Shattered

Bursting so loud,
            But no one could hear.

Exploding so badly,
              But no one could watch.

Struggles so hard,
              But no one could know.

Hurting so deeply,
          But no one could notice.

... ... ...
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Aching till shouting,
          But no one hears!

Losing till erase,
         But no one watches!

Breaking till dust,
             But no one knows!

Burning till ashes,
           But no one notices!

... ... ...
          ... ... ...

J.
  R.

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Learning!

... ... ...

I learn to love...

At the same time I learn to get hurt.

I learn to trust...

At the same time I learn to betray.

I learn to believe...

At the same time I learn to doubt.

I learn to dream...

At the same time I learn to awake.

... ... ...

Yet I learned to get hurt,

I also learn to heal.

Yet I learned to be betray,

I also learn to forgive.

Yet I learned to doubt,

I also learn to appreciate.

Yet I learned to be awake,

I also learn to move.

... ... ...

To heal,

Is to love once again!

To forgive,

Is to trust once again!

To appreciate,

Is to believe once again!

To move,

Is to dream on once again!

... ... ...

J. R.

... ... ...

Thy Soul

...

There is a hollow living in inside deep

Where emptiness starts to invade in whole

Emptiness to nothing that raptures a soul

Running thyself and thy mind into nothing

Until losing in a pitch dark of a deepest sorrow

Living thy soul without a mark to go back

Let thy soul suffer in vein and be worst as doom

That breaks thy soul into pieces like a dust

Causing thy soul live into eternal burden

Where thy soul lost and lives behind into darkness of emptiness.

... ...

J.R.

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Doom!

Losing thyself

In into too much burden,

Dipping thyself in depths of sorrow

Losing thyself in each pain

Letting thyself die into the depths of despair,

Darken thy soul in into darkest chaos

Slowly losing thy breath

Until it is too much lost of air to breathe!

Driven thyself into craziness

That aches into too much to handle,

Letting thyself suffer much harder

Processing thyself in a darkest hours

Falling much deeper into the depths of destruction!

Moving too fast to fall

Trying to break out but could not stop!

Until feeling numb

Until thyself lost in right tracks,

Driven into nothing of nothingness

Losing thy soul till forever!

...

Jr.

...

The Unseen

First...

A huge spinning wheel from above comes crushing down the field that ruins the entire surroundings of the whole place.

Second...

A huge wave of dusty ashes would cover the entire surface that erases the face.

Third...

A huge weight of heavy fluids would flow on the ground that drowns the things alive.

Last...

A huge vessels would flow that would color in crimson all over the ground that sprinkles the whole land.

...

Jr.

...

So Hard

For time to time

Each passing days

Passing moments,

For each memories

Things getting far

Getting tougher,

Harder to harder

Then things get impossible!

Nothing to dig

Nothing to hold

Nothing to spend...

. . .

Jr.

. . .

T O R M E N T

( ... )

T - ears that drown by sadness

( ... )

O - blivion in total darkness

( ... )

R - obust feelings of agony

( ... )

M - orose by burden

( ... )

E - ntangle by madness

( ... )

N - umb by the whip of grief

( ... )

T - orture in deep silence.

( ... )

JR

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Injustice

I N J U S T I C E

... ... ...

Gold

Rich and well known,

Bold

Fearless that owns a crown,

Fold

Hide truth in knockdown.

... ... ...

Dark

Nothing but a dim site,

Lark

Beautiful voice but never unite,

Mark

Not being able to go and ignite.

... ... ...

Mirrors

Reflections of dishonesty,

Scissors

Slayers of the true reality,

Doors

That closes a dark side of vicinity.

... ... ...

White

Nothing but the surface to see,

Appetite

Intake what is good that glee,

Rite

Act only for things that flee.

... ... ...

Dust

The hidden truth of mankind,

Rust

Rotten world that covers in blind,

Trust

A broken piece shattered to bind.

... ... ...

Jr.

... ... ...

An Action of Thanking.

...

Thanking is not enough to express how much it feels.

It is just a word to say.

A word to express a little of gratitude...

A word to express a little of happiness...

So it is really not enough to express how deep it feels.

How thankful for each moments.

How so thankful for each memories!

How much thankful for each time it have!

So, to make it deeper as a word of "thank you"!

Showing with gratitude and to work it out,

With not just thoughts but with also actions!

That full of care, love and wholeheartedly thanking deep within itself!

Thank you with a heartfelt smile!

With an action that never intends to just forcibly done but because it is your heart told you so.

...

Jr.

...

A Glimpse of Unseen!

At the dusk, momentarily you'll be stepping out of a shadow.

A shadow that full of riddles that hidden beyond.

Riddles that hard to study, to function or to solve!

Where a glimpse of time to comes drifting smoothly and detailed.

Uncovering a scene that could only be seen when it hits the moment.

A moment that could not be unseen beforehand!

But still closing even though it is far beyond knowledge.

A knowledge that became a gift!

A gift that became a future that has not been done!

A future where time comes in to flow and be done!

Nothing could be change even time comes up ahead.

And in the end it would only be, a riddle of an unseen moment of time!

...

jr.

...

A Love Quest

... ... ...

"Smiles so often... Laughs so often... But never expected to soften and reach the deepest side of yours that gives light through your smiles and laughter."

      - Unexpected Joy

"Simply starts in unexpected moments. Will walk slowly in a path never intended, simply starts in a sweet and delicate time till things go smoothly longer."

      - Journey of Love

"Wandering into deep and far land, further enough not to see a light then you came and pull me up. Enlighten the world that was gone too far beyond nothing that now lightens up so brightly and nicely."

      - My Knight

"Sweet talks... Sweet moments... Memorable things that you have shared and unexpected to experience, that simply brought my world full of surprises!"

      - You and Me

"Slow motion to fast motion... beats rapidly to steady beats...! Meeting... Knowing... Closer... Beating in one... Mysteriously learns how to trust, to smile, to laugh, to be lonely, to feel pain, to suffer and to a never ending cycle of relationship but ends to be together forever and ever!"

      - A Cycle of Love

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      - Jr.

A Safe Region

In second sight will be blind

Wandering around a circle,

In shallow moment thy self will glide

Landing at the ground of cycle,

In flinch of time nirvana will find

Fold with lots of miraculous oracle.

Thy self will emerge at the ground

Stepping in into softly verdant land,

Thy self will slowly stride in round

Witnessing the wonder in hand,

Thy self will search far beyond

Face a realm of beauty of a dreamland.

A region where purity live

Cleans thy soul of sin,

A region where kindness dive

Clearing thy soul to adjoin,

A region where unites in jive

Clash thy pure souls in sole vein.

...

Jr.

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Pandora's World

^_^

There are too many words to say

But it is too hard to relay,

Like a song without a rhyme.

* * *

There are lots of things happening

Unexpected but keeps bringing,

Like a typhoon that comes and go.

- - -

As life continues to journey

Obstacles getting tougher and harshly,

Like a wave that is getting stronger.

" _ "

As time comes flowing fast in silence

Chances going too fast in long distance,

Like a wind that passes without trace.

< - >

In this world that full of adventure

Time is not enough to venture more,

Like a glass hour running out of sand.

> . <

In this world of living that so known

Still lots of things left unknown,

Like a Pandora's Box that puzzles it all.

(...)

Jr.

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Contagious

... ... - - - ... ...

No wonder I was stock into same place

Same things that was already pass through,

Stays at one thought that hard to replace

That makes things be tough and rough.

It is like an illness that is never ending

Slowly but surely crawling deeply,

Like a plague that moves too fast spreading

That ruins the soul too rapidly.

Living nothing but aching pain

Causing oneself slowly dying,

Although it never felt in vein

It is still causing rapid panting.

An aching breathless memories lingers

A never ending loss of hope,

A contagious cycle of pain that flingers

That fades away light to grope.

... ... - - - ... ... ...

Jr.

The Most Important Thing

"Shut your eyes... to stop seeing things around."

         "Shut your ears... to stop hearing things around."

                  "Shut your senses... to stop feeling things around."

"Then let your heart open to see, to hear and to sense that things that you ignoring for so long without a heart on it."

<3 <3 <3 

Jr.

<3 <3

Blank Empty Doom

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Blank but heavy...

Empty but full...

Nothing but still heavy...

Doom but still full...

Blank mind but thousand to think...

Empty thoughts but millions of words...

Nothing to create but billions to think...

Doom of sentence but trillions of words...

A blank empty mind,

Nothing but doom covering it all!

A heavy but full mind,

Still darken of nothing at all!

Cannot create of anything,

Nothing but a blank empty doom!

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Jr.

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Easy... Not Easy...

(...?)

It is easy to start something,
A beginning that would eventually goes on.

...

Something that enjoys in the first part,
To second to third to fourth part and so on.

...

Continues to evolve and build up,
Each part opens up new things that live on.

...

Until that beginning comes to end,
A part that easy to see but cannot fit on.

...

It is not easy to end things up,
An ending that could not ends on.

(...!)

...

Jr.

...

Noted.

As we first met,

... We really never know each other.

As we first talk,

... We really never intended to chat.

As we first smile,

... We really never meant it too.

As we became closer,

... We really not know it is the beginning.

As we go onward,

... We finally let our feelings goes on.

As our feelings grow,

... We finally learn to trust each other.

As we go forward,

... Our hearts grow fonder.

And as we make memories together,

... We noted each and every moment we were together as always.

...

... Jr.

Blank To Black

- ... ... ... -

What else do I need to think...?

If my mind already blanking...

Nothing to think or to blink!

What else do I need to feel...?

If my body already numbing...

So numb that hard to kneel!

Physically there is nothing wrong,

An outside of a healthy body...

Although wrecking from within so long!

Already lacking to fill within,

Already lasting to emptiness...

Nothing but emptiness from within!

An empty inside no one knows,

Darkness within no one sees...

A self that blank to black that no one knows!

- ... ... ... - 

Jr.

- ... ... ... -

The Destruction

The Destruction

Once the sky becomes dark

Once the sun becomes red

Once the moon becomes huge,,,

Then the weather will be doom

Then the world will be ruin

Then the earth will be destroy!!!

And everything around going to ruin

And everything surround going to ashes

And everything revolves going to nothing....

... Jr. ...