wondering upon beyond no one can see

And with a mysterious cat that can be invisible.

A place where a talking frog helps you out

Not knowing that it was a prince before it is cursed

And only a princess could help it out from the cursed.

A place where you find a tower without an entrance

But you may see a single window above

And only a long hair could make you climb up.

A place where you can get a magic beans

Where it grew up high and brings you into a giant castle

Where a giant lives and where a goose can lay a golden eggs.

A place that has a twelve o' clock limit

Where a one pair of a glass shoes left behind

That caused a wide spread search.

A place where you can see a flying carpet

Where a lamp can give you three wishes

And where you found the girl you'll love that lives in a castle.

A place where you see a chocolate house in the midst of a forest

But not knowing you'll bewitch by a wicked witch

And only two young once can defeat it.

Place where folded with such unexplainable mystery

Enchanted with such unexplainable feelings

Where simple things became greater

And lives changes with a simple beginning and ending

That ends as they live happily ever after.

~~~ ~~~ ~~~

Jr.

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Again

Here we go again

Meeting so unexpectedly

Never meant to meet,

Still we end up meeting again

Just seeing each other so suddenly

There are no words to greet.

Here you go again

Always one step behind

Makes me to look back,

Still you keep distance again

One step to reach to bind

But we never had been in a pack.

Here we are again

Never closes the space between

Just stays looking to each other,

Standing face to face once again

But you never try reaching in

That makes my heart broken over and over.

Jr.

???

Colors in Bloom...

Roses are red

Flames are fire

Thorns are deadly,

Blood is red

Pain in mire

Wound so badly.

Violets are blue

Sadness shades purple

Tears are clear,

Sea is blue

Poisonous like apple

End is near.

Flowers are bloom

Colors are reflection

Emotions are real,

Feelings are bloom

Keeping is selection

Hide with seal.

Jr.

- ... -

Until...

...

Failing to move forward

Losing entire chances to move,

Giving up so easily onward

Chances never came either remove,

Left abandon without a guard

Until nothing to achieve neither to solve.

...

Jr.

...

I'm Sorry! I Was Too Late!

... ... ...

They were friends since they were a child.

As their parents too were friends since then.

They live in the same place.

They study in the same school.

That made their bond getting stronger and tougher.

As time, days, months and years go by.

Their friendship passes through many problems.

That they both successfully solve.

And their bond became more and more strong and tougher.

Like no one can able to break the bond that they have for each other.

But just like a normal ones.

There are things that can be change.

Like feelings that may ruin a friendship.

But he couldn’t deny the truth nor ignores it or forget it.

And that’s what he really truly feels.

A friendship that turns into love!

A love not just a friend!

A love that goes further deeply into his heart and soul!

A love as a man for a woman!

And that’s what he feels for her!

He knew from the very beginning if he reveals what he truly feels.

It would just ruin their friendship.

And it would be hard for them to bring back what they already have.

Still he manages to tell what he truly feels.

Even though he may faces the consequences after that.

She as what she thought.

Their friendship would never end.

That no one can break the bond that they’ve created for so long.

For just one sentence that he told her.

Everything changes!

He confesses his love to her.

A love that she thought a pure friendship and nothing else!

Changes into a love of a real man!

Though she something from her heart still she’s surprised!

And she couldn’t think so clearly!

She knew to herself that she loves him.

Too much love that she didn’t want him to live her alone.

Too much scared if he found someone he would love.

But knowing the truth that she is the one that he loves the most!

Makes her more scared than what she thought off!

She told the truth to him.

That he fully understand.

That he fully respect and accepted.

Though he told her that he was ready to wait!

Wait till she realizes what she truly feels towards him!

Why he said it?

Because he knew her so much!

That every inch that she do for him!

That every inch that she says to him!

He knew that there is something on her that she doesn’t know yet!

Or maybe she was just afraid to feel it.

Or maybe she was just afraid to know the truth.

Or maybe she was just afraid to lose him.

And she didn’t want to gamble their friendship.

But he already gambles it!

That he knew from the very beginning he might lose.

That he might not have her love.

Or worst!

Even their friendship might be lost.

Till forever!

She!

Decided to think of it!

Weigh things!

The right and the wrong!

Still her mind couldn’t think!

Until time passes by!

Days and month passes!

And the fear that she felt when he tells the truth!

Turns into fear of losing him!

That turns out to open not only her mind but also her heart!

The truth reveals on her!

Finally!

She knew!

She loves him not just a friend!

But she also loves him as a man!

Finally!

She realizes what she truly feels for him!

Why did she fear losing him!

Why did she fear when he found someone to love!

It is because she already love him as much as a friend!

She loves him as a man!

She loves him as he is!

She loves everything to him!

And she couldn’t let him wait for any longer!

She has to tell it!

She went outside.

Going straight at the next house where he lives.

Ignores everything on her way!         

Till she reaches the one and only place that they’ve love to stay before.

And from there she just stood for a long time.

Sudden rush of fear!

Shock!

Sadness!

Madness!

And regrets!

All in one hit!

A very strong and tough hit!

That shocks her world!

That ruins everything on her dreams!

Till nothing was left but darkness!

Words that she wanted to speaks!

Feeling that she wanted to shows!

Truth that she wants to be heard!

A confession that not worth it!

A confession that couldn’t confess anymore!

A depths of despair raging through her senses!

A depth that lose everything onto her!

Until she realize one thing that she have left to say!

“I love you so much that it hurts!”

“Because… I’m sorry! I was too late to say those words!”

… … …

Jr.

… … …

My Strength that Wounded Me

When things getting tougher and rougher...

That is the time you always come...

Saving me and giving me courage...

For a simple way you do...

My world suddenly lightens up so bright...

Makes my heart and soul calm and at ease...

Though I won't depend on you too much...

Because you won't stay longer at my side,

When you know that I'm fine you will gone...

Without a trace you will come and go...

That would only open the wound you always causes...

The misery and despair you left on me...

Always stays through my heart...

The care and love you gave to me...

Always blinded with too much pain and living me without explanations...

That wounded not only my heart but also my soul...

A wound that never fades...

A wound that never heals...

That gives burden and pain to me as always.

Jr.

Thee... (Poetry from Mi Sueño)

When did it start?

When did it happen?

Thy memories still lingers...

Then why we were apart?

Then why we were uneven?

When thy memories still encounters...

Memories that difficult to erase

Memories that difficult to throw

That became a huge part,

Thou linger into my mind so ease

Thou linger into my heart so slow

That makes my soul apart.

I want to reach thee,

I want to tie thee up,

To make thee really do exist...

Still hard to reach thee,

Still hard to tie thee up,

That pursues to follow thy list...

No wonder how long I follow?

No wonder how far I go?

If I let thee move away so far,

What would I do after flow?

What would happen if I do?

If I let thee wonder alone from afar.

... j. r. ...

Delusion (Poetry from Mi Sueño)

Don't know how it starts?

It just like came too fast,

Difficult to dodge or run...

Don't know how it goes?

It just likes flowing so fast,

Difficult to hold on...

Until almost want to stay

Be there till the end,

And be a part of it...

Until almost living far way

Be still and ignore the end,

And be there that fit...

For how long it goes?

Ready to face the problems,

That knows from the start...

For how far it sees?

Ready to face all trials,

That knows that part...

Real or not would it matter?

When it believes so true,

Almost denying the reality...

Real or not would it better?

When it believes already glue,

Almost making it deify...

... j. r. ...

Palaisipan: Ang Ikalawa...

(_ _ _)

- Nadarama ngunit hindi nahahawakan

  Malalasahan ang alat mula sa dagat ngunit hindi nakakain

  Nakakasalamuha ng lahat ngunit hindi nakikita.

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- Naisulat ng tinta ngunit laman din ng bibig

  Naglahong parang bula ang mga katibayan ngunit nakatatak sa isipan

  Naisalin sa marami at sa habang panahon

  Ngunit wala nang nabubuhay na saksi sa bawat kabanata.

(_ _ _)

Jr.

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Palaisipan

(- - - - -)

* Mahalagang bagay na kailanman hindi mawawala sayo...
   Inilalagay sa malaki hanggang sa pinakamaliit na lagayan...
   Mabaho man niyayakap at pinahahalagahan ng sobra-sobra.

(- - - - -)

* Sa umaga'y makikita sa apat na matayog na nakatindig...

   Sa pagsapit ng tanghalian dalawa na lamang ang matayog na nakatindig...

   Ngunit sa pagsapit ng dilim tatlo na lamang ang nakatindig.

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* Sa libo-libong taon...

   Hindi ito kailanman tumamis...

   Maging gaano man kalawak...

   Haba man ng sakupin...

   Kailanman bughaw nitong kulay...

   Hinding-hindi magbabago.

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* Tatalbog man sa malayo,

   Hindi mawawala sayo...

   Malayo man o malapit,

   Hindi na kailangang humakbang palapit...

   Gaano man kalawak o kalayo,

   Masisilayan lahat-lahat.

(- - - - -)

Jr.

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Two Different Worlds

Wanting to cross the bridge

A bridge connecting to other world

Where there is someone waiting at the other side,

Someone standing at the end of the bridge

Wanting to be collide in one world

Where they can stands in each other side.

But no one dares to go through to it

No one steps forward through the bridge

No one moves at their places,

Though their hearts has been through to it

Still their bodies left behind the bridge

Savor their moments even if they live in different places.

Jr.

Back Into Steel...

>===<

Nay old self neither my soul

Treats like nothing but a fool

Condemn harshly without fighting back

Does not have any good luck

Always failing to stand still

That crawl it back into steel...

>===<

Jr.

>===<

Stays Forever...

--->

Searching through times that is gone
Reaching through chances that is passed
Trying to hold on through this last time,
Moments that has been long gone
Memories that has been already passed
Keep it tight through a long time.

In bad times and in good times together
Forever stays in heart until its end
Never been forgotten even times passes by,
In good and bad health will be together
Forever stand by your side till the end
Never live your memories even time pass by.

--->

Jr.

--->

Dreams Will Past...

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Darkness will scatter the night

The sky blind the light

Eyes start to sleep tight

And soon dreams will sight...

Shows some things in real

Memories from past that seal

Memories from present that deal

Opens a wound already heal...

Dreams or nightmare still fear

That is hardly to bear

Things and places that near

Voices that hardly to hear...

Many places first to see

Place that huge and wee

Able to go without fee

Where people meet like bee...

Different person able to know

Friendship may able to grow

Even love may be glow

That runs fast and free flow...

It is destined or fate

Because love exists to mate

Hardly to trust or to hate

That opens a new gate...

A love will be vast

Although unknown to be last

Not even know how fast

Because soon dreams will past.

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Jr.

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