From: Me To: God

:)

You. . . Who always lift up my life.

You. . . Who always there to protect and guide me.

Who's the one who always moves my self out of something stupid.

Who guards me all through out my journey.

You. . . Who always stay at my side. . .

Whenever. . . Wherever. . .

Thank you!

A simple word to say though. . .

A simple word that comes from my heart.

And a simple word that is too strong.

Thank you! A lot!

:)

jr.

Keep Dreaming (Failure and Challenges)

... Sometimes failure is hard to accept.

... Sometimes it hurts so deeply that wound.

... But if you think of it clearly and hardly.

... You have been given a huge challenges.

... A challenge that He knows that you may pass.

... A challenge that makes you more tougher.

... And you would see the hope that after the failure you face.

... You may face a good and nice future of fortune afterwards.

... And soon your entire dreams will do come true.

... Failure is a prove.

... Just Keep Dreaming high.

... And do all your best!

... Jr.

Mind Floats

Mind floating in a thin air

That feels so heavy than lighter,

Senses starts to go high up

Until nonstop flowing ideas goes top.

Going and going till it won't stop

Searching ideas until it's flop,

Reaching without a choice to go

Believing till it last to do.

...

jr

Him

Why his always there all through out?
Even if his already been with someone else,

And I already been with someone else

Still his always there for me all through out!

I feel as if I'm too fragile to handle

That he just always wants to be near,

Be careful with me like a crystal to handle

Always and forever be with him so near.

I don't know for how long he shows

For how long he stays in my dreams,

Be always to come near and to shows

Stays for as much long as he wants in dreams.

. . .

jr

. . .

Meeting My Soft Self (My Heart and Soul)

. . . . .

sometimes she still asking...
why me of all people?
a million or maybe a billion!
there are lots of them!
still she and only her?!
why me when someone can be?
she asked.
those who are good much!
who has few of sins!
because she feels that she is full of sins!
still HE captures her and chooses her!
even she's in the depths of darkness!
still HE reaches her hand to hold...
HE just holds it so tightly!
as if HE won't allow her...
to fall deeply and deeply!
that makes her wander why?!
so she keeps asking and asking...
and for her surprise!
HE continues to answer her.
HE keeps answering all her questions.
yes! she hardly understand it now!
then all things comes out so easily!
she, herself, her.
finally wonder and known...
that she had a soft spot...
a soul that full of love...
a love that fills her heart...
that she couldn't see...
that she couldn't feel...
but HE...!
HE can see it so clearly.
and HE allows her to feel it and reach it.
allows her to open her own heart in a brighter side.
an eye that could see so clearly.
a heart that could feel so nicely.
her soft part as human being.
that HE knows from the beginning she lives.


. . . . .

jr

Travels Alone

Adventure in too many different places,

Travels in long time and spaces.

Too many different people may able to greet,

Even some different creatures may able to meet.

Turns in different kinds of roads,

Spinning all over the places with full loads.

Different days that may turn to see,

Opposite sides that travels to flee.

And yet feeling so alone and sad,

An empty soul so none and mad.

Times clicking too slow and loud,

Hours running too heavy like a dark cloud.

That make tears slowly to flow out,

A fluid that falls so hard to stop like a nut.

Until sorrow makes it numb through the heart,

And sudden rush of ache that sets self apart.

....

B R O K E N

- linded into too much love.

- etray a heart that rips love.

- upture one self that hard to complete.

- ift into pieces that can't complete.

- verthrow in to deepest sorrow.

- utgrow hatred that creates sorrow.

- nocks out into too much pain.

- nowing nothing but pain.

- xhaust in to too much fighting.

- scaping in kindness for fighting.

- eglect the entire feelings into hatred.

- umb to feel nothing causes by hatred.

B R O K E N

- a simplest word to explain.

B R O K E N

- in a situation that is hard to explain.

Fiction or Reality

?

Fiction can make dreams do come true

Can undo or redo things that right or wrong

But fictions never sees the truth

?

In reality, dreams are just a dreams

Can not undo or redo things that right or wrong

That the reality sees the truth

That give us relief...

Yet, give us suffer...

?

jr.

?

A World of Mine

On my own world,

I see lots of places

Can travel all out.

,,,

On my own world,

I see many new faces

Can meet all out.

,,,

On my own world,

I can feel so free

Can travel any time.

,,,

On my own world,

I can make so glee

Can enjoy all time.

,,,

On my own world,

I won't think too much

Can rest all night.

,,,

On my own world,

I won't bother any much

Can play all night.

,,,

,,,

j.r.

,,,

Crazy on Him

Thinking of him made my heart and mind get into trouble.

...

Though I decided to do it on my own, I know I'm just hurting and torturing my own self.

...

What am I suppose to do, to break the spell that I created...?

...

The only me, my self...?

...

I am in love to a man who doesn't even knew what I truly feels for him.

...

Now, I asks my self...

...

Do I have the guts to totally forget him?

...

Or even to erase him into my system?

...

Or maybe, he was already gone and erase into my life and into my system?!

...

I am just so blind and deceive to accept the whole truth!

...

Yes! I am!

...

I am so much blind and deceive to believe and to expect that he would know...!

...

That made my mind, heart and soul goes crazy madly in love with him!

...

So much to extend that I badly wanted to see him behind that hood!

...

Or maybe, I am so lost!

...

Lost to extend that I'm losing in my real world.

...

To extend that I hated my self from holding back from the memories of him!

...

I still didn't learn...

...

I still didn't wake up!

...

I still crazy on him!

Jr Rs

Kulang Pa Rin

... ,,, ...
Mahirap ang ganito,
... Lagi nalang nakakulong...
... ,,, ...
Kahit na nga sa literal na kahulugan,
... Malaya at nagagawa ang lahat...
... ,,, ...
Ngunit sadyang kulang pa rin,
... Kahit anong gawin o isipin...
... ,,, ...
Kahit ang sabihin o ipahayag,
... Nananatili pa ring may kulang...
... ,,, ...
Hindi pa rin sapat ang lahat,
... Hanggang sa mawala na lang...
... ,,, ...
Unti-unti mang tingnan,
... Mabilis namang tunay...
... ,,, ...
Hanggang sa mamalayan na lang,
... Wala na palang mararating...
... ,,, ...
Ni masisimulan ay hindi pa nagawa,
... Hanggang ang hangganan ay malayang nakikita...
... ,,, ...
Nasasaksihan ng mga mata,
... At tuluyan nang maglalahong parang bula...
... ,,, ...
Maglalahong parang kailanman hindi nagkaroon,
... At kailanman walang alaalang nabuo at natira...
... ,,, ...
J R
...

Falling Deeply

,,,

Falling deeply apart

Taking wrong roads

Running through nothing,

Escaping like dart

Throwing all loads

Living for nothing.

...

,,,

Trying to cope

Finding to fit

Stealing more peace,

Feeling no hope

Hurting from hit

Loosing for peace.

...

,,,

Driving to insane

Thinking no more

Keeping to look,

Searching for lane

Hoping till bore

Aching to look.

...

,,,

Giving up easily

Tiring to fight

Making nothing else,

Kneeling like silly

Falling that fright

Doing nothing else.

...

,,,

jr.

...

Vanishing Bloody

Vanishing all things around

Loosing all right minds

Trying to cope up,

Still hardly to bound

Still nothing to binds

Hoping to lose up!

... ... ...

Could not see light

Hating that hurts madly

Gasping air to breathe,

Still not enough right

Feeling so hurt sadly

That difficult to breathe!

... ... ...

Hate and hate all

Hurt till hurt through

Aching deeply and bloody,

Losing hope that fall

Hate hurt till rough

Going going till bloody!

... ... ...

j,r.

... ... ...

A Chaos of Death

She is in into the midst of chaos

Struggle to find an exit to out

Even to think clear is hardly to do.

Even the air she breath is losing up

Difficult to find an air to breath in

That makes her feel suffocated all through.

Catching up some air to breathe till she can

And still keeping to fight to live long

But still she could not live any longer.

The chaos begins to worst than ever

Until no one can escape from their fate

A fate of death that everyone will face.

The same fate that she had that will end all

Even if she was fighting for her life

Still not enough to escape from death.

...

jr

Losing...

...

...

...

Losing my head,

Losing my mind.

...

...

Losing my self,

Losing my belief.

...

...

Losing my spirit,

Losing my light.

...

...

Losing my flame,

Losing my fame.

...

...

Losing my heart,

Losing my part.

...

...

Losing my hope,

Losing my cope.

...

...

jr

...

Oh, My! Oh, My!

Oh, my soul... my soul...

How could I ever give you peace?
How could I ever give you calmness?
How could I ever give you happiness?
How could I ever give you ease?

Oh, my heart... my heart...

Why you're always in pain?
Why you're always in sorrow?
Why you're always in flow?
Why you're always in drain?

Oh my... oh my...

What a person you are?
What a body you have been?
What a human you have seen?
What a soul you bare?

...Oh, my heart! Oh, my soul! ...
... Always hiding deep within depths! ...
... Oh, my heart! Oh, my soul! ...
... Always hiding deep within paths! ...

... j. r. ...

Having Doubt (Despite His just there as always.)

Why I kept dreaming of Him?

Why I'm still feeling Him?
While my whole self is in the dark.

He still there letting me know His there

He still always at my back knowing His there,

Just there to guide and protect me.

When the truth I'm not really worth for it!

When I know to my self I'm a bad person that proves it!

Because I let my self live in the darkness still His there.

His always there for me and for my soul

His always there ready to save and protects me and my soul,

Even if my soul is already deep within the dark.

I couldn't explain these feelings I feel

I wouldn't know what else to think and feel,

Am I really worth seeing Him? As I ask.

I'm afraid! Too much afraid

I'm lost! That I hardly to find my self that I"m afraid,

Even though He's there and know all my fears.

It may be ridiculous to be afraid

It may be kind of weird to feel afraid,

But it is what I feel even though His there each of my life.

Each time I thought of Him... He ease my pain

Each time He showed up Him self to me... I feel no pain,

Why His like that? I asked... because His kind and wise one? I asked.

So kind that I don't know if I worth it?!

So kind that warms my heart though I feel I'm not worth it...!

But deep within my heart and soul... He's been living there somewhere.

Yes! I'm doubting my self!

Yes! I'm still regretting Him to my self!

But deep within, I love that I could feel Him beside me always.

...

...

...

I thy God, creator of all...

Thanking for all the guidance and protection you've been given us....

Amen.

...

...

...

Jr. Rs.

Making Her...

...

...

Making her smile,

Makes me feel so happy.

...

Making her mad,

Makes her more beautiful into my eyes.

...

Making her feel secure,

Makes me feel so proud protecting her.

...

Making her jealous,

Makes me feel so sorry.

...

Making her surprises,

Makes me feel so glad and thankful she likes it.

...

Making her sad,

Makes my heart hurt that pains.

...

Making her alone,

Makes me feel so sad that parts.

...

Making her cry,

Makes my self and my heart break into pieces.

...

Making her smile and loves her from afar,

Is the best thing I could do...

...

His in Her Dreams

Who you really are?

Why I couldn't see you clearly?

Even if you're so near?

So easy to reach that so dearly?

Still I haven't see you longer to stare.

Though deep down my heart,

I knew who you really are,

I am only scared to fear,

If I finally learn who you are,

So I let you be in my dreams that part.

When I'm in my real world...

You were there at my dreams...

Trying those two be collide...

Be memories that last till it gleams...

Making each other be mold.

There would be lots of questions.

Lots of mind tricks to unfold.

That so stiff that needs a guide.

Be careful that needs to be hold.

And choose where to land in right options.

...JR...

B O R I N G

...

...

B lend of different emotions...

...

O ver and over thoughts in mind...

...

R esources bigger and bigger...

...

I nitiate things that so full...

...

N othing else to create...

...

G athering information that so empty...

...

...

B O R I N G in small word in one,

So much boring that feels from the inside.

...

jr.

Selfish

Doing what they really wanted

Does not care of the others,

Always making things as they wanted

Moving without thinking better to others.

Just thinking one and only one selves

Do not worry about someone else,

So dense to others but not to them selves

Making things as what they want and nothing else.

That is their lives as a selfish

Worry nothing but only them selves,

Not even knowing they were selfish

Because it is them stays thinking them selves.

((:::

.jr.

Dream To End

:(

... ... ...

Once again his in her dream

Seeing him was too impossible,

But still he came into her dream

So hard to be true nor be possible.

:(

... ... ...

He is just sitting like that

Looking at her without a blink,

Feeling as if his not gone like that

Nothing to expect that could link.

:(

... ... ...

Still he looks so far from her

Looks so dark even though his near,

His trying to look straight at her

But still she couldn't see him that fear.

:(

... ... ...

And just like before it would end

Dreams would not hold for so long,

Night would end so soon as dream end

And only memories would left to belong.

:(

... ... ...

Once more she will lose him

He is gone before and even now,

She couldn't do anything to hold him

And all her want is to be with him till grow.

... ... ...

jr

Guilty Pain

A heart with full of hopes

Covers all the pain it feels,

Trying to beat in normal stage

Even if coping in strange guilt.

A guilt trying to tied up of ropes

Covers of blood in wound that peels,

Trying to hide it and change

Even if smiling is hard to built.

:(

jr.

Love, Romance, Feelings!

<3

Hay! What a love?!

Hardly to describe

Even hardly to figure,

It just came unexpectedly

Without any warnings,

Too much dangerously

And very soundings.

<3

Hay! What a romance?!

Even if you don't like

Still feels like to dike,

Wanting to experience

Even if will hurt first,

Still keeping in sense

That feels so thirst.

:)

Hay! What a feelings?!

Too much shocking

Too much shaking,

Wanting it to stop

Still coming too fast,

Swinging fast in slop

That won't last.

<3

j.r.

In Depths

...

How deep are you?

Would anybody goes within it?
Can anyone explain the depth they seen in you?

Why so sudden depth filled you?

Who may able to go down on it?

What happened in the end of it?
When exactly to start to go through?

Where was the depth pointing out?

May you able to take courage going deep?

Or you're thinking  you may lost in darkness?

...

.j. .r.

Save Me

A heart full of miseries

Never been lack by crying

A silently crying that carries

Never fail to hurting.

Aching so deeply low

Crushing a heart badly

Aching sadly that blow

Crushing into pieces slowly.

Till tears turns blood

Flowing like madness

Till feeling got bold

Flowing without gladness.

:(

j. r.

Hiding From A Mask

A face that easy to see...

A face that easy to stare...

A face that easy to judge...

A face that easy to face...

You may see beautiful and pretty faces

You may see happy and glad faces,

You may see serious and joker faces

You may see handsome and cute faces.

Still they were all hiding from a mask

Still they were all fake behind the mask,

Still they were all hurting through the mask

Still they were all facing with a mask.

... j. r. ...

Sadness

:(

:(

Sadly to say

Things get bad,

Getting even worst

Begins to rough,

Changes into gray

That feels mad,

Until things frost

And lost tough.

:(

Even to hear

Still keeping deaf,

Even to see

Still keeping blind,

That makes tear

Till lost leaf,

And falls glee

Until sadness bind.

:(

Be Forget... Let Go... Move On...

... ... ...?

Who could not be forget?

Who could not let go?
Who could not move on?

It was our selves...

It was our memories...
It was our past...

What about our future?
What about our present?
What about our lives?

If no one of us be forget...
If no one of us let go...
If no one of us move on...

What would happen?
What would change?
What would come?

Hard to weight?
Hard to decide?
Hard to think?

Still why we see each other?
Still why we end up dreaming?
Still why we keep searching through?

From different place...
From different cities...
From different world...

Trying to be together!
Trying to be one!
Trying to be forever!

Even if we know the real thing...?
Even if we already accept the truth...?
Even if we clearly see the future...?

Still we both not facing it!
Still we both ignores it well!
Still we both dreaming each other!

That hard to be forget...!
That hard to let go...!
That hard to move on...!

... ... ...!

Changes!

... ... ...

 

There are things not the same

The things that we usually do

Seems changes even we don't intend

Even if we don't plan it

Still we couldn't stop to change

Be more responsible and practical

Though it was hard from the start

We still have to go on the flow

 Learn to accept the whole truth

Try not to force our selves to forget

Let just do our things separately.

... ... ...

The Sea of Clouds

From the above of all land

Seeing such a mysterious sight,

Wonderful floating above the ground

Showing a wide side from light.

Such mysterious creation from heavenly

A breath taking sight to watch,

Floating so calm and gracefully

In a full and lightly batch.

Wide blue like an ocean above

With white floating cotton like,

So soft and light as it move

Floats freely that hard to dislike.

Watching it is like seeing a sea

So huge and wide open water,

That wants to be in as plea

Be nearer as wanted that matter.

... j. r. ...

Losing Right

Sometimes you could not think of the right

That may able to block the darkness within,

Where you may able to see the brightest light

That enlighten the right path from within.

Hoping to seek light from the darkness

Even though it would be hard to find,

Still seeking and searching to find the brightness

Although it would be very difficult to find.

Allowing to travel for beyond no one

Until right things losing up to seek,

And things get wrong so badly till lone

Going all alone in the dark till nothing to seek.

The Nightfall: She - Wattpad

The Nightfall: She - Wattpad

I...

I let my self live in fears,

Letting my heart be drown into tears.

I let my self befall deep in sorrow,

Letting my soul be in dark even morrow.

I let my self down that felt so dump,

Letting my mind be full that pump.

I let my self lost that hard to found,

Letting my body be in motion of hound.

I let my self fall down from nowhere,

Letting my spirit went through to elsewhere.

I let my self drop low that part,

Letting my dreams crash down so dart.

I let my self drain out till numb,

Letting my brain feels nothing but dumb.

My Shadow

We were been together for so long

We were been each other since start

We were been living each days together,

We were never been apart for so long

We were never left each other from start

We were never deny we were together.

Each passing days we shared actions

Each passing moments we made laugh

Each passing memories we were together,

Each days we live in more actions

Each moments we enjoy it to laugh

Each memories we created it together.

Walking side by side whenever light came

Walking silently each days that pass by

Walking alone as they look still I'm with you,

Walking together till the night falls came

Walking quietly each hours that pass by

Walking solely as they look still I'm with you.

... ... ...

Ruin

...

Seeing too much things

Things that hardly to seek,

...

But still manage to find

Still manage to experience,

...

Even if you don't expect

It will come so fast,

...

Hardly to step once see

Even if wanted to back off,

...

Still coming so easily

It's like a raging waves,

...

Crushing everything it pass

And would only left disaster,

...

Chaos may also describe

Because things getting worst,

...

Even trying to stop it

Still wreck would be left,

...

And there will be no time

Time to fix things in right,

...

Because it's already been ruin

A total ruin that difficult to fix.

...

Hiding!

I feel so reckless

Feeling so damn good

And yes I'm miserable,

But never the less

I love it damn good

That is very unbelievable!

This it too much

I could not handle

Not even a single thought,

Or even in easy such

As crystal hard to handle

And too hard to fought!

Wanted to curse all

But still keeping inside

Not even shouting out loud,

Keeping  my self tall

Be cheerful not in inside

Until pain covers of cloud!

Mother

She is a woman...

Who works and do her duty without expecting any payment from us,

Who would always be there to guide you all through out,

Who vows to protect you and to care for you as long as she could.

She is  a friend...

The one would stand at your side even in your worst situation,

The one who would listen to all of your stories of happiness and sadness,

The one that you can cry on and depend on all through.

She is her...

The one that we respect,

The one that we adore,

The one that we care,

The one that we love the most!

She is our Mother...

The one who would do everything and anything for the sake of her children,

She who brought us all for nine months,

She who takes care of us since we were on her tummy,

She who gave us life into this world,

She who became our first teacher in our lives,

She who became our knight till the end,

She who love us without a doubt and love us endlessly,

She is our Mother, Mommy, Mom, Mama, Ma', Mams!

Raging Phenomenon

... ... ...

Raging fire that burns till end

Throwing flames that melts a land

Burning till nothing was left behind

Till ashes covers all the ground...

... ... ...

Raging waves that crushes a surface

That flows with an expected pace

Huge water that difficult to face

That may erase an entire race...

... ... ...

Raging wind that blows so endlessly

Spinning too fast that so madly

Hitting strong air that too deadly

Crushing everything it passes that badly...

... ... ...

Raging storm that ruin anything through

Pouring water that flood so tough

Falling too strong that makes rough

Destroying all but still not enough...

... ... ...

Raging sands that hardly to encounter

Spinning dust all through the center

A very dangerous sight that matter

Moving faster that difficult to enter...

... ... ...

Raging soil that can kill lives

Dropping down like a falling leaves

Crushing all things even that moves

Covers all things like tidal waves...

... ... ...

Raging snow that frost much anything

Making an ice that so freezing

A zero visibility to insight nothing

Till cold surrounds all to everything...

... ... ...

Raging lava that falls so fast

Melting all things passes till last

Giving a toxic smell that cast

Until all things goes to past...

... ... ...