Thee... (Poetry from Mi Sueño)

When did it start?

When did it happen?

Thy memories still lingers...

Then why we were apart?

Then why we were uneven?

When thy memories still encounters...

Memories that difficult to erase

Memories that difficult to throw

That became a huge part,

Thou linger into my mind so ease

Thou linger into my heart so slow

That makes my soul apart.

I want to reach thee,

I want to tie thee up,

To make thee really do exist...

Still hard to reach thee,

Still hard to tie thee up,

That pursues to follow thy list...

No wonder how long I follow?

No wonder how far I go?

If I let thee move away so far,

What would I do after flow?

What would happen if I do?

If I let thee wonder alone from afar.

... j. r. ...

Delusion (Poetry from Mi Sueño)

Don't know how it starts?

It just like came too fast,

Difficult to dodge or run...

Don't know how it goes?

It just likes flowing so fast,

Difficult to hold on...

Until almost want to stay

Be there till the end,

And be a part of it...

Until almost living far way

Be still and ignore the end,

And be there that fit...

For how long it goes?

Ready to face the problems,

That knows from the start...

For how far it sees?

Ready to face all trials,

That knows that part...

Real or not would it matter?

When it believes so true,

Almost denying the reality...

Real or not would it better?

When it believes already glue,

Almost making it deify...

... j. r. ...

Palaisipan: Ang Ikalawa...

(_ _ _)

- Nadarama ngunit hindi nahahawakan

  Malalasahan ang alat mula sa dagat ngunit hindi nakakain

  Nakakasalamuha ng lahat ngunit hindi nakikita.

(_ _ _)

- Naisulat ng tinta ngunit laman din ng bibig

  Naglahong parang bula ang mga katibayan ngunit nakatatak sa isipan

  Naisalin sa marami at sa habang panahon

  Ngunit wala nang nabubuhay na saksi sa bawat kabanata.

(_ _ _)

Jr.

(_ _ _)

Palaisipan

(- - - - -)

* Mahalagang bagay na kailanman hindi mawawala sayo...
   Inilalagay sa malaki hanggang sa pinakamaliit na lagayan...
   Mabaho man niyayakap at pinahahalagahan ng sobra-sobra.

(- - - - -)

* Sa umaga'y makikita sa apat na matayog na nakatindig...

   Sa pagsapit ng tanghalian dalawa na lamang ang matayog na nakatindig...

   Ngunit sa pagsapit ng dilim tatlo na lamang ang nakatindig.

(- - - - -)

* Sa libo-libong taon...

   Hindi ito kailanman tumamis...

   Maging gaano man kalawak...

   Haba man ng sakupin...

   Kailanman bughaw nitong kulay...

   Hinding-hindi magbabago.

(- - - - -)

* Tatalbog man sa malayo,

   Hindi mawawala sayo...

   Malayo man o malapit,

   Hindi na kailangang humakbang palapit...

   Gaano man kalawak o kalayo,

   Masisilayan lahat-lahat.

(- - - - -)

Jr.

(- - - - -)

Two Different Worlds

Wanting to cross the bridge

A bridge connecting to other world

Where there is someone waiting at the other side,

Someone standing at the end of the bridge

Wanting to be collide in one world

Where they can stands in each other side.

But no one dares to go through to it

No one steps forward through the bridge

No one moves at their places,

Though their hearts has been through to it

Still their bodies left behind the bridge

Savor their moments even if they live in different places.

Jr.

Back Into Steel...

>===<

Nay old self neither my soul

Treats like nothing but a fool

Condemn harshly without fighting back

Does not have any good luck

Always failing to stand still

That crawl it back into steel...

>===<

Jr.

>===<

Stays Forever...

--->

Searching through times that is gone
Reaching through chances that is passed
Trying to hold on through this last time,
Moments that has been long gone
Memories that has been already passed
Keep it tight through a long time.

In bad times and in good times together
Forever stays in heart until its end
Never been forgotten even times passes by,
In good and bad health will be together
Forever stand by your side till the end
Never live your memories even time pass by.

--->

Jr.

--->

Dreams Will Past...

.

Darkness will scatter the night

The sky blind the light

Eyes start to sleep tight

And soon dreams will sight...

Shows some things in real

Memories from past that seal

Memories from present that deal

Opens a wound already heal...

Dreams or nightmare still fear

That is hardly to bear

Things and places that near

Voices that hardly to hear...

Many places first to see

Place that huge and wee

Able to go without fee

Where people meet like bee...

Different person able to know

Friendship may able to grow

Even love may be glow

That runs fast and free flow...

It is destined or fate

Because love exists to mate

Hardly to trust or to hate

That opens a new gate...

A love will be vast

Although unknown to be last

Not even know how fast

Because soon dreams will past.

.

Jr.

.

Death to Hold

, . , . ,

One by one

Memories by past

Starts to unfold,

One by tone

Struggles for last

Losing to mold,

Piercing through bone

Bleeding behind cast

Death to hold!

, . , . ,

Jr.

, . , . ,

All Because of You!

... ... ...

"I have a pain that never fades no matter what I do,
  No matter how hard I try to heal it,
      It would spin back through me,
        A pain that aches too much,
          A breathless pain that is hard to let it go."

... ... ...

"I hate waiting!
  I hate looking!
   I hate wanting!
    I hate the feeling of being lost!
     But I keep waiting, looking, wanting and feeling being lost!
           Because no matter what I do and think!
                         You were still the one I choose!
                               The one and only I wait!
                                     I look for!
                                      I want for!
                                       And be lost because of you."

... ... ...

"I never want to surrender.
  Because I want to fight till the end,
                Even though there would be no ending so fight.
                        I still keep on fighting.
                         For someone who does not deserve to fight for.
                              For someone who never wants to meet.
                                   For someone never fights for me.
                                        Still I won't surrender."

... ... ...

"Jr."

... ... ...

So Sudden...

. . .

A sudden rush of pain

Comes in at one flow

Crushes deeply and deadly,

Blows everything in vein

Till blood burst out in blow

Kills unexpected and silently.

. . .

Jr.

. . .

Worst Inflame

(T_T)

Feeling so down

That no one knows,

Feeling so alone

That growing and glows,

Until senses be blown.

Right mind lose

That left only miseries,

Right turns gone

That wrecks memories,

Until self are oppose.

Bind by darkness

That difficult to escape,

Bind by worse

That evil gives shape,

Until things covers blindness.

Living to blame

That kills the mind,

Living wrong course

That ends right bind,

Until its worst inflame.

(T_T)

Jr.

(T_T)

Greeting for an Ending to the Beginning

***

2016 To 2017

***

Another year would soon be ended

To welcome a new year of new journeys,

Another number will be added

To open challenges of new journeys.

Another year may ended to open a new

To welcome new openings of opportunities,

Another counting will soon be renew

Continues flowing new opportunities.

The end of twenty-sixteen soon ends

And the twenty-seventeen comes openly,

Where challenges may be even tough trends

But keep moving on forward openly.

***

*Have a Happy New Year to everyone and Welcome Twenty-Seventeen (2017)*

***

Jr.

***

Merry Christmas!

...

Have a joyous life,

Thanking all the blessings receives,

For the birth of the Christ,

A celebration that celebrates every year,

A day where gifts presents,

Where a family gets together,

To celebrate in simple,

Or in Grande,

Let's have a wonderful Christmas,

Merry Christmas to everyone!

...

Jr.

...

A Hard One

There are things we couldn't know

Things that hard to explain,

Couldn't see the real things how

Even to think are harder to complain.

Though help may able to ask

But it's hard to speak it up,

A difficult word to be a task

A task would be hard to wind-up.

Harder than to speak and to show

Still in the midst of knowing,

Having a hard time to see beyond shadow

Until the edged come flowing.

~~~ / ~~~ / ~~~

Note:

A poem comes from Thin Line.

~~~ / ~~~ / ~~~

Jr.

He Knows...

...

In life, we can never tell for how long we may live.

For how long we could be happy or sad and even be mad or hate.

We could never know the journey of our lives would be enough to us to find our destination.

We could never know how many challenges in our lives that's ahead of us.

All we know that the God was the one who knows everything.

He knows what would we be soon He gave us our lives.

For how long our journey we could be going.

For how many challenges that He will be given to us.

God knows everything!

Though, we, His children, has been given us our own mind to think and to make our own decisions to ourselves.

To choose what we want to do to our own lives.

It is because He wants us to live free!

Free to live free to decide, free for everything we want in life.

That is the one He gives to us, an important gift to cherish for a life time!

A freedom to have our own life to live in to the fullest of it...

...

Jr.

Questions

??? - ???

Am I suffering?
Maybe or maybe not...
Am I hiding in pain?
Maybe or maybe yes!

Are my laughs were real?
Maybe or maybe not...
Are my tears were true?
Maybe or maybe yes!

Am I an artist, an actress?
Am I a pretender?
Or maybe I am hiding in a mask?
Maybe or it could be a yes.

Hiding from nowhere...
Suffers inside while facing with a smile...
Too much questions but can answer
But keep it hidden behind far.

Hiding the questions of pains
Suffers alone in the dark,
Keeps smiling to show someone a peace of mind
Even though it doesn't mean I am fine.

??? - ???

Jr.

??? - ???

Love Quotes...

~~~ ~~~

"They say love is blind...
         So the ugly truth hides beyond...
 That may able to hurt if you can't accept...
        But they say when love is true and real...
 A love that is endless for eternity...
   The ugly truth would be accepted..."

~~~ ~~~

"I don't know you from the beginning...
  I just met you once...
 I just see you once...
  But my heart quickly beat on you...
 And my soul goes crazy looking for you...
       And I fall for you deeply unknown..."

~~~ ~~~

"Deepening love doesn't mean give all of you...
                  But give your trust and loyalty to that person...
 Be friends and treat each other equally...
     Accept the person's perfections and imperfections...
 Fight for your love until the end...
         That strengthens the bond of love..."

~~~ ~~~

"Why do love always asking questions?
        As if something is not yet clear...
 Seeking for something to prove more...
              Still not enough that ruins relationship...
 Until things goes bad and wrong...
        So don't ask too many questions...
 Just learn to trust and express how much you love that person...
        And let love goes on smoothly..."

~~~ ~~~

"Jr."

~~~ ~~~

Words from Him

"I'll never give you these challenges if you won't surpass it. Because I know you could surpass it no matter what you thought. No matter what you do, you may able to stand it and win from it. The reason why I gave you this to make show how tough you are facing each trials, that you've already been winning and still winning until now. And I'll always be here waiting, watching and guiding you all through out of each challenge in your life. I am you God."

Jr.

Emotions Driven Far Beyond.

          (Emotions)

          Nothing can compare how much deep these feelings envelop within me.

         Creating something that is only written within my mind and only can be seen within it.

          Some things that could not be define by simply saying by words.

          Feelings that deepen in times and had been toughen the surface of emotions.

          Emotions that are starting building up high enough to reach an imaginable pace.

          Though an emotions that was never really occur neither to come out nor to burst out.

          Hidden within in the deepest self not even my soul could reach within.

          Driven too far beyond the world of nothingness where darkness resides.

          A world that myself only knows where my entire emotions driven far beyond.

          (Beyond)

         Jr.

Meets like Spike

Meeting at first sight

Makes me wonder

Makes my mind think,

Second meeting opens light

Fill my heart with tender

A letter forms without ink.

I suddenly want to know

Everything about you entirely

Everything you want and like,

The one who stops the snow

That warms my heart so admirably

Meeting you is like an unexpected spike.

<3 <3 <3

Jr.

<3 <3 <3

Damage from Inside

Multiple stitches drawn deadly

Thousand bruises scars rapidly,

Blood surfacing in front

Ruin totally upfront,

Cover in plain light

Hide deep beyond sight.

.-. .-. .-.

Jr.

.-. .-. .-.

Three Words...

--- --- ---

Hidden behind smile
Rapture deep inside,
Suffers long mile
Aching each side.

Bleeding enough badly
Keeps moving forward,
Facing everything toughly
Walking through onward.


--- --- ---

Jr.

--- --- ---

A Battle

What is right?

What is wrong?

Those who see bright?

Those who suffer long?
Where nothing to light?

Where pain had to prolong?

---c---

Jr.

---c---

M.E.E.T.

M - oments to

E - njoy and

E - ngage in

T - ime for eternity.

To MEET that starts to forever.

- - -

Jr.

- - -

Fame

---c---

With all fame

There is a shame

Hidden in flame

Preventing to blame

Thus truth would be lame.

---c---

Jr.

---c---

Sin...

...

Devour with madness

Cover with sadness,

Shower in pain

Capture in vain.

...

Conquer with lies

Ruin with cries,

Clash by words

Slain by sounds.

...

Crash like a waste

Stick like a paste,

Throw into deep shame

Desert into deep flame.

...

Jr.

...

T.I.M.E.

* * *

T - ogether for

I - nfinity of

M - emories to

E - ngrave forever.

A T.I.M.E. would last to eternity.

* * *

Jr.

* * *

Who Are You?

???

Who are you following me?
Who are you that watch me?
Whenever I go that far you were always there.
Wherever I go you would always be there.

Who are you that keep showing?
Why do you always keep showing?
Whatever I do you always stays right at my side.
No matter how far it is you always be at my side.

Why do you always stay?
What is it that makes you stay?
Always lives you behind to keep you away.
Always making you left alone by running away.

Am I worth it of your time?
Am I precious more than your time?
Wasting each time I have to run away from you.
Trash each moment just to hide away from you.

Hurt you with intent so bluntly deep.
Wound your heart so brutally deep.
But you still come right next to me.
And you always stay watching over me.

???

Jr.

???

Heart and Soul

Whoever wants to seek in Me...

Whoever wants to ask for Me...

Don't just look around to search.

Don't just question around to reach.

Seek through your heart.

Ask through your soul.

Where in your hearts could find Me.

Where in your souls could speak to Me.

... ... ...

Jr.

... >_< ...

The Worst of the Humankind

...

Ears use to hear,

       But most of the time ears uses as being deaf.

Eyes use to see,

        But most of the time eyes uses as being blind.

Senses use to feel,

            But most of the time senses uses as being numb.

Mind use to think,

       But most of the time mind uses as being idiot.

Heart use to love,

         But most of the time heart uses as being stupid.

Body use to work,

        But most of the time body uses as being toy.

That makes the humans most of the time as being deaf, blind, numb, idiot, stupid and toy.

       That made the world fall down into pieces of nothing but worst of the humankind.

...

Jr.

...

Paths

= = = = =

In life you would experience too many paths

Facing you through your front

Where choices opens so widely

Where ideas scattered everywhere

Choices that would be harder to achieve

Ideas that would be harder to do

So being on the midst of choices and ideas

Being tough is need to continue moving

Because facing each of the different paths

Opens a lot of goal that wanting to be reach

Wanting to fulfill and passes

Even if you struggle at first

Struggle so hard and badly

In rough and in suffer

Still you will soon find the right path for you

A path you deserve from the very beginning.

= = = = =

Jr.

 = = = = =

Would Not be Together Forever

...

The distance that we have

Is far from what we see

Further than what we think

Harder than what we seek...

The location is harder to save

Far beyond what we flee

Longer enough to sink

That makes it too weak.

The harder it goes through

The harder to struggle

The more it makes tougher

That losing strength on the way...

The harder to fight that cough

The more it entangle

That makes it rougher

Harder to escape and to fly.

That makes us part

Far from each other

Not able to hold or touch

Not able to be together...

That makes our heart apart

Even though we hold each other

Even though we reach

We would not be together forever.

...

Jr.

...

Never Ending Wanting

...

     Waiting for someone so near,

            Is the hardest thing to do...

     Looking for that person so badly,

             Is a challenge that needs to pass...

     Finding a way to be together,

            Is the most impossible to be true...

     Hoping that you come to my world,

           Is something that is only a wishful thinking...

     Living with your memories,

         Is the toughest thing to do...

    Breathing without you on my side,

              Is like forcing myself to live...

     Dreaming of you all through,

               Is the only thing I could see you...

     Being on a different paths,

          Is something I want to change...

     Feeling my own heart beat,

            Is only beating for you...

     Thinking a way to be with you,

             Is the only chance I could live...

     Making a way to cross our ways,

           Is the only way to be with you...

     A never ending journey to be with you,

        Is only the beginning of my wanting.

...

     ... Jr.

...

I Wait Until You Come

"I'm lonely and alone here for so long...
       And all I have to do is wish and wait,
 For someone who will save me from this place.
        But still no one comes and no one tries to search...
 Not even tried to invade this place.
        But I never lose hope!
 That one day...
          You would come and saves me.
 And you will take me out of here.
         From this empty place,
 A place I've been prison.
     So in the end...
 I decided to wait with full of hope into my heart.
    No matter how long would it be,
 I will wait patiently and I will not surrender!
    Forever I will wait until you come!
 I will fight until the end!
    Until I see you save me."

"Jr."

Me (God)

-

Seek me... in heart and soul.

Learn me... in inside deep.

Explore me... in heart and mind.

Don't make me mine...

Instead make me yours...

Don't just be with me...

Instead just stay with me...

Don't speak with your mouth...

Instead speak with your heart...

-

Jr.

-

Deadly Sins

...

An eye that can see but can never ever see...

An ear that can hear but can never ever hear...

A hand that can hold but can never ever hold...

A foot that can walk but can never ever walk...

A mouth that can speak but can never ever speak...

...

Honesty that could show but never been shown.

Words that could speak but never been spoken.

Emotions that could feel but never have been felt.

Trust that could give but never been given.

Truth that could reveal but never been revealed.

...

With an eye that can show honesty,

With an ear that could speak what it hear,

With a hand that can hold to feel,

With a foot that could give trust to step up,

With a mouth that can reveals truth,

Becomes nothing more than a display that shows that world where lust, gluttony, greed, sloth, wrath, envy and pride lives on.

... ...

Jr.

... ... ...

The One...

Someone to talk

Someone to walk,

Someone who protects

Someone who corrects,

Someone that stay

Someone that sway,

The one and only be with forever.

Someone to love

Someone to live,

Someone who cares

Someone who adores,

Someone that can understand

Someone that can withstand,

The one and only accepts who you are.

Jr.

Humans

-Thy Soul-

"A white and clear silk lightly falls on the ground like a white single feather floating down to nowhere. Swaying without a clear direction until it reaches and touches the bottom. Where it would settle still until dust and dirt covers it that pollutes its pureness and ruins the beauty it has."

-After Death-

"The east and west horizontally tied up tightly while the north and the south pointing straight at the ground. Soon lays at the sharp edge waiting down below ready to shower the space at the bottom. And soon the sharp edge rises up above showing a white shinning light all over that will cover the ground of crimson light where the hollow awakes within. Which opens a new portal of journey that is waits for so long."

-Unseen Faith-

"The wind starts to whistle sharply that struggle the flow of sound uncontrollably. It's like a tiny little piece of needles that is hard to see that breaks the thin line into ashes. Mix in the air like a dust that pains the white walls and the black round front that makes things into zero visibility."

-Jr.-

For How Long?

...? ...? ...?

For how long would they wait?

To meet and cross their paths,

To finally ended up their sufferings,

To finally finish up what they started,

To start a new that lightens up their future.

...? ...? ...?

...?

For how long their roads would go forward?

Forward to meet and see each other often,

Forward to finally go together in one road,

Forward from present to future together,

Forward a road of their beginnings.

...?

???

Jr.

???

L. O. S. T.

... ... ...

Life is not just expectation or hope

It is also provides to move and to cope,

To observe more that could add knowledge

To learn and to achieve more than its edge,

A life not holding just to expect or to hope for

But a life that shows an open door.

- Life

... ... ...

Observe to learn would not be enough

It is also needs to join and to work tough,

To experience it and to live alive

To get used to it and be on a jive,

To observe is not just to learn to see

But to learn to go on with it in flee.

- Observe

... ... ...

Spirit is not just a soul of a human

It is also a will to fight like a man,

To live longer enough with contentment

To reach the goals and dreams with fulfillment,

A spirit not just a part of a human soul

But a spirit of fierce without foul.

- Spirit

... ... ...

Trade is not just a simple exchange of goods

It is also trading knowledge with good foods,

To feed enough knowledge of each lands

To enrich a mind with a strong bands,

To trade not just a simple exchange

But it is a greater chance to change.

- Trade

... ... ...

Jr.

... ... ...

Quotes: Love Feelings

...

"Fall for me and I'll make sure you won't regret falling in love with me."

...

...

"If that guy promises you  the stars and the moon... then I won't make any promises! I would just hand it all to you without any words or promises!"

...

...

"My heart beats only belong to you and if I lose you... my heart would suddenly stop beating."

...

...

"You. Me. Love. Then... You and me in love forever!"

...

...

"Puppy love. First love. It doesn't mean that automatically it is an endless love. Because the most important thing is when I found the right one that I knew it would be my endless love even just for a sight and meeting at first."

...

...

"Slippers and shoes are like a love. You won't be able to wear one if the other half missing its other half. And for that, you are my other half."

...

Jr.

...

You...

You're like a wave

Coming so calmly,

Waving at the shore

Smoothly and lightly,

Soon it becomes storm

That could tear so purely.

You're like a wind

Passing around the earth,

Circling and folding all over

Giving fresh air in birth,

Though it may change

Cause a harmful air in forth.

You're like a fire

Ignites brightly at the dark,

Lighten up a heart

Burning on its mark,

That could lift up danger

Cause to start a negative spark.

You're like an ice

Cold as a crystal block,

Hard to break apart

Frozen for a longer clock,

Ends nothing but cold heart

Hurt one soul in the dock.

... ... ...