Realize!

...
    When it wakes up in the morning,
       There are things it finally realize,
            Things that it never thought would not be too much important,
                  But it finally thought that it is so wrong,
                     So when it wakes up in a new morning,
                       It finally realize the things that it ignores,
                         Things that it never gives importance,
                              That it did not know it makes it empty and numb,
                                   Making it lost tracks and finding something it missing,
                                        The reason why it won't reach the goal its achieving for so long,
                                            A goal that it wants for its life,
                                             Now it finally realize what was wrong,
                                                Although it knows it is too late still,
                                                        It wants to move forward and finally give importance,
                                                          To things it ignores and live it behind.
                                                            ...

Frozen

Time and space

Separates things around,

Stars and distance

Million miles apart.

Where worlds revolve

Circling in thin line,

Where mystery evolve

Folding something in beyond.

World of unknown

Where things stand still,

Where crystal own

That freezes the world.

Frozen in time

But still breathing world,

World of mine

Where things keeping alive.

A world awaits

Standing still all along,

Where someone waits

Staying in frozen world.

. . .

JR

. . .

Sana...

...

Sana, hindi na lang nagkita

Sana, hindi na lang nagkakilala

Sana, hindi na lang nagkaharap pa.

...

Sana, hindi na lang nagkasama

Sana, hindi na lamang nakakaalala

Sana, hindi na lamang nagkalapit pa.

...

Sana, hindi na lang nagtanong

Sana, hindi na lamang nag-aabang

Sana, hindi na napapaisip lang.

...

Sana, hindi na lang naghintay

Sana, hindi na lamang nagbantay

Sana, hindi na ipinagpatuloy.

...

Hindi sana naghihirapan ng ganito

Hindi sana nasasaktan ng ganito

Hindi sana nagdurusa ng ganito.

...

Jr.

...

No Escaping

Sometimes you wanted to join in their world, be with them, try to reach out and have some fun still it won't let you forget the world where you in.

A world you could not escape nor forget or neither be erase...

That hardly to ignore nor to look back and see.

Even to push yourself hardly into their world it is still not enough.

There would be no chance to push deep and be near to it...

Because you would still be pull back from where you are.

The world that you live for so far along.

A world where you start...

So the harder you push yourself into the other world, the stronger you'll be pull back to your place.

Even if you use all your strength it won't be enough that would lock you up back to your rightful place.

...

Jr. Rs.

...

I Would Still Love You

...
I want to be with you. . .

...
I want to be close to you. . .

...
I want to hold you so tight. . .

...
I want to hug you so tight. . .

...
I am so desperate to be with you. . .

...
I am so eager to stay with you. . .

...
Even if you are not real. . .

...
Even if you are not near. . .

...
Even though are worlds were different. . .

...
Even though our worlds were apart. . .

...
Even you were just living in my dreams. . .

...
I would still want you. . .

...
I would still like you. . .

...
I would still love you. . .

...
Jr.

Blind Side

Able to see with their eyes open

Clear as the pure water flows

An ability to sight things

Seeing things in any sides...

Wonderful creation but done in wrong doings

Able to see but only looks on what was nice

Clear as a crystal but dark as a coal

Blinded by what was it surrounds...

Able to see the good side

But never see the bad side

That makes an eye blinded from the truth

Truth that burden it surroundings...

Deeply wounded by not giving any attention

Ignoring as if nothing seems to worry

But no one knows something is rotten

Worst than what they know...

Hidden beyond the eyes from the top

There was a some places suffers enough

Living helpless beyond no ones attention

Struggling to live as much as they could...

Still from the top even they seeing things

They would keep their eyes shut

That makes them blind

Enough to be called slayers of the truth!

...

Jr.

...

What It Wants?

... ... ... ?

It wants to be hug, just like what it does to that person.

It wants to express its own feelings just what it does to this person.

It wants to hold its hands just like what it does to this person.

It wants to walk to its side just like it always does to this person.

And it wants to make its world be more colorful as what it saw with this person.

Then it would make its gray and gloomy world disappear in instant and soon a clear and wonderful world be seen once more.

Although, it knows that it would never comes true since they already been part their ways a long time ago...

A wonderful dream that ends into nightmare that sealed its heart into the depths of sorrow and pain.

What it wants? Would never ever be its own again!

... ... ...!

Jr.

God's Pure Heart

Whenever thee feel empty and alone,

hurt and sad,

Always remember the one,

our God,

He would never live thee,

makes thee cry,

Because He really cares thee,

do always stay,

Be always at thy side,

in hearts,

Would always be thy guide,

always be a part,

With His pure soul and heart,

He would clean thy soul,

Protects thy heart.

...

Jr.

Death Storm

///

Watching it all over again

Dashing back and fort

Trying to hide and cover

Still it's raging too fast

Almost crushing down to last

Flowing nonstop over and over

Losing the entire port

Wrecking everything yet nothing to gain.

///

A huge and wide dark hole

Tunneling into the deepest darkness

May lost once falls deeply

That difficult to climb back

Even an aggressive still not lack

No one can return so plainly

That feels fallen into madness

Until it would live forever in sole.

///

JR.

Voice

"Words. . .

            Speech. . .

                        Language. . .

                                        Three things to express by lips of what you've been wanting to                                                            voice out."

. . .

 Jr. . .

Just Move

Catching up won't be easy

Even to try it harder

It won't still not enough

Until it goes so far.

Going high at the top

Would not be easy

Even if it is good enough

It still be very difficult.

Breaking a rule for goal

Is easy to think than to plan

That makes it hard to change

Until forces to move forward.

...

Jr.

Living Pain

Reminiscing every details being with you,
     is a toughest thing to do.

Bringing back those times being with you,
     brings back the pain that you've cause.

Memories of our joyful days,
     brings back the sadness through my heart.

Wishing you to be here for real,
     gives my heart and soul more burden.

The urge of coming in to you,
     is the biggest impossible thing to happen.

Being with you only in my dreams,
     is the only matters most.

Living in this pain you've cause,
      is the only reason I keep moving without you in my life.

...

Couldn't do anything...

Couldn't think of anything...

Not even opening thy heart to anyone else...

Make thee lost into depths of burden and pain...

...

Jr.

...

New

...

Something so new in eyes
Hard to describe by just looking,
Places never see in eyes
That has lots of bribe luring.

...

Wants to commit for more
Even the new system to see,
Wanting to discover more
Be in each places first to flee.

...

Even though it would take long
Still wanting to look and meet,
Greedy to expose for so long
Though thousands of things may greet.

...

Looking back at those times
Never occur stepping to unknown place,
Still many things changes in times
Going to a new world that need to face.

...

Jr.

...

Forward

Spacing out all the while

Living in the world that seen

Though it comes from afar

That gives life full of mystery,

Running like no tiredness or weakness

Through and through flowing to fast

Trying to stop but still coming

Till left of only acceptance,

And living on it to a forward pace.

. <'_'>

J R

Sounds

Dub... Dub... Dub... Dub...

Is the sound of a heart

Beating that proves them alive. . .

Blah... Blah... Blah... Blah...

Is the sound of a voice

Talking endlessly just for anything. . .

Beep... Beep... Beep... Beep...

Is the sound of a phone

Ringing loud like a clock. . .

Tok... Tok... Tok... Tok...

Is the sound of a shoes

Walking back and forth endlessly. . .

Those entire sounds that can hear

Is an endless cycle sound of the world

A never ending part of a life. . .

. . .

J R

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A Fool!

. . . . .

- Who wants to be invade with someone you does not even know or met before?

- Who wants to be linger by a memories that does not intend to happen in first place?

- Who wants to dig deep and look so hard just to find a way to be with this person?

- Who wants to be hunt by this person who only showed up in a dream?

- Then why you still trying so hard to look for this person who hurts you so deeply?!

- Still continues hoping to be with this person so madly!

- Even though you yourself looks like a fool!

- How pathetic you are?!

- Still believing that one day it might come!

- Not only in dreams but in reality!

- Being so damn hoping that soon it would show itself for you!

- No wonder you keep yourself being a fool!

- Deeply wounding your heart and soul for someone who does not deserve to look for!

- Who does not deserve to with you!

- Still... you keep fooling yourself falling so deeply into it!

. . . . .

- Jr.

Reaching in Between

I want to exchange my place to your place

Wanting to be part of your world as the same thing you want

Still we could not just switch places that causes us to forcefully live in between

Trying to reach each other sides from a chances that we sees

Though we both know how difficult it is to reach each other side

We still doing it even though we faces a huge consequence

That may able us to endanger ourselves in the process of reaching in between.

...

jr

No Name, No Face

('_')

Coming and be a part of my life

Keeping yourself at my side,

Always there whenever you like

Guarding me but you still in hide.

There are lots of questions to ask

That I seeking almost makes a task,

But always end up to empty back

Nothing to find until I would stop to walk.

You just comes out of nowhere

You who troubles me before,

Still troubles me now whenever

Still no name and no face forever.

('_')

j.r.

I Surrender

(...)

Everything that I have
Is what I don't want...
Everything that I can
Is still not enough...
Everything that I own
Is still I don't like...
Everything that I think
Is still not tough...

(,,,)

(...)

That I surrender
And wants to scream...
That I hate
And wants to crush...
That I anger
And wants to lose...
That I stop
And wants to shout...

(,,,)

(JR)

Still Lingers

Trying to dissolve

        Something I don't like

Making those things

         Be erase and forgotten

But it still lingers

     No matter what I do...

...

Jr.

...

Love Hate Matter

To LOVE is to HATE. . .

To HATE is to HURT. . .

To hurt is to FEEL. . .

To FEEL is to FORGIVE. . .

To FORGIVE is to CHANGE. . .

To CHANGE is to TRY. . .

To TRY is to LOVE. . .

. . .

jr.

A Heartfelt Wish

There are times, countless times,

I had the same wish, all over again.

A wish that I knew from the very beginning...

It won't ever happen.

But I still keep wishing and wishing...

Over and over and over again.

Though some times, I feel sick and tired of wishing,

Still I ignore it and continues wishing.

Even my mind didn't occur to stop,

The reason why I end up doing the same thing.

Wishing...

And nothing else but wishing.

Even though it is the only reason why I'm hurting,

A pain that comes over and over again the wounded my heart.

And at those times, my eagerness grows even more,

 Wishing him for more and more to come.

Oh, how I wish he would come,

And be at my side in times I needed him most.

Maybe... It might end my wishing so hard,

To end my eagerness by wishing him back.

Then I might end up my sufferings,

And all my burdens would be gone.

That will free my heart from my miseries,

From looking all over for him.

So please just stay at my side,

Until forever and ever.

So please come back and let my heart stop wishing,

That would bring peace to my heart and soul.

So please just stay and back at me,

And let me finish my wishing.

And that is my heartfelt wish for you...

Be with my until forever till eternity.

...

jr

The Shadow of You

Close to the edge
Mystery folding enough
A shadow showing
Dangerously coming at thy edge
Conquers all that so rough
May escaping just growing
Until it becomes you
And this is the shadow of you.




. . . , , , . . .

jr

An EveryDay Life

Passing through and through

Walking side by side

Hands holding so tight

Searching and looking everywhere

Going where they should be.

Passers passing by through

Some simply wanders around

Some asking for directions

Some simply walking with their gadgets

But still they will come and go.

Encounters different kind of people

Some are nice and kind

Some are bad and snubs

Some difficult to talk too

Some are easy and sincere to talk

Still lots of them are unpredictable.

Easy to look as you watch

But tough to search to talk

And some are hard to reach...

But people always think positive

Keeps holding on all through

And work it hard positively...

Learning is a must

Knowing is a life

Struggles is a challenge...

Keeping a self so tight

Letting a self be tough

Until it reaches its goal...

Fight!

...

Far from beyond

From what eyes sees

Huge moment to bend

Able to encounter where it lies.

Difficulties may able to face

Challenges would come and fall

And lots of works may glace

That hard to pass it all.

Then the only thing that left

Is the courage to fight

So don't be fall and be left

And sees the brighter light.

...

jr.

...

Drown...

Pressure getting tougher

Heaviness getting together,

Weight getting higher

Surrounding getting rougher.

Breathing starting to lose

Body starting to dose,

Movements starting to pose

 Passage starting to close.

Mind shallow to empty

Eyes blur to dusty,

Voice sound to rusty

Life losing to infinity.

A self drowning deeply

A body floating freely,

A soul darkens madly

A person losing badly.

Patuloy

___

Kulang sa maliit na salita

Kontento tulad ng iniisip,

Ngunit hindi kailanman sa salita

Hindi masabi ang tunay na iniisip.

May kung anong nais makamit

Nais pang mahanap at makita,

Makakamtan kaya ang nais makamit

Mahanap pa kaya ang nais makita?

Sa tagal na ng panahong hiniling

Mahaba man ang paglalakbay,

Sa huli at huli iyon din ang hiniling

Magtagal man patuloy pa rin sa paglalakbay!

___

___jr___

Three S...

Uncontrollable things happens

In just a blink of eye,

Unexpected things happens

In just a nick of time,

That results of sadness

In just as fast as rhyme. . .

Feelings rushing fast

That hard to see,

Struggles coming first

That hard to flee,

That suffers to last

That hard to break free. . .

Mind falling apart

To set a down fall,

Senses breaking apart

To set a chaotic crawl,

That sacrifices a soul part

To set a burden wall. . .

Sudden rush of sadness

Hurting oneself deeply,

Suffers hardly in madness

Wounding oneself thoroughly,

That sacrifices its happiness

Ruining its self endlessly. . .

To sadness

An endless pain,

To suffers

An endless game,

To sacrifices

An endless plain. . .

j.r.

I Want...

. . .

I want to set free

Wanting to go with glee

Till I my self be free...

. . .

. . .

I want to soar high

Living the ground without sigh

Till I my self stays high...

. . .

. . .

I want to be light

Floating up on top sight

Till I my self goes light...

. . .

. . .

I want to gone wild

Wrecking all things without mind

Till I my self out wild...

. . .

. . .

I want to end all

Living nothing till I fall

Till I my self finish all...

. . .

. . j. r. . .

The Truth

Playing literally may be enjoyable
That kids loves so much to enjoy,
Laughing and freely playing all out. . .



As a kid things were so much memorable
That makes a heart jump in joy,
And lots of things are easy and fun. . .



Though it has an end
Soon kids would grow up,
And things would not be the same. . .



Difficulties may able to tend
As challenges comes flowing up,
And things would be hard to play. . .



Jr. . .

Too Fast

Approaching too fast that hard to control

Coming from the direction that hardly to see

Too fast approaching that difficult to accept

Forming too fast that hardly to believe.

. . .

jr.

Life Is...

Life is a maze

that puzzles life...

Life is to breathe

that keep us alive...

Life is to live

that continues to fight...

Life is a journey

that seeks adventure...

Life is to enjoy

that we gladly rejoice...

Life is to fulfill

that we do harder...

Life is a path

that we chooses...

Life is to cherish
that worth fighting for...

Life is to thank

that few people appreciates...

jr...

From: Me To: God

:)

You. . . Who always lift up my life.

You. . . Who always there to protect and guide me.

Who's the one who always moves my self out of something stupid.

Who guards me all through out my journey.

You. . . Who always stay at my side. . .

Whenever. . . Wherever. . .

Thank you!

A simple word to say though. . .

A simple word that comes from my heart.

And a simple word that is too strong.

Thank you! A lot!

:)

jr.

Keep Dreaming (Failure and Challenges)

... Sometimes failure is hard to accept.

... Sometimes it hurts so deeply that wound.

... But if you think of it clearly and hardly.

... You have been given a huge challenges.

... A challenge that He knows that you may pass.

... A challenge that makes you more tougher.

... And you would see the hope that after the failure you face.

... You may face a good and nice future of fortune afterwards.

... And soon your entire dreams will do come true.

... Failure is a prove.

... Just Keep Dreaming high.

... And do all your best!

... Jr.

Mind Floats

Mind floating in a thin air

That feels so heavy than lighter,

Senses starts to go high up

Until nonstop flowing ideas goes top.

Going and going till it won't stop

Searching ideas until it's flop,

Reaching without a choice to go

Believing till it last to do.

...

jr

Him

Why his always there all through out?
Even if his already been with someone else,

And I already been with someone else

Still his always there for me all through out!

I feel as if I'm too fragile to handle

That he just always wants to be near,

Be careful with me like a crystal to handle

Always and forever be with him so near.

I don't know for how long he shows

For how long he stays in my dreams,

Be always to come near and to shows

Stays for as much long as he wants in dreams.

. . .

jr

. . .

Meeting My Soft Self (My Heart and Soul)

. . . . .

sometimes she still asking...
why me of all people?
a million or maybe a billion!
there are lots of them!
still she and only her?!
why me when someone can be?
she asked.
those who are good much!
who has few of sins!
because she feels that she is full of sins!
still HE captures her and chooses her!
even she's in the depths of darkness!
still HE reaches her hand to hold...
HE just holds it so tightly!
as if HE won't allow her...
to fall deeply and deeply!
that makes her wander why?!
so she keeps asking and asking...
and for her surprise!
HE continues to answer her.
HE keeps answering all her questions.
yes! she hardly understand it now!
then all things comes out so easily!
she, herself, her.
finally wonder and known...
that she had a soft spot...
a soul that full of love...
a love that fills her heart...
that she couldn't see...
that she couldn't feel...
but HE...!
HE can see it so clearly.
and HE allows her to feel it and reach it.
allows her to open her own heart in a brighter side.
an eye that could see so clearly.
a heart that could feel so nicely.
her soft part as human being.
that HE knows from the beginning she lives.


. . . . .

jr

Travels Alone

Adventure in too many different places,

Travels in long time and spaces.

Too many different people may able to greet,

Even some different creatures may able to meet.

Turns in different kinds of roads,

Spinning all over the places with full loads.

Different days that may turn to see,

Opposite sides that travels to flee.

And yet feeling so alone and sad,

An empty soul so none and mad.

Times clicking too slow and loud,

Hours running too heavy like a dark cloud.

That make tears slowly to flow out,

A fluid that falls so hard to stop like a nut.

Until sorrow makes it numb through the heart,

And sudden rush of ache that sets self apart.

....

B R O K E N

- linded into too much love.

- etray a heart that rips love.

- upture one self that hard to complete.

- ift into pieces that can't complete.

- verthrow in to deepest sorrow.

- utgrow hatred that creates sorrow.

- nocks out into too much pain.

- nowing nothing but pain.

- xhaust in to too much fighting.

- scaping in kindness for fighting.

- eglect the entire feelings into hatred.

- umb to feel nothing causes by hatred.

B R O K E N

- a simplest word to explain.

B R O K E N

- in a situation that is hard to explain.

Fiction or Reality

?

Fiction can make dreams do come true

Can undo or redo things that right or wrong

But fictions never sees the truth

?

In reality, dreams are just a dreams

Can not undo or redo things that right or wrong

That the reality sees the truth

That give us relief...

Yet, give us suffer...

?

jr.

?

A World of Mine

On my own world,

I see lots of places

Can travel all out.

,,,

On my own world,

I see many new faces

Can meet all out.

,,,

On my own world,

I can feel so free

Can travel any time.

,,,

On my own world,

I can make so glee

Can enjoy all time.

,,,

On my own world,

I won't think too much

Can rest all night.

,,,

On my own world,

I won't bother any much

Can play all night.

,,,

,,,

j.r.

,,,

Crazy on Him

Thinking of him made my heart and mind get into trouble.

...

Though I decided to do it on my own, I know I'm just hurting and torturing my own self.

...

What am I suppose to do, to break the spell that I created...?

...

The only me, my self...?

...

I am in love to a man who doesn't even knew what I truly feels for him.

...

Now, I asks my self...

...

Do I have the guts to totally forget him?

...

Or even to erase him into my system?

...

Or maybe, he was already gone and erase into my life and into my system?!

...

I am just so blind and deceive to accept the whole truth!

...

Yes! I am!

...

I am so much blind and deceive to believe and to expect that he would know...!

...

That made my mind, heart and soul goes crazy madly in love with him!

...

So much to extend that I badly wanted to see him behind that hood!

...

Or maybe, I am so lost!

...

Lost to extend that I'm losing in my real world.

...

To extend that I hated my self from holding back from the memories of him!

...

I still didn't learn...

...

I still didn't wake up!

...

I still crazy on him!

Jr Rs

Kulang Pa Rin

... ,,, ...
Mahirap ang ganito,
... Lagi nalang nakakulong...
... ,,, ...
Kahit na nga sa literal na kahulugan,
... Malaya at nagagawa ang lahat...
... ,,, ...
Ngunit sadyang kulang pa rin,
... Kahit anong gawin o isipin...
... ,,, ...
Kahit ang sabihin o ipahayag,
... Nananatili pa ring may kulang...
... ,,, ...
Hindi pa rin sapat ang lahat,
... Hanggang sa mawala na lang...
... ,,, ...
Unti-unti mang tingnan,
... Mabilis namang tunay...
... ,,, ...
Hanggang sa mamalayan na lang,
... Wala na palang mararating...
... ,,, ...
Ni masisimulan ay hindi pa nagawa,
... Hanggang ang hangganan ay malayang nakikita...
... ,,, ...
Nasasaksihan ng mga mata,
... At tuluyan nang maglalahong parang bula...
... ,,, ...
Maglalahong parang kailanman hindi nagkaroon,
... At kailanman walang alaalang nabuo at natira...
... ,,, ...
J R
...

Falling Deeply

,,,

Falling deeply apart

Taking wrong roads

Running through nothing,

Escaping like dart

Throwing all loads

Living for nothing.

...

,,,

Trying to cope

Finding to fit

Stealing more peace,

Feeling no hope

Hurting from hit

Loosing for peace.

...

,,,

Driving to insane

Thinking no more

Keeping to look,

Searching for lane

Hoping till bore

Aching to look.

...

,,,

Giving up easily

Tiring to fight

Making nothing else,

Kneeling like silly

Falling that fright

Doing nothing else.

...

,,,

jr.

...

Vanishing Bloody

Vanishing all things around

Loosing all right minds

Trying to cope up,

Still hardly to bound

Still nothing to binds

Hoping to lose up!

... ... ...

Could not see light

Hating that hurts madly

Gasping air to breathe,

Still not enough right

Feeling so hurt sadly

That difficult to breathe!

... ... ...

Hate and hate all

Hurt till hurt through

Aching deeply and bloody,

Losing hope that fall

Hate hurt till rough

Going going till bloody!

... ... ...

j,r.

... ... ...